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The Moral Morgan
It is not that he doesn´t trust the team. He does. Mostly, at least. It is just that he really doesn´t want to share some things with other people. Not even the team. He refuses to do it. It is after all his life, he decides who he trust and who he shares what with. He told Emily about what Buford did to him, he told Reid about when he was bullied, but only because he wanted to. Well, in Reid´s case it was more about helping Reid. But some things are to private, and therefore he´ll probably take them with him to the grave.
The first time he had sex he almost couldn´t go through with it because of what Buford did to him. Luckily he doesn´t have that problem anymore, because he refuses to let it control him. Unfortunately it still does. It prevents him from trusting people, from allowing them in and from having a real relationship.
Garcia means the world to him and there is absolutely nothing he wouldn´t do for her. She is his little angle.
He might be a tough guy now, but he still thinks with humiliation of the bullies that beat him up and what Buford did to him. What he said to Reid was true: You forget half of what you learn in high school, but when it comes to the pain and the humiliation you go through there, everyone got an elephant´s memory.
He does miss his mother and sister and he wishes he could spend some more time with them, but he has to do catch these sick bastards and frankly he is not to found of going back to Chicago. Too many bad memories.
Garcia might be his best friend and Reid is like a little brother to him, but Prentiss is without a doubt the person he trusts the most and the one that he is closest to in the whole world.
It hurt him to lose Elle. She had been a good friend to him, even though they hadn´t been close. But somehow, with time she became a distant memory and Emily became a part of the team. The same happened with Gideon after Rossi came. One moment it felt so strange to have someone else than Gideon around but the next it felt like it had been like that forever and Jason Gideon became nothing more than a name of someone he used to know.
It really stung when his knee got hurt and he couldn´t play anymore. Not that he had planned to make a carrier out of it (already back than law enforcement spoke to him) but it still was heart-breaking.
Being unit chief really gave him a taste of responsibility that was heavy, bust still surprisingly appealing to him. But he was glad to have Hotch back, and he never would have considered preventing him from getting it back. Especially not when Jack looked up to his father like that. Like he had looked up to his father.
Now, years later, he still has nightmares about it when his father died. Fortunately they don´t come as often as they did when he was younger.
One of these days Reid is not going to have his luck with him. He is going to do something stupid, like with Bryar or Hankle, or get unlucky like the time with Cyrus, and he won't make it. It terrifies Morgan and he tries not to think about it, but he knows it is true. Spencer Reid will die in the field.
