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Cathryne POV

"Hideout My Alexandr, See you there" I said to him in a sexy yet innocent voice. After I ended the call, I began laughing like crazy. I can't believe I used the tone on Adrian. My friends taught me "how to act seductive" before but I never really used those tips ever. Just now. Why? Because I want to experience my first real kiss, even just in a dream. Pathetic? I know.

~flashback~

My friends. Maya, Krista, Lauren, Elle, and Ashley decided to sleep over in my apartment after our usual friday night out. I knew it was a bad idea as soon as they bombarded me with questions. "Who are they? And how come we don't know that such persons existed in your life?" Maya asked. I sighed. I know they wouldn't drop the conversation easily and I'm not really in the mood to talk about it. So I'l just answer their questions til they shut up. "Because they are my ex boyfriends, and they are past" i said in a matter of factly tone."Wait.. What? You mean those hot guys are all your exes?" Krista asked. "Yes, they are. And they're just my friends now. K?" "Sooo.. How are they in you know. Um" Elle asked. And I looked at her obviously confused. "She wants to know how are they in bed" said Lauren, then Elle raised her eyebrow and Lauren sighed. "Also, she wants to know if who's the most gentle, worst, and who among them has way to much patience since Elle here cannot give them that yet because she's one of those girls." Lauren said lazily then she rolled her eyes. Great. Just great. Elle blushed, and so did I. That's when they found out that I have no experience what so ever and they laughed at me, then taught me "the tips"

I rolled my eyes while reminiscing..

THE DREAM

I was so nervous which is why I decided to just lay in the water bed. Adrian joined me stargazing while hugging me. We lay there in comfortable silence.. I decided I'l be the strong girl that I am and do the first move. When I was about to move so that I could kiss him, he said something.. Then I was lost. What did he say? "Angel I think I might be falling inlove." I just stared at him.. Wha-what? Uhh.. I felt so so lost, and afraid. What if questions are bombarding my brain. First thing I knew I was happy, then sad, then afraid, then deppressed, then I don't know anymore. Like I was in auto-pilot mode, I heard a voice say "With Who?" then he said "With Rosemarie Hathaway" after that I just felt weak, I don't know what to do.. I wanted to cry but i can't show him that. I just smiled at him then left the dream. I blocked him out, and turned off my phone. I just cried that night til it just all crashed on me.. I am alone, weak, unhappy, stuck, tired, and broken hearted.. This can't be happening..


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