Chapter 3
Lonely without you

I woke with a start breathing deeply; shakily I rolled over to the edge and dangled me feet toward the floor. Taking deep breaths, I needed some fresh air, opening the door I stepped outside. I moved the chair closer to the fence. I sat down and breathed deeply to regain myself. After a few minutes I calmed down, but I kept thinking about the dream, how I felt at home with the wolf, how I wanted to kiss Kiba. I was overwhelmed with it all. One minuet I was looking on and the chair started tipping, the next everything went black.

"CHEZA! CHEZA! Wake up come on." I began to blink, shaking me head and saying,
"OK, OK I'm up." Once my eyes were fully open I saw that Kiba was holding me.
"You scared me there for a bit, I saw you falling, but only when you didn't get up I-I I glad your OK." He gave me a sheepish smile, and looked shy. I was still looking up at his eyes. I stared in to the deep blue pools, and felt like I'd seen them before. I felt butterfly's in my stomach they rose up to my throat. But didn't stop, it felt as though they jumped in his eyes. The eyes flashed yellow, and then it hit me. I jumped out of his arms. If felt like with air had been knocked out of me. I fell onto the chair and put my head in my hands.
"Are you OK? Is it something I've done?"
"No, just ignore me."
"OK well, we've both misses half the day, I told them to leave without me."
"Told who? How did you see me fall or faint or whatever"
"I told, Tsume and Hige to take Toboe to school. Blue will always go where Hige goes, and we live next door I came out here to get some air when you fainted. Why did you faint it's not something that randomly happens."
"I was thinking too hard."
"You must be OK if you've found the time to be humorous." He said laughing; he grabbed my hand and pulled me up. He did it with little force but I still fell into his chest. Blushing I stepped back and saw that he didn't mind. I looked down shyly and saw that I was still in my bed clothes.
"Um, I think I should get changed, into something more coverable, wait here. Um … you go I'll meet you at school" I opened the door to by room and shut it behind me, closing the curtains I began to dig through my draws.
I heard him say "I'm not going to school, show me around I can tell the other what I saw."
I smiled at what he said; I mean it is healthy to skip school once in a while.
"Okay then I'll me out in a minute". I decided to wear jeans and my favourite top with a white wolf, with a red wolf nuzzling each other with a pup at their feet. Grabbing my new heels and shoving the on my feet I went outside and asked "Wanna come for a walk you can see what's it's like around here." I grabbed his hand and noticed that were the same height now. Leading him through the house I saw that he looked at all the wolf pictures I have hanging up and stared at each one. I led him out of the house and fumbled with my keys
"Nice shirt." He said as I locked the door being us and turned to face him.
"Thanks, it reminds me of my parents, my mum and my dad" I gestured to them as I told him.
He frowned at me as he said "So who's the little whitish one?"
"Me" I said weakly, wishing that they were here, so I could know them better. He stared at me and tilted his head, silently asking for more. Ignoring that I asked "So where do you want to go?" He snapped at of his gaze at my question, and simply replied
"You tell me, I haven't been here long" I sighed, he moved here without knowing anything about the place, so why did he come here? It's not a perfect area to live in.
"Well, I usually visit the wolf conservation, wanna come, well you're coming" He smiled at the fact I asked a question then gave him the answer. I began in the human direction, to get there. He flowed silently in tow, but after a few steps began talking.
"So, how long have you been here?"
"Um… since I was about… ten I think." To be honest, I had no idea I just stumbled here I guess.
"So you know there are well."
"Yep, turn here" I turned us into another street, the closer I got to the wolves, the more my heart seemed to pull me. "So are you staying here long?"
"Not sure, were trying to find … paradise. Somewhere we all feel at home" He looked forward then at me, I smiled shyly and kept walking. As I took another step I felt him gentle grasp my wrist, and turn me too look at him. I stared at him, and then tried to turn away, as my dream rushed into view. I leaned forward uncontrollably, I couldn't fight it. I forced my eyes to open, and fought with myself to turn away, but my heart wouldn't let me. Kissing him would be amazing. Before I had the chance he let go of my wrist and took a few steps back. "I shouldn't have done that, I don't even like you." He looked at me, and then tried to change what he'd said, but I'd already bolted back and through an alleyway. Tears welled up in my eyes but I fought them, why do I care what he thinks. I jumped up onto a roof and changed, my emotions driving the wolf from me, she felt my pain, and began to howl a sorrowful song. Then ran toward the wolves answering her call. She began to cry, and then I did. I ran and jumped over the fence, not one hair on my pelt touched it. As I ran the other wolves watched me and bowed their heads politely and sadly. I ran to the huge tree in the centre of the conservation, and hid under one of the outgrowing roots letting the tears flow over my face, I shivers as the cool air washed over their trail. Why was I crying, I has no reason to cry, I don't love him, do I. My mind and heart were battling out, in the end my heart one. I had fallen for him, over the matter of two days. I sniffed and buried my face into my paws, the more I cried the deeper my head fell. I heard paws approach me, so I became defensive. Jolting up right all my fur standing on end. I turned to face the approaching wolf. My eyes went wide when I saw it was the white wolf. I niffed lightly, scenting that it was male. I growled at him, but he didn't move. He moves close to my and sniffed my neck. I nipped him still growling. I moved back noticing the warning. I wanted to speak but kept quiet. He sat in front of me, and just looked. I slowly began to calm down. My mind was shouting and screaming to run, but I held my ground. He boldly walked over to me, and nipped my neck softy. I knew this was a greeting but I didn't like it, I felt like I was betraying Kiba. I began to say no, but I stopped myself again. I growled deeply demanding to be left alone. He sat there and watched again. This time I carried on growling, I wanted to be alone to clear my head. His yellow eyes bored into mine, he demanded that I should stop, and I did. He gave a small smile, as if he enjoyed having power over me. Well, I walked up to him, and began to sniff him, but I swiped his front paws with my tail. I pranced off seeing him lying on the ground. His eyes shot up at me angry, very angry. He lunged at me his jaws snapping, but I'm fast. My fur was bristling; I growled and snarled at his outburst. He looked at me then calmed down. I was angry so I lunged at his chewing the fur on his neck. He rolled and I lost my grip, but I carried ion snarling at him. His stood up so that his full size could be viewed he was a little taller than I. His eyes, looked at me and I fell into them again and saw what he did. A pretty white wolf, with brown/red patters spread across her back. I jumped back surprised. He hesitantly walked toward me, I froze. I couldn't move I was rooted to the spot. He was a few feet away from me when he stopped. He nodded his head and sat. It wasn't a wolf gesture. I stared wondering, was he really like me. My body began to move a few steps closer to him, I sniffed lightly. He didn't smell native to these parts, I tilted my head confused. A low bark escaped me, a soft sound. He got up and walked away from the pack, as if to make this private. I waited a little then followed him. I went behind a tree, when I went over he'd gone. In a flash I was on my back looking up at him standing over me, he was looking at me intently. I didn't move, his jaws could crush me if he really wanted to. Slowly he backed away. Then he looked straight into my eyes, "Your part wolf too?" My eyes went wide, he was part wolf. Then I heard what his voice sounded like, it was Kiba.
I shook my head in disbelief "How, can you tell?" I got to my feet and sniffed him. "I smelt you back there, but I thought I was wrong." His eyes glowed.
"I thought we were the only ones"
"We?" Are, the others part wolf too?
"Me, and my pack. I thought we were the only ones. How long have you lived here, it's bad to stay in one place to long. You could get found out." I laughed
"Well, I've lived here since I was about five; I think I won't be found out since now I'm seventeen. So how many are in your pack" I shook my head and wagged my tail
"Including me five, how did you stay here this long undiscovered?" I sighed, and smiled.
"Well, I rarely use my wolf form, like once a month I come down here." He looked at me shocked.
"You like being human?" I shook my head again.
"No, it's easier. I like feeling free, but I don't know how to be." He walked close to me and nuzzle my neck. I wanted to lean in, but I couldn't trust this soon. "Well, I'm going to go home" I know we just me and we should talk for ages about our kind but I just wanted to go home. I turned toward the fence.
"I'll come with you" He jump behind me, I want to show off so I took three bounds and jumped over the fence. Not a hair on my body felt the metal blow me. My paws touched the ground and I turned to wait for him. Silently asking if he could do better. He jumped over just like I had and wagged his tail.
"Okay, I can go on my own now" I was scared of what he would do at the sight off my human form.
"Well, we should see each other first, you try." I sighed, and turned morphed and stood with my back to him. I heard him change behind me. "Okay, on the count of three. One…Two…Three" When I turned I saw I was right, Kiba was standing there wide eyed as he saw it was me. He weakly whispered. "Cheza" I turned away.
""Why do you care, you, you don't like me." I refused to look at him, I began to walk. I was feeling so lonely.
"I do-" I cut him off.
"Really! I got a different impression. Just, just leave me alone" I began to run home. A ran a little while and his hand grasped my wrist. He turned me to look at him, we were so close our noses were almost touching. I took a step back, and he took one closer. I was getting frustrated. "What, what do you want from me?" He looked at me with his blue eyes, and said what I wanted to here.
"You… I want you" I stood there stunned, he came closer to me. "I said no, because I knew that it's wrong to feel, the way I do, because I didn't know you were a wolf. You're a wolf, so I can now be truthful"

Sorry for not up-dating busy in school hope to get the next chapter up soon
~KarmaDash