What the hell -4

I stared in amazement "Excuse me, you WANT me, I'm not a possession. AND be truthful to me, I haven't been around my own kind for years. YOU should have realised." He said nothing then, took in what I said.
"I, I didn't realise how could I, your scent is much more human than most. I didn't know if it was because I've been among wolves so long, it seems I don't know. I don't like, not knowing." I stared a little. Thinking should I just scream out it's too late but, I don't. No, no we can't, he rejected me.
"It, it's too late, I, I have to go." The words stung my heart, I'm sure they stung his too, but they had to be said. If he rejected me then, why should I being a wolf change that? I turned away and ran, and then the tears started to fall. The next think I knew he was standing in front of me an inch away. His scent filled my nose, and all I could do was sigh. The smell of him made me dizzy. E gripped my lower arms with him hand.
"You weren't listening were you" I looked up at him, wide eyed.
"Yes, you regec-" He cut me off.
"No, I said, I didn't like you. Not that I didn't love you" I stared un-blinking. I closed the gap between us. Not saying anything.
"Then why did you stop?" I breathed out, as I looked down. He tilted my gin up so he could see my eyes.
"Because, well because it was too soon, I didn't know if you felt the same way."
"You're an idiot, you know that right. All girls react different. You're the first person to ever show interest in me" I felt a blush rise on my cheeks, I think he saw it. He eyes trailed over my face. I blinked slowly, feeling shy. The next thing, I knew his lips were on mine. Then he drew away, but he was slow. I kissed him back, I felt him give in and carry on. I broke it up, reluctantly. Then I looked at him, and shyly smiled. He smiled back.
"Let me walk you home, we should talk." I nodded and began walking, a small skip. I got a little ahead when he held my hand; he looked at me and smiled. I happily pulled him to my home. Smiling madly the whole way.

When we got to my house, my hand felt sweaty. I had just walked home with a boy, and a cute one at that. I opened the door and signalled for him to sit in the living room (or lounge if you prefer) I went to the kitchen and grabbed to coke's and a packet of sweets to munch on. I walked in calmly and sat beside him, handing over the coke. "Thanks, so where do I begin" I watched him spill about how he met his friends, and felt sad for Blue as she grew up like a dog. When he finished I took a deep breath and told him about me. When I told him about me parents I could sense his anger, I rubbed my collar while speaking, it was giving me confidence to talk about my life. He listened to my every word. Once I finished he sat there, then slowly reached to grab my hand. He rubbed small circles over my skin. "So you've always lived on you own, just like me. In a way, I'm glad. If you hadn't we probably wouldn't have met" felt saddened at this but I understood, I'm glad, I had met him.

We talks for what seemed like forever until an alarm on my watch went. I looked at him "Schools out, your friend will be here soon" I saw his eyes sadden, but he asked me a question that needed to be answered.
"Can I tell them, or would you…" He left it open to my answer, all I did was nod. I sighed then got up.
"I guess you better go, I think you need to do this alone. I need… to get my head around a real pack." He stood beside me and looked deep into my eyes.
"Are you sure, I can stay-" I cut him off
"No, no, they should be told, I'll be fine I'll see you tomorrow" I led him to door. He stepped outside, and turned to me.
"I'd be back around ten" Before I could tell him not he had gone. I closed the door and happily sighed. Glad that he was coming back. I cleaned up the empty coke cans and made my way to my room. I fell onto my bed with an `oomph` smiling like a mad person, which I'm pretty sure I am. Turned on my side, happy that I knew he was coming back. I couldn't believe how fast I'd fallen for him. Sighing that I'd need to wait I thought that I should clean up a bit to pass the time.

When I finished I looked at the clock, and saw that it was now 9:30 I stared amazed that it had taken so long to clean up. Panicking about how I looked I went to change clothes. I looked through my draws, finally finding something I liked. Jeans a plain t-shirt and red heels. I walked out of my room and sat sad down, flipping on the TV to some random channel about food. Sighing at my boredom I looked at the door hoping that it would know soon. But my hope was cut short when I heard a crash from next door. I got up and walked outside, and turned to look at Kiba's house. Staring hard and listening for any sound. The next thing I knew Kiba was standing outside. He looked at me and jumped over this fence onto my patio. I stood and waited for him to speak. He didn't, so I made the first move.
"What happened?" He looked up then at me, shook his head and answered.
"Well, they don't know whether to trust you, or should I say Tsume doesn't know if he can trust you. Toboe agrees that you can get a chance. Hige and Blue both like you they want you to join"
I stared at him "Be given a chance…join? What do you mean" I has the strange feeling he was inviting me to his pack, I can't leave here just for him … can I.

"Well to come with us …" I turned from him, and looked down.
"I can't this is my home" I turned and looked at him, my gaze fixed on his face "Why can't you stay here, there's enough room. You don't need to hide here" He took a deep breath before answering.
"How do we know that, somehow we get found out" I grabbed his hand and spoke an edge of sarcasm coming out
"I've lived here, like, my whole life. Don't you think being on my own I would have let it slip that I was part wolf." He smiled, and took a step back.
"Come on then, lets tell them, surly it must be safe if they haven't worked it out yet. They won't hurt you, not while I'm here." I giggled a little
"I may be shy, but I'm not as sweet as you would think. I can take care of myself OK"
He smiled and jumped back from where he came, I followed easily being used to umping around. He took a steady pace into his home. I followed ion a light skip to my pace behind him. Immediately all eyes were on us, one pair burning a glare into my forehead. I ignored it and followed Kiba, as he made his way to a seat.
"OK, before you jump to conclusions, she not coming with us b-"

Tsume was the first to answer cutting Kiba off mid-sentence "I told you, tell her to go home." Before Kiba could react, I jumped onto Tsume, and changed my canine teeth inches from his throat. I sweetly whispered to him.
"I'm not miss shy girl I take care of myself. You don't trust me, what makes you think that I trust you." With that I stood up and strutted to stand beside Kiba "Carry on" Kiba took a second then regained himself.
"But, we are staying with her" At this Tsume growled and changed jumping at Kiba almost tipping the chair over. But Kiba was too fast and had Tsume pinned from behind "We are staying here, we always running because we think people will find out. How long has Cheza lived here?" Whit that Kiba stood up, I could see his fury slowly fading, and then answer his question.
"I have lived here for around ten years, and nobody not even my neighbour has found out"

As the word left my lips, the room changed. Tsume got up and brushed down his trousers.
"So, now we have to trust and believe you?" I nod as an answer and sit on the now vacant chair, Kiba looked at me and his eye brows drew together. I knew this was an Alpha reaction but I didn't care right now. I needed to prove that I'm not weak, but I am very very strong. Toboe finally speaks "So…Cheza… um…" I know he's struggling so I try to answer what I think he's asking.
"I eat with the full wolves, I'm somewhat a beta. So I get a fair share, I'm sure you've all seen me." They all shake their heads. "I was the white wolf with the russet patterns" The all stared at me as realisation hit them, Tsume didn't say a word. Hige asked a cheerful question.
"So you get more food?" I laughed at that and smiled.
"Yes I do, I'm sure if you give it time you can as well" I stood up and went to the balcony "I'm going to bed, see you guys in the morning. Wednesdays are boring" and with that I jump, and land perfectly back where I live, and walk into my bedroom. I grab my bag and pack my books a few pens and pencils and a load of paper to draw on. Then I hear a knock on my window. I turn to see Kiba standing there. I got up and opened the door. "What?" He smiled and walked in. I sat on my bed and looked at him. "Well…"

"Do you want to… go, to walk to school together tomorrow fill up in on what we need to prepare" I shake my head.
"Not much, extended lessons. Music, Art and Drama" I smile then sadden "I hate drama" He gave a light laugh at that.
"I don't believe you" I just glare at him, and then begin to push him toward the door. "Hay, what-" I pushed him out all the way.
"I'm getting ready to go to bed, I'm tired. I'll see you in the morning. I'm still mad at you, now go." He smiled and kissed me lightly on the cheek and left. My hand touched where he has kissed, a burning sensation spreading. Trying to ignore it, I changed and got into my bed.

My dreams were filled with pictures of him, and me. Together. Us. Running, walking, human or wolf. Now I can tough him, and if feels like a fire burning through my soul, and it feels good.