Demyx now panicked ran down the stairs to get Axel's father...
But he had already left the house.
/I can't leave him alone.../
Running back up the stairs he sat by Axel talking to him shouting, willing him to wake up.
He took Axel by the shoulders and shook him hard.
"Please wake up... Or at least at the very least... Don't die..."
/Axel could... Die.../
Realising the extremity situation at hand Demyx started breathing heavily and sitting next to Axel stroked his hair out of his face.
"Oh god... Please don't die... Please don't die..."
He was still saying this like a mantra when the ambulance crew arrived.
Demyx was wide eyed and didn't want to be taken away from Axel.
"Everyone's left him! I can't!"
"You'll just be leaving him for a few minutes... That's all..."
"NO!"
The paramedics strapped Axel to the stretcher and loaded him into the back of an ambulance.
"I want to be in there with him..."
His voice was barely a whisper, the shock was kicking in fully.
A female paramedic led him slowly to the ambulance where they were hooking Axel up an oxygen mask.
"Okay... You can go with him... Here's a blanket please keep it around you... You're currently suffering from shock... But that's okay... That's perfectly normal. You've done a good job."
The blonde teen nodded slowly taking it all in he raised his hand to his mouth and left it there for a long time and gasped.
One of the paramedics closed the back of the ambulance and climbed into the front seat.
Demyx kept his eyes on the floor.
"Can I ask you something?"
The dark haired girl sitting beside him nodded.
"Sure what do you want to know?"
The blonde teen continued to stare at the floor.
"What are the odds he'll actually live?"
The paramedic shifted in her seat.
"There's pretty good odds, there was vomit on the bedsheets which means his body rejected some of the medication he ingested already that means there's less in there... So far so good. But we won't be able to tell for sure until we get him to the hospital."
Demyx nodded feeling slightly comforted by this fact...
The ambulance pulled into the car park and Demyx watched as they rushed Axel into the hospital.
He watched them take him out and wheel him off shouting across to each other...
It seemed like slow motion...
His spikes swayed as they wheeled him into the white corridor, under the white lights the paleness of his skin and his utter helplessness touched Demyx and made him incredibly sad.
/All he's had in his life is utter crap... If he wants to live... I hope he lives... If life is really that bad... And he wants... Then what kind of friend would I be to want otherwise it'd be selfish.../
The dark haired girl laid a hand on Demyx's shoulder which made him jump.
"It's okay, calm down it's just me. I just want to help you. Would you mind coming with me?"
Demyx watched as Axel turned a corner on his stretcher.
"I'll come along..."
"Axel... Axel?"
"Roxas... Roxas? Am I..."
"No Axel you're not dead and you're not dreaming either..."
"Then how the?"
"You're between life and death right now... Which means either realm is your choice..."
"So I can die or live?"
"Basically..."
Axel nodded slowly observing his surroundings they were at the hospital still...
"Did you get this choice?"
Roxas shook his head slowly.
"If I had of don't you think I would've chosen life?"
Axel shrugged.
"By the end of everything that happened... I wasn't sure what to think..."
Roxas slowly embraced Axel.
"Of course I would've... You were a great friend."
"But if I had of told you what I had to say maybe you would've stayed..."
Roxas shook his head.
"You have to stop blaming yourself on what happened Axel..."
Slowly Axel released himself from Roxas arms.
"I think I know what I want to do now I want to..."
Roxas shushed Axel.
"Before you make your choice you must consider who this effects..."
"It effects no one Roxas... You know that the only ones who should care or did care about me died, left, or beat me black and blue regularly..."
Roxas looked over Axel's shoulder.
"What about him?"
Axel looked over his own shoulder and there in a small office with tears streaming down his face was Demyx.
"After examining Axel thoroughly the chance is about 50/50... I think his survival rests more upon his own will than anything else now..."
Demyx looked at his knees.
"Isn't there anything else that can be done?"
"I'm sorry... But all we can do now is wait and see if he wakes up."
The mohawked boy lay his head on the desk and broke into sobs.
Roxas shrugged.
"Oh I dunno what about him... Just perhaps that he cares so much about you he thought about facing your father earlier and kicking his ass for not being there in your hour of need, he wanted to punch him once in the face for every time he made you feel anything less than utterly happy and delighted, he has his mind made up that he will slash his tyres and have him arrested for all that he's done to you and that's even if you don't wake up... Axel that's love..."
Axel looked over at Demyx and then looked at Roxas.
"But you don't understand..."
The blonde boy shook his head.
"Believe me... I understand what he's feeling..."
Axel's lips parted slightly.
"W-what?"
Roxas smiled.
"It's the one reason I came back... You're the one reason I came back..."
Axel started crying.
"What I wanted to tell you so badly that night... It's haunted me since the accident..."
Roxas embraced his friend.
"I know..."
Green eyes met blue.
"Roxas I have... Loved you since... I can't even remember... I was just so scared..."
The blonde teen smiled.
"I know Axel... I was scared too... Of my own feelings... They terrified me... But well I wanted to tell you the same thing... For years in fact... But could never get up the courage, so many times I walked into school or your house or my house and you'd be sitting there smiling up at me and my heart would yearn for you and melt all at once... Then I would completely lose my nerve and just enjoy being around you instead. The night of the crash I wanted to tell you... But well, that didn't quite go as planned..."
Axel was in tears now.
"I wish, I wish we could've been... I wish only that we had even one time... To... Just be together... Once more..."
Roxas nodded.
"It's not our time yet though..."
Axel shook his head.
"No... No Roxas I want to stay with you!"
"It's time to go back now Axel..."
The redhead shook his head.
"Please no! Just please a few more minutes..."
Roxas took Axel in his arms and captured his lips in his own, Axel was both wide eyed and tearful and slowly took the blondes body in his arms, feeling his lips hard on his own.
Suddenly blackness surrounded him and he was falling slowly away from Roxas.
"I love you Axel... But it's Demyx's time to have your love... Stop worrying about the past and open yourself to the love that's right in front of you... We'll meet again one day... I promise."
Slowly Axel sank back into the familiar operating theatre his eyes opened as he was hit with a shock that felt like it'd blow his head open and forced him to take a massive breath inwards.
Demyx was looking through glass from the outside and dropping the blanket ran into the room.
Axel swung his legs off the side of the bed and catching Demyx in his arms kissed him on the lips.
The blonde tried to pull away in shock but Axel held him there feeling his lips, his presence and his warmth against himself and let his own previous feelings towards Demyx take over...
Filling him up with longing, warmth, lust, want, need and even to the tiniest extent...
Love.
This all rushed through his head as he kissed and finally separated from Demyx.
Slow motion, pure poetry...
He could feel Demyx's breath release on his face like he'd been holding it forever, he watched how he didn't open his eyes straight away, and when they did open, it was slow...
Reluctant...
Like he wasn't sure if he was dreaming or if it was real...
How his eyes were full of tears when they did finally open...
And how in that moment it seemed like the world had stopped turning for a moment just for them...
Demyx stared into Axel's green eyes whispering.
"Promise me... You won't ever do that again... I almost, lost my chance to tell you..."
Axel rested his forehead against Demyx's.
"I know what you want to say... And I almost lost my chance to tell you, that I feel the same way."
The blonde nodded nestling into Axel's chest just breathing him in for what seemed like hours...
Until the doctors interrupted.
"I'm sorry but we need to examine you and make sure that you're okay..."
Demyx nodded and as they began to wheel Axel out, Demyx noticed a familiar face peeking through the glass in the door.
"Roxas?"
But when he ran out there was no one there...
Axel merely smiled back towards Demyx and nodded.
3 years later...
Starting today I've been told to journal things and if it helps write letters to people who've hurt me... As it will help me deal with feelings from the past present and fears I have for the future...
I'm not quite sure how to start this...
Uhm...?
How am I doing?
I'm fine...
Finally I can actually say I'm fine and smile and mean it.
It's funny how things can change in such a short time.
But I'm finally getting the peace I've been looking for all along...
The court ruled in my favour in the case of me against my 'father' which left me with the house and more money than I've ever seen...
During that case they uncovered that my real father hadn't paid child support to my mother since before I was one...
Since she decided she basically wanted nothing more to with me the minute she started her new family...
And found fault with almost everything I did...
I was awarded the money...
Which needless to say made her regret how she'd treated me very quick, she tried many times to make amends...
But what's done is done...
And when you're a pretty rich emancipated minor everyone wants to be your friend...
Including preppy idiots...
I may as well be going around wearing a sign saying;
"My name is Axel and I'm pretty much a big deal..."
But I don't let it go to my head...
There's only one person I need and he should be home any minute...
It was my 18th last week...
I got cards from my mom, dad and even 'dad'.
Perhaps what I did will make them into better people...
Maybe not...
Demyx's knocking on the door now...
So maybe I'll write more later...
But for now I'm gonna go and just enjoy being with the man I love.
I'll write more soon.
Axel.
