Love Found in Hateful Despair

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Chapter 1

Isa PoV

Confusion. Hate. Despair. Anger. Self Consciousness. Loneliness. Longing. Frustration. Confidence. Fear. Self Loathing. So much emotion. I can't do it.

I can't do it anymore. Killing, murdering, raping, decapitating, castrating, raping, assasinitating, burning. What is this? Really?

It's fuckery. Fuckery, all thrown onto me. Why? Oh, just because a Mexican, pussy-licking bitch was bored. Needed a new toy. So she just raped, turned, and trained the sweetest smelling human in the US. Lucky me. She just changed me, into a vampire. Damning me to this eternal hell.

I was lying on a boulder concealed by the trees next to a beautiful river. Rio Grande, I believe. The boulder sat, blacker than night, on the bank of the blue, never-ending river. The boulder was at an angle, for maximum comfort. This is where I sat, thinking. What does fate have in store for me? I sure have been on one shittastic journey the past 47 years. Wow. 47 years. 47 years of me, here, in this hellhole of an army. Accomplishing nothing. Nothing good, anyway.

Doing what, you ask? Oh nothing, really. Just becoming the most powerful and feared vampire in the history of for-e-ver.

Like I give a shit.

Suddenly, while sucked in my own little world, I hear footsteps. I get up faster than even vampire speed and poise to attack. I activate my powers, so they're ready and loaded for whatever was to come. You never know…

"Uhh… Goddess?" A newborn boy, no more than 19 years old, approaches me. He has tan skin, for a vampire. Dark, dark brown hair, and vibrant red eyes. 6ft 1 in. Huh, not bad. Usually, they send the physically oldest, unattractive ones. They send the ones that won't be missed if I get pissed and kill them. Nice change, I must say. LOOK at that ass…

"Yes?" I reply, looking at my nails. Oh Zombie Jesus, I need a Mani pedi. Fast.

"Ummmm... the Mistress has requested your presence in her tent; she WANTS you, Goddess." He said giving me a look when he stressed wants. Dear lord, poor boy. Suddenly, he looked up at me with lust filled eyes, all traces of embarrassment and uncomfortableness gone.

"Tell her I don't give a flying rat's ass. I told her she'd never touch me again, not after what happened." I looked away in shame, as I remembered what she did to me. Then the boy started kissing my neck slowly. Sensually. Ha-ha, it's been a while.

"Don't be ashamed, she raped you. She took away your innocence," he comforted me. It was helping some, but not much. He slowly stroked my arms. Only it didn't mean anything. Just like my other fucks. Mean nothing. Never do. But damn, he's brave. Coming with the self assigned mission to fuck me, without me summoning him to fuck ME.

"My name's Eric by the way." He, Eric, said as he let go of me, seeking approval with a smirk on his face. I chuckled sarcastically.

"I must go back to the newbies, if you want me to service you, goddess, in ANY way, please don't hesitate to call me." Eric slowly stepped away but not before kissing me passionately (with tongue) and then disappeared. Like I said, BALLS!

He might be good in bed, I pondered. His foot was pretty big…. You know what they say; bigger foot, bigger penis! (TRUE!)

Whatever, I thought. He just wants to get laid, nice and rough. He probably just wants the bragging rights that come with fucking the "Goddess of Death." Every fucking one.

That's what I'm called. That's what I am. I swear, whenever someone says the words "goddess" and "death" in the same sentence, everyone piss-shits their pants.

I hate all the looks, the stares, the glares. Filled with total fear, animosity, longing, even the classic "I am going to kiss your ass right the fuck now" face. I assure you, nobody wants to get on my bad side. Not after that day….

*FLASHBACK*

Maria. Fucking Maria. She's a lazy shit. Makes me do all the work. What a bitch. I'd much rather be fucking Anthony right now. He has such a long, thick co-

Ok, snap out of it. I have to go kill this fucking army of fucking newborns Maria is too hell-bent on finding her Major. She doesn't give a flying SHIT about anything else. I feel sorry for the poor bastard.

Since I'm the most feared vampire, and he used to be, Maria thought we could team up and make her undefeatable. Like that'll happen.

I heard he joined a coven. Lucky him.

Besides, I'm already undefeatable. TaKe ThAt BiTcH!

Back to the task at hand. I'm currently running through Texas, looking for Jose. Fucking bastard, apparently, he's "slipped through" Maria's fingers one too many times. Of course, she'd never even attempt attacking him if I wasn't here. Like I said, she's a lazy shit.

I'm going by myself, because our newborns are still training. And because Maria wanted to see if I could slaughter an army of 500 without getting injured. Scars don't count. Fuck if they did, I'd have been committed for how bat shit crazy I must look. Long, always straight dark brown hair. Vibrant midnight blue eyes, unless I'm manifesting an element. Pale, smooth skin. 5 ft, 4 in. Always poised to kill, or at the very least remove a limb.

Suddenly, I smelled them. Vampires. I smiled the chuckled darkly. They're trying to ambush me, but I feel them on the earth around me. Idiots.

"Come out, come out, wherever you are," I said in a sing song voice into the eerily quiet, mid dawn night.

"We have you surrounded, puta! There's no escape for you Goddess of Death!" Said a thick Spanish accent, a couple of meters to the Northeast. He sneered and spit venom when he said my name. Mistake number 1.

What a pussy. Can't even insult me to my face. SO I told him as much.

"A threat isn't a threat unless you say it to my face!" I said in my sing song voice again. Apparently, I aggravated him enough, and his patience is completely gone. So he initiates the fight. Mistake number 2.

Alright. Time for shit to hit the fan.

They all charged at me from the Northeast, north, and northwest. I scoffed and put my arms across my chest. My eyes quickly became red-orange never ending flames, when my body understood what I wanted to do, and I started manipulating fire. Fire then started radiating from my palms, and I burned good 60% of the newborns to ashes.

The rest of the newborns were way too shocked to keep running towards me, and stopped. That or they were scared shitless of my badassness. Bitches. I quickly started to manipulate metal, and my eyes turned a copper, silver, gold metallic mix so I could put Jose in an iron vamp-holding cage so he wouldn't escape.

I burned the rest of the newborns, ten at a time. I froze the venom in their bodies, so the newborns would be paralyzed. Jose watched in utter horror as I destroyed the army that took him years to complete, be destroyed completely in less than ten minutes. I wanted him to see what the fuck I do when I'm pissed. The look on his face.

PRICELESS!

Shock.

Fear.

Take THAT bitch!

Once all the newborns were burned, I set my sights on the beautifully intricate cage made out of pure iron, so he couldn't get out. I smiled darkly as I circled him, thinking of what to do to this greedy bastard. Oh, I know.

"Oh Jose, Jose, Jose! Did you actually think you'd actually get away?" I asked curiously as he tried to bend the bars, but failed miserably.

"Spare me! Spare me Great Goddess of Death! I swear a vampire's oath! I-Ill be your sex slave for the rest of eternity! Ill blesses you with my beautiful penne! Please! Mercy!" Jose pleaded in his thick Spanish accent. As if. Beautiful dick, my ass.

"It's a tad late to kiss my ass, don't you think?" I asked guessingly, as I circled him. He kept begging for mercy, as I continued to pace around the cage, slowly.

"Bete para el infierno!" I screeched at him. I then growled as my eyes once again turned into red-orange flames and he started dry sobbing.

Ugh.

What a pussy.

I proceeded to burn him slowly, my ears filling with familiar screams of terror, of pain, as I sat and thought;

What am I doing?

*FLASHBACK*

What am I doing?

Wait.

What he fuck-Why am I still here?

Why am I still following Maria?

Why am I still helping her when I'm the most powerful one out there?

God.

I'm a DUMBASS!

Fuck this.

Fuck everything.

I'm leaving this shithole.

And Maria will die.

Jasper PoV

Fuckery. Pure Fuckery.

Why had I never noticed their emotions?

Why hadn't seen the signs?

I knew. I fucking knew.

All those hunting trips, alone. All those times they stayed home when the rest of the family left.

I'm so FUCKING STUPID!

Sister-Brother love my FUCKING ASS!

Edward and Alice.

Fucking.

On.

Our.

Bed.

The only think that came to mind; How long? What about Bella?

7 and a half fucking years. During Bella.

Fuck.

Me.

Over.

I sat, wallowing in self pity and self loathing, in a huge California Redwood forest. Hating myself.

Hating life. But not quite suicidal….

There I sat when she called. The whore.

Alice.

"JAZZZZZZZZZZZZZZZZY! I JUST HAD A VISION!" Malice screeched.

"What the fuck do you want from me, you whore? What more can you do to me?"I spat into the phone.

She hadn't even apologized, the dirty ho.

"Go kill Maria! Trust me! GO! NOW! Before it's too la- Ed-ward! Stop" She moaned."Oooh," Apparently Edward was pleasuring her. Sliding into that tight little pussy.

My ex-wife.

Fuck.

Before, we both knew we were just friends. With benefits.

But married.

You'd think shed honor that.

I grew attached to her over the years. I loved her. PAST tense.

I gave myself to her completely. And she threw it ALL away.

But she reminded me of something. I never belonged with the Cullens. I never was one;

I'm a fucking Whitlock.

So why haven't I gotten rid of the one person who made my life a living fuckery?

Maria;

Get ready.

As soon as that thought ran through my head, I ran, as fast as I possibly could to the camp Maria used to reside at when I was in her army.

Oh wow.

It's still in the same place.

Dumbass.

I quickly found her tent, and felt her emotions from cocky to scared. Shit-less.

Ha.

"MAJOR! You came back to ME!" She jumped on me practically humping me before I pushed her off of me roughly.

I aint in the mood for this shit.

"Wha-What's wrong? Don't you LOVE me?" She said vulnerably. I almost felt bad for what I was about to do.

Almost.

"I'm here to do what you did to me, you fucking bitch." I took a few steps closer to her as I insulted her sorry ass.

"What?" She screeched as I held her in a chokehold."I gave you LIFE! You should THANK me!"She sobbed. Unattractively, might I add.

"THANK YOU?" I laughed without humor, but disbelief.

"For what? Enlighten me!" I hit her with so much fear, her knees buckled and she fell to the ground, paralyzed.

"My new Goddess of Death will hunt you down! She will avenge me! She's more powerful that you EVER WERE!"Maria said, as a last attempt to save herself, I suppose.

As if it'd work.

"Oh, you got a new toy, Maria? I said as I tried to cover my disbelief.

More powerful than me?

Now I'm not self centered, but damn. That's one mighty fine accomplishment.

Kinda want to meet her now….

She might be a good fuck too…

Back to the task at hand, my mind yelled at me.

Right.

"Goodbye, Maria." I am done talking with her.

Her screams and moans of pain filled my ears as I ripped her toes off.

One.

By.

One.

I did the same to her fingers, hands, calves, thighs, arms, and lastly, her head. She closed her pain filled eyes right before I decapitated her.

"NOW BURN!" I roared and growled at her lifeless, limbless torso, and collection of limbs. I set her on fire then, watching the blue purple flames.

How many times have I dreamed of this moment?

"Mistress, the newborns are having a massive orgy so what shou-"A young man in his late teens, and really dark brown hair. 6 feet, 1 inch, and the usual red eyes. Kinda brighter than usual though.

His emotions from horny and disgusted, to happiness, and grateful.

Still horny.

Grateful, though.

What the fuck?

"Thank you. So so much. God, you'll never know how much." The boys eyes welled up with emotion and tears he'd never shed.

I smiled a small smile, and nodded.

"Major, you might want to get out of here." The boy said urgently.

"Why the hell for?" I asked curiously, but guardedly.

"I'm Eric, I sense the future actions of people. Like what they plan to do." The boy, Eric, explained quickly. "The Goddess of Death is coming HERE to kill Maria. Like now!" He stresses, afraid.

Oh shit nipple.

I'm so fucked.

Isa PoV

I ran. Ran as fast as I ever have before.

I used the wind to push me even further and faster as my motivation grew. And grew. All I saw was trees, oh and red. Lots of red.

I arrived at the camp, with th-the newborns were all fucking each other.

Hot damn, LOOK at that dick! Oh, oh god, in his ass? Why is she licking her pussy, and being fucked by Ronaldo? What the fuck is going on?

I found Maria's tent…burning.

What?

I got closer to the burning makeshift tent and I saw….

A burning body. Belonging to Maria.

"WHAT THE FUCK?" I screeched high and loud enough to break glass, as my anger and jealousy (because I wanted to kill her) grew.

Whoever did this WILL pay.

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Isabella :D