A/N: Hey everyone! So we got to 100 reviews and I just want to thank everyone! You all are so awesome. This is kind of a filler chapter but it is filled with fluff. IMPORTANT NOTE: I will be updating my stories as soon as possible and I am so sorry it's been taking me a while to get back into the swing of things I have just been super busy as of late. I am also looking for a new Beta now so that may take me a while, if anyone here is interested in helping me out there please message me while I go out on the prowl for a new Beta. Thanks, now on with the show…
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As I walked with Eric down into his cubby area I collapsed on the bed. It was dumb of me to think that everything would go my way and that we could kill Russell so easily. He was right; he was in charge of this game not me.
"Sookie I'm so sorry, I wasn't thinking." Eric came up behind me and held me as I cried.
"Pam was in danger, I understand. Eric he knows our every move and I'm scared."
I felt ridiculous crying like this but dammit I was scared.
"We will break this spell."
"I don't care about the spell anymore, what if he kills you? What if he finds Jason and kills him just to make a point?" The very thought of it sent chills throughout my body.
"He won't win. When have you ever heard of the villain winning in the end?" He smiled at me and I knew he was trying to make me feel better.
But in this case it wasn't working.
"This is real life, not some western or some fairy tale movie. This is a real psycho doing really crazy things to very innocent people." I told him calmly.
"I know and that's why…"
"No! He won't stop until he gets his revenge and until you and I are dead!" I yelled at him.
"You don't think I know that!" He voice roared and I flinched.
Silence filled the air and Eric got up, "I just want to help you and I want to be there for you but if you keep belittling my attempts at trying to comfort you how am I supposed to show you that I am the same Eric you fell in love with. You won't give me a chance and I don't know what else to do. Don't you think I am just as scared as you when it comes to Russell? He is twice my age and he has revenge fueling him. I need to be thinking of ways to stop him, kill him, and restore your old life in a matter of three days, and I don't even know where to start." He stood there and stared at me. "Tell me what you want me to do; what you want me to say because I just can't do it on my own anymore. I love you and I don't regret letting myself feel for you but I fear that you have grown to regret your feelings for me." When I didn't say anything he turned to leave.
"Where are you going, sun will be up in another hour or so." I said as he walked to the ladder.
"I can find another place to stay, I have a little bit until sunrise." He said coldly and started to climb upstairs.
"Don't do that!" I jumped up, "Every time things get bad you become emotionless and leave."
"Maybe it is because I feel it is better to go then to stay and fight. You have plenty of protection here."
"Eric I'm scared and tired and I don't know what to say to you. Go ahead and leave because it would just make you the same as everyone else I tried to get close to!" The tears streamed down my face and if he really thought that this was going to prove the fact that he was the same person I fell in love with when he was cursed he was doing one hell of a job.
I glared at him and I turned away and got back on to the bed.
I put the covers over my head, which I knew was very childish, and laid there. I closed my eyes and tried to ignore the feeling of guilt over yelling at Eric but I was too emotional to deal with everything.
Minutes passed and I feared that Eric had actually left, so I popped my head out of the sheets and took a breath of relief when I saw Eric standing in the corner of the room.
He locked eyes with me and I knew we were both too stubborn to say sorry, so I just continued to stare him down.
"Why can't you just trust me and my judgment?" He asked lowly.
"Because you and your judgment have gotten us into trouble before." I told him as I pulled the covers away from me.
"Why can't you love me like you loved me before?" He asked and my heart broke a little when I saw the emotion that was filled in his eyes.
"You really don't think that, do you?" I asked as I sat up and kept my eyes on him.
"It's hard not to think that."
"Eric I love you very much. Do I wish you were a bit more open with things with me, yeah I do, but that doesn't mean that I love you less in anyway." I reached out for his hand and he made his way slowly over to me.
I took his hand and I folded both of my hands over it. I took his hand and put it over my heart.
He got closer to me and leaned in and placed a soft kiss on my lips.
"I know the dangers of Russell and I'm not jumping in blindly into this but I want to know that you trust me." He searched my eyes for the answer and I smiled.
"I do trust you."
"We will fix this." He told me as we lay down and he held me closely.
As he rubbed his hand up and down my arm soothingly I couldn't help but think what if we didn't kill Russell in time. I would lose all the friendships I gathered over the years. Sure I could use my power on them but what if it hurt them, or what if it killed me?
I couldn't take that risk but as I felt the love coming from Eric I knew that I had it all right here in this room.
"You know it wouldn't be that bad if a few people didn't remember me." I told him as I smiled.
"What?"
"I was just thinking as long as I have you and we pull through this together, I think I'd be happy." I took a deep breath and closed my eyes.
I mean I've had more heartbreak to count and right now besides the Russell business everything else seemed kind of normal.
No drama at work, no other vampires driving to kill me, no anti- vampire nuts calling me a fangbanger. Once Russell dead and gone maybe I could hold a normal life, well as normal as life can get for me.
"Hopefully it won't get down to that choice. I want you to have the life that you spent so long making."
"Yeah but maybe that life didn't really want me."
"You don't want the spell to be fixed?"
"No that's not what I said. I said that if it comes down to it I want be depressed over it. I mean it would be great to have everyone remember me again but…"
"I know what you really want Sookie you don't have to pretend to be strong about it. I will get your old life back for you." He told me sincerely and I smiled widely at him.
"Thanks." I kissed him and the kiss soon turned very passionate.
After our little fight I was sure we were both pouring our emotions into this kiss.
"Another time." I told him as I backed away from him.
"We have another hour." He frowned at me and I gently ran my hand up to his cheek.
"This has been a very emotional night and I'm not sure I'm in the mood." He smiled.
"I could help with that." He kissed me again and he was nothing if not persistent.
"You always seem to get your way, huh?" I giggled as he ran kisses down my throat to the collar of my shirt.
"You know I am hearing a lot of talking and not enough moaning." I laughed as he ripped off my shirt.
"Well maybe you would hear more moaning if you didn't insist on destroying all my clothes." I told him as he kissed down my torso and I sighed in pleasure.
"Clothes get in the way, besides I can buy you better clothing." He ripped off my shorts and began to kiss me lower.
"Your right, no more talking." I said as I brought his face back up to me and I kissed him.
"Hey Sookie I just wanted to… oh shit, sorry." Amelia ran back up the ladder and I screamed in shock.
I brought Eric closer to me so he could shield my naked body until I was sure Amelia was back upstairs.
"Where were we?" He asked as he leaned back in and kissed me.
"Not there." I jumped up and grabbed a robe, "I'm going to go see what she wanted and when I come back we will go to sleep and when you wake up I'll have a little surprise for you." I smiled mischievously at him.
Now if I only knew how to go upstairs and act like Amelia didn't just walk in on us almost about to have sex.
"You tease me my little fae."
"Know that it is all just love."
"Sure." I winked at him and climbed upstairs.
"Amelia?" I called out for her and she was in the kitchen with Jason.
"Hey Sook, I thought you were….uh…busy." Thanks Amelia for not making that one obvious.
"I was but then I decided to ask what you wanted."
"Oh well I just wanted to make sure you were alright. I mean after the whole Russell thing I thought you might want a little girl talk." She smiled at me and I raised my eyebrow.
"At four in the morning?"
"Girls got to talk right?" I smiled at her and shook my head.
"Why are you up Jase?"
"Just keeping my girl company, but now that you mentioned the time I kind of want to go to bed. Night." He kissed Amelia and then kissed me on the cheek.
"What's up with the two of you?" I asked her as I sat across from her.
"Nothing, it's just been kind of an adjustment for me. I haven't had a boyfriend in a really long time." She moved around a little in her seat.
"Why?"
"Well the whole I'm a witch thing kind of puts a damper on things. Plus I was into girls for a while there." She winked at me.
"I know that. Does Jason?" I asked and she nodded.
"He thinks it's hot."
"Of course he does." We both laughed.
"So Sook how are you?" She asked me and I could see the concern in her eyes.
"I'm doing good, well better. I was really shaken up and Eric and I kind of got into a fight."
"That is one weird way of fighting." I heard her say in her mind.
"Telepath, remember." I tapped my head and she laughed.
"Sorry inner monologue takes over sometimes."
"For your information that was us making up, we're better now. I think we are all on high tensions with all of this stuff happening." She nodded.
"You know I am really sorry right?"
"Yeah, it's not worth talking about. Don't worry about it."
"But are you worried about it?"
"A little but whatever is meant to be will happen." She leaned back and smiled.
"That's a very positive attitude." Well what did she want me to be a nervous wreck?
"What else should I be?"
"I'm sorry I didn't mean anything by it." She held up her hands mock defense as she stood up.
"I'm going to go to bed." She told me as she left the room.
I sighed and went back down to Eric.
"Anything new?" He asked me.
"No, she just wanted girl talk I guess. She is really tense about all of this."
"She should be this is all of her fault any way." Eric said nonchalantly as he relaxed on the bed as I took off my robe and got into bed with him.
"She didn't mean it."
"You have such a forgiving heart, you know this right?" Eric smiled at me as I snuggled closer to him.
"I know." I closed my eyes as his arms surrounded me.
I tried to forget about everything and relax but it was all so much. When I closed my eyes I saw Russell killing everyone I loved and it forced me to keep my eyes open.
"What troubles you?" Eric asked me.
"Same stuff."
"Well just think about what will happen when I rise tomorrow. When I'm done with you, you will never know what stress is again." He laughed.
"Cocky much?"
"Yep." I giggled.
"Well then lets hurry and get to sleep." I kissed him and I knew he was waiting for me to go to sleep first.
I tried to block everything out and when I finally started to feel myself start to fall asleep I started to picture Russell again, and his threat.
That night I my dreams were full of nightmares.
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