-Girls guide to dating-
Beep
I look over to my night stand and see the light on my phone indicating that I had received a text I reach over pick it up off the stand. The text is from Santana I click the open button and it reads
Look out your window
I smile looking up and walk around the end of my bed towards the window and open it. My room is on the second story so I look down to see Santana standing there in my backyard wearing a hot pink bikini and a skirt that fades from white to pink on the bottom. She looks so sexy in the bikini it fits her just right hugging her boobs. I can't help but smile at ask her.
"What are you doing?" I ask her
"I'm ditching you do wanna come?"
I really wanna go with her I mean come on look at her she's so cute and her body is amazing why wouldn't I wanna spend the day with her.
"Uh I can't I have a history test and a science lab"
"Cant or wont" she says looking up at me giving me the cutes pouty faces.
I can't help but smile when I am with Santana I am always smiling I just can't help it. Santana makes her way to the front of the house and waits for me in her car. I walk down stairs grab an apple and try and walk out the door unnoticed but it didn't work, my mom caught me as I was pulling the door open.
"That's not a breakfast and where are you going I made French toast you, might not see this again in a while" she says
"Eat while you can Britt cause when Artie comes down we gotta bounce" Mike says walking into the kitchen
"He is in front of the mirror so it's gonna be a while" I inform him
Artie is vain he spends tons of time trying to protect his look. I turn around and try to head for the door for a second time but I am stopped again by my mom.
"You're walking?"
"No Santana is picking me up"
She looks at me with concern she doesn't like me spending so much of my free time with Santana I knew this but I didn't care something about Santana makes me feel safe and free to be me.
"I have a test first period and I don't wanna be late" I say as I walk out door
When I finally make it out to the car we I see Santana sitting there waiting for me patiently.
"What took so long?"
"Sorry my mom stopped me on the way out but don't worry she thinks you're giving me a ride to school"
As we are driving we decide to go to beach, I started to get nervous because I have never ditched class before I look over at her and say
"We are so going to get in trouble if we get caught"
She turns her head and looks in my direction then she says
"We can't if we do I get suspended"
"Then let's go back"
"Uh no let's not get caught" She says
With that she hands me an envelope I grab it and look at it there was nothing on the front so I quickly open it. I pull out the piece of paper and unfold it beginning to read out loud.
"Please excuses Santana Lopez today for an appointment with.."
She starts laughing "I see so many I didn't know which one to put her shrink her gynecologist her hypnotist"
"You signed your mother's name"
"On a zero point chance that she calls school looking for me I would just say I was with my dad"
"I always feel a little funny lying to my parents" I say looking at her
She looks at me with a look that I have never seen before like she was somehow lost in my eyes a bit then she turned her head back at the road.
"Sometimes you gotta lie to live sometimes you don't"
She continues to look at the road and doesn't look back. I stare at her for a while taking in what she just said. Santana has been through so much at such a young age. Her mom is working on man number five and her dad is never around. I am so sheltered compared to her I have both my parents and my two brothers. Sure we don't have tons of money like the rest of the people here but we live well. I look at the road ahead and then back at Santana some part of me wants to protect her from the things that she has to go through. Make all the bad things in her life better.
For the rest of the ride to the beach it was quite. When we get to there we grab our stuff from the car and make our way to the sand. We lay out our beach towels and sit down on them. I reach down to the hem of my shit and pull it over my head. Santana looks at me with a flirtatious smile does the same with her shirt. She grabs the sun screen location from her bag and hands it to me. I open the cap and place a pea size amount on to my palm. I place the tube down on to the towel next me and motion for her to turn around. When her back is to my front I reach up and spread the lotion on to her shoulders, down her arms and back. Then I rub it in softly. She turns around and I take the remainder of the lotion that is in my hands and stick it on her nose.
She laughs at me and pushes me and I almost fall backwards but I catch myself by placing my hand behind me fast. Once I am back on my knees I grab the tube of lotion and hand it to Santana. She takes it and motions me to turn around this time. She places both of her hands on my shoulders at the same time. The lotion is cold and I jerk backwards into her chest. Her hands slowly rubbing the lotion in on my shoulders clams me almost immediately. I start to feel heat now radiating from her touch. I feel the urge to turn around and kiss her. Why do I wanna kiss her this is crazy she's my friend? You shouldn't wanna kiss your friend. But god her hands touching my skin feel so good. I couldn't take the sensation anymore so I ask her if she wants to go in the water.
We splash around in the water for about an hour or so. I started getting cold so I told her I was going to do lie down and sun bath for a while. She said ok that she would be there in a minute turning around diving under the next wave. I walk out the water and hurry to our towels that we left lying in the sun. I quickly lie down on the towel and wait for the sun's rays to warm my Goose bump skin. Ten minutes later I was dry and starting to feel warm again. I open my eyes and still no Santana. I close my eyes if she's not back in five minutes I will go find her.As I finished my thought I felt cold water dripping on to my stomach. Santana walked up to me and rung her wet hair out all over me. I was soaking wet and so was my towel. The shock of the cold water made me jump up once on my feet I took off after her.
I almost caught her when she took off into the water. I stopped at the water's edge and she made her escape. In the water she motioned for me to come and get her but I shook my head no. She started walking towards me I instantly knew what she was planning on doing so I start to run way. I don't know how she did it but before I could take five steps I felt arms wrap around my waist and pick me up. She carries me into the water and jumps in backwards still holding on to my waist. We go down into a wave and I do nothing to pull away from her embrace. Once the water is completely over our heads she lets go and we surface. I stand up splash water into her face and walk to shore with her at my heels. We walk back to our towels that are now dry. We lie down on our backs face to the sun.
After a few minutes with my eyes still closed I opened my mouth and say
"I have something to tell you" I pause "I think I think I might like girls"
Santana opens her eyes and turns her head to look at me. I feel her eyes on me but I keep my eyes closed I couldn't look at her right now.
"Like, like like" she says
"I think so but how do I know if I am"
"Gay" she finishes my sentence
"Yeah"
"I need to process this"
We lie there for a while, while she processes my coming out basically. After about ten minutes of no words being spoken she asks if I wanna go for a walk we decide to walk along the water. I get up the nerve to ask her
"So how do you know I mean what tells you that your"
"Look if you wanna know if your gay or not you just have to take the Are you hot for girls quiz" she says smiling at me
"Yeah right"
"No it's a hundred percent"
I look at her not knowing if she was joking or not her mocha eyes staring back at me then she says
"Ok"
"First question: who is hotter Avril or Lindsay?"
"Avril I mean come on she's way cooler and much better then Lindsay in vocals"
"Great answer second question" Movies which one did you like better Blue Crush or Thirteen?"
"Um…Thirteen was more real"
Santana shakes her head "passing on hers in bikinis that could affect your score"
I laugh good point
"It's ok there's a bonus round" she says
"Ok for tickets to go see Ellen and the box set of the first two seasons for the L word"
"Hey that's not funny"
"Ok, ok Tom VS Katie who Do you make out with?"
"Make out with?" I ask
"Yeah
"Wait a minute"
"Answer the question"
"Well I like Dawson's creek so Katie I mean hello she was naked in The Gift" I say looking shyly at Santana
"Ok final question: in the shower after practice do you sneak a peek or turn away?"
I look away I was kinda embarrassed but if anyone understood my feelings it was her
"I guess I look" I feel Santana's eye on me with a grin on her face
"Hey there are pliantly of reasons to look, comparisons to others, ambitions of one's own body and natural curiosity"
"Wow you have had a lot of therapy"
"My mother has been trying to keep me from being anything but so take your pick an emotional teen, divorce, a musician, a teen experimenting with her sexuality, a gay lesbian"
"So what am I" I ask
"Well going by your answers I would say"
As she is answering me two guys walk by being that Santana is a flirt she turns and walks up to them totally leaving me hanging. I felt a rush of Jealousy and anger flood my body. I wanted to know what was going on with me and in my time of need she couldn't even focus long enough to help. Uh and with guys too come on. Santana is so hot she has girls turning heads, guys they just go stupid when she's around and I really didn't wanna deal with stupid boys right now. Santana walks over to the towels with the two drooling guys trailing behind her. When I make it there they are all sitting down all ready. After a few minutes of getting to know one another one of the guys says that they have a hot tub back and his place then Santana says
"Ue I am in"
"We should go" I say
"Great" the guys say together
"No Santana and I should go home" I said
As I start to gather my stuff from the towels
"Wait I just wanted you to have fun today" Santana tells me
"Well I'm not, all day if have been trying to tell you something very important and all you wanna do is play with boys"
"I thought you were kinda into me" one of the guys says
"Honestly she's not" I say looking at him then giving her a look
"Yeah I like girls" she informs him
All he can say is "That's hot"
Once I had grabbed all my things I start to walk off behind me I hear the other guy say
"You're still coming over right?"
"No" I shout back then I hear Santana
"Wait Britt wait up"
I continue to walk away once I make it to the end of the parking lot a hear Santana's voice
"Britt get in the car"
"Why"
"For one thing your house is ten miles way"
I turn around and start to walk backward holding out my right and my thumb up trying to get a ride.
"You so don't care how I feel"
"This whole day has been about how you feel"
"Oh please all you care about is having a good time" I stop and look at her "My mom was right about you" I say in a angry tone
"Oh good now you and mommy have something to agree on" she spats back
She pauses for a moment with her head down and she pulls up to where I am now standing.
"Look I am sorry I just didn't want you to feel bad and I didn't know how to make you feel better" she pauses again " the whole gays thing that your feeling it's so important, so scary and that's why I wanted today to be special for you. It's kinda the last day of the old Britt you know"
I stop walking and look into her mocha eyes. How can I say mad at her? I can't. She parks the car again and we walk back towards the beach this time we walk down to the pier. We stand under and lean up against the wood polls.
"How do you know if your gay" I ask
"How do you know if you're straight?"
"I thought that was the easy part"
"Nothing is easy"
"Well it's like this say I see Puck he's cute I am attracted to him then I notice the girl he is with and I am more interested in her and that's what scares me"
"Yeah and Botox scares me look at my mom but people still do it"
"That doesn't make it wrong it's just different"
"I don't wanna be different I just uh wanna be normal you know like everyone else who knows who they are what they want and who they love"
"Stop worrying about it, look whatever people consider normal it never is" she looks at me with reassuring eyes.
I was starting to feel better somehow she always found a way to make me feel better. I wanted more though. I needed advice.
"So give me the girls guide to dating girls" I say
"Are you sure you're ready"
I nod my head and she looks at me smiling
"Ok so dating a girl is just like dating a guy"
"Really"
"Yeah except down your wardrobe doubles in size and if you're lucky you guys wear the same shoe size."
"Wow I never thought about it that way"
"There are a lot of cool benefits, mostly another girl gets you, your ups your downs your loneliness and they can give it right back no coke sing. No having to go out and get a Cosmo magazine about how to get a guy to open up its all just right there. " she says looking at me with a grin
"And the bad part"
"Dating a girl is just like dating a guy, they can lie, dump you for the pretty cheerleader screw with your head the same semi psychotic way a guy can and uh yuck worse they want to talk endlessly about their feelings. I mean that's one good thing about guys they never say anything you actually have to listen too. Did I mention the down side?"
"I thought you already did"
"Some of your family, friends and people you don't even know are probably gonna hate you"
"Getting people to like me in high school is hard enough screw it I don't wanna be gay"
"You don't have a choice you are who you are Britt"
She puts her hand on my knee and looks at me with warmth in her eyes. I could tell she felt sorry for me. Not sorry like you feel for someone when there in pain but sorry like when you know what they are going through, when you have already walked down that path and the experience has left an imprint on your soul. We sitting there for a while in comfortable silence and then we realize what time it is. It is time that school is getting out and we have to head back or we will me found out.
On the way back to my house Santana says
"Sometimes I use to dream that I would get on to any plane leaving LAX as long as I could get away from here."
"I ditched for the first time today I don't think I am ready to flee the country yet"
Santana turns her head to look me in the eyes and smiles while she laughs then she reaches to the dash and turns on the radio
Mckinley school officials report that despite todays lock down the rest of the schools season with remain as usual classes we resume as…..
"Lock down that's great no one will even know we were gone" Santana say
"So we ditched for nothing" I said so unpleased
Santana looks at me with a sincere look and says
"It definitely wasn't for nothing"
"No I guess it wasn't"
Soon we were parked outside my house. I look at her and she smiles back at me I reach down and unbuckle my seatbelt open the door and step out. I close the door behind me and look at her there's this connection between us that I just can't explain. Today has been one of the best days of my life and I am glad that Santana was there to spend it with me. She was the reason this day had turned out so good.
"Thanks for today" I say shyly
"No problem"
I walk around the front of her SUV and up the pathway to my front door. When I make it to the door I turn around to see mocha eyes looking back at me. I giving her a flirtatious smile and she shoots one right back at me then turns away quickly almost like she is shy all of a sudden. With that I open the door and walk in.
