-What is happening Chapter Six-
My eyes pop open and are instantly surrounded by a bright intense light coming from the window, it must be morning. Already? Last night went by way to fast. I love the fact that I finally got to cuddle with Santana. She is so comfy and we fit so perfect together, the fact that I am three inches taller than her helps out. She can fit into me with her ass up against my lap and my head goes past hers just enough.
I notice that Santana is still asleep. I push a piece of hair that had fallen into her face and more it to the side. It feels so good to be able to touch her. I continue the motion softly I don't want to wake her. I like being able to look at her when she is sleeping. She looks so peaceful and calm right now. Suddenly her eyes open and she looks up at me
"Are you ok?"
I smile How cute it that she is concerned for me
"Yeah"
She slowly pulls herself into a sitting position.
"Uh… last night was rough"
I sit up so that I am now next to her.
"You came to take care of me?"
I look at her and mocha eyes are staring right back at me and my heart melts
"Was there an option?"
She looks down like this was all new like no one has ever done this for her no one has ever been there to take care of her.
"Yeah what most people do when there around me… leave"
"No way" I spit back before the word leave come fully out of her mouth "Then life would be too predictable" I say smiling
As I look at her but she's looking down at the bed. She turns to look at me.
"How do I look?"
I look into her eyes and her eyes only
"Good" I say shaking my head up and down
"You suck at lying" She says as she turns to look back at the bed
This makes me laugh
"But I am glad you try"
All of a sudden we hear a women's voice. It must be here mom I assume, I have never met the women but she is very pretty and share same facial features that Santana has.
"Rise and shine"
When we hear her we quickly more father apart from each other.
"I am heading out for the day and I might not be home tonight … Really Santana I tolerate your play mates but do they have to be here in the morning?"
This makes me feel really uncomfortable and I start sliding to the other side of the bed and start to stand up.
"Oh I am sorry I just fell asleep" I say once I get to my feet
"You remember my friend Brittany right mom" Santana says as she looks down at the floor avoiding her mother's eyes.
"Right… Look hunny I can't leave you alone if you're going to be bringing home this kind of friend" her mother says as she glances in my direction.
Now I am getting pissed. What kind of person does she think I am? I am no slut, and am very polite and all my other friends' moms seem to be rather found of me. No wonder Santana was as messed up as she is she has to live with someone like this for a mom.
"Actually I came to take care of her" I say with a hint of anger in my tone. However this is her mother and I don't want to be rude.
"And I am sure you did that very well" She shoots back at me
I just look down at the floor there is no way I am going to win with this women so I just fold.
"Mom can you just try and be nice"
"Oh I have been to Paige who stole my credit cards, to Elisabeth who passed out eating my valium and then there was the one with the piercings she just moved in and we had to have the help get rid of her"
All I could do was stare wide eyed. I look over to Santana but all I can see is her back. I see that he head it leaning forward so I am guessing her has her hand up holding her head. She doesn't move, maybe she is embarrassed about what her mom just throughout. Really though had she really been with that many girls?
"Here this should cover you until I get home" She throws money on the bed next to Santana
She waves her hand "Ciao" turns around and walks out the door.
I slowly make my way over to the side of the bed where Santana was still sitting. I feel bad her mother is no mother at all. She just dried out all her dirty laundry. She didn't even stop to consider that it might affect me too.
"I am so sorry about that" she says still not looking at me
"Is that how it is ever morning"
"No that only happens once a month"
She stops looks at me for a second then back to the floor
"When I see her" She continues
I stand there for one more second then I step closer to where she is and sit down on the bed next to her. I want to know if what her mom had said was true or not but I didn't want to over step my bounds. I needed to know though
"Did you really sleep with all those girls?"
"Ha those are just the ones she found out about" She says in a cocky tone like I am a player.
She turns her head with attitude and everything then she see my face and realize this is not a good thing. I look at her with hurt and shake my head with disappointment. She quickly feels bad and tries to explain.
"They never meant anything"
I shake my head up and down and laugh but not because I am happy it's a defiance laugh.
"Like that makes it better"
I can't even look at her I am really upset. I know I don't have the right to be it's not like she cheated on me or anything but it still was a shock as to how many girls she has been with. That she was with them just to ease pain. Is that what she was trying to do with me? Could I be just another knot on her headboard? I don't want to be I want to be more than that to her. She turns away grabs her head and lowers it looking at the ground, right now there's not much more that can be said.
I close the front door behind me and immediately come face to face with Artie he tells me that our parents already know that I was out all night. He was all cocky because he thinks that I was out all night with Puck but what he didn't know what that his little plan to try and get Puck and I together had failed and that I was really at Santana house all night.
"You ok Brittany" Mike asks once he see that I am home
"Yeah I am fine however Santana isn't feeling so well"
I glare over at Artie releasing this information
"Santana you were supposed to be with Puck" Artie says confused
I smile up at him I hand the upper hand and there was nothing he could do
"Forget it Artie your stupid plan didn't work"
Are sibling feud is interrupted as my mom walks down the stairs angrily yelling something at me, I think it was something along the lines as to me calling when I am not going to be coming home that night. I look up at her so she thinks that I am hearing what she is saying.
"Whether we are here or not I would like to know that you are ok" my mom continues
My mom and dad went on a date night last night they even stayed out in a hotel and everything.
"Not to mention you missed church"
I could tell that she is upset that I had forgotten to call and more so that I missed church but what was I supposed to do. I needed to be with Santana just like she needed me to be there.
"Sorry I spent the night at Santana's… I didn't think you and dad would be back so early"
I look bravely into her eyes not backing down. I had enough with parents for today first with Santana's mom and now with mine.
"Now we know you don't go to mass unless we make you" My dad says
As he walks in from the other room.
"Sorry" is all I had left
"Brittany"
I try and make it up the stairs into the safety of my room before I am stopped by my mom
"Don't you see I am worried about you?"
She grabs my hand and pulls me so that we are face to face.
"Ever since we moved her you have changed"
"What am I supposed to do stay the same?"
"Brittany listen" my dad tries to back up my mom
"No dad you know Artie goes out every night and nobody says anything and then I go out to help a friend and get questioned a little double standard don't you think?"
I get down into my mom's face. She just doesn't get it she said she would try to understand that she would try and give Santana a chance but she hasn't and its killing me.
"It's that girl I tell you" my mom looks at my dad
"Here we go again you know what her name is Santana, Santana why won't you ever say her name?"
"You want me to say her name I'll say her name, you're not allowed to see Santana"
My mom was right back in my face this was getting heated and fast
"What why" I scream
I look at my dad to see if this is really is he going to just let her do this to me?
"Cause she is a bad influence I am telling you are forbidden from seeing Santana"
"Yeah and how are you going to stop me your never home"
With that I felt a fast hard hand slap my face. I automatically reach up to where my face had just been violated. I look at my mom and I can't believe she just did what she did. I turn to look at my dad to see his reaction. He couldn't believe it either his jaw was dropped open. I start to cry and race my way up the stairs to my room. I hear my dad start to talk to my mom about what she just did as I close the door behind me.
Once I am in my room I lay on my bed and tears continue to run down my face. I can't stop myself from crying and right now I really don't want to. The last twenty-four hours have been a rollercoaster ride and it felt good to let go of some of the tension that build up. The rest of the day I stayed in my room. I called Santana and we talked for a while smoothing things over between us. I still don't know what we are but at least we are on speaking terms and my mom she's just going to have to deal with it.
Santana parks and we both get out I walk my way over to Santana's side that was the direction of our class. Once I am side by side with her she pulls my hand and intertwines her fingers with mine. The she pulled my hand up to our waists.
"What are you doing?" I ask
"Checking your life line I wanna know if you going to be around for a while."
We smile giddily at each other not really looking into each other's eyes but more at each other's features. It felt so go to be touching her again it was almost a whole twenty-four hours since the last time our skin touched each other's and I was dying for the contact. We stop when we hear someone say
"Get a room… since when did this become the island of lesbo's?" Quinn said as she passed by
I look at Santana what Quinn said didn't bother me I really don't think anything anyone would say would bother me. I know what I want now and I am not going to let anyone or anything stand in my way of getting that. However Santana seems to be a little off like what Quinn said made her think a little.
"It's hard to be mad at her when she makes a statement about geography… I wonder if she even knows that it means ... I know her evil minions don't"
This makes Santana laugh and brings her back to me. The bell rings.
"You know you're right we are going to be late for class"
Santana walks around me and heads to class. She seems different though like the things Quinn said are still dancing around in her head. She even seems a little distant which is really not like her at all. Normally she is more touchy feely with me. I hope she's ok.
After class I meet up with Santana again as we walk to our next class we stop at my locker so that I can get a book. I am really stressed about how my parents have been acting not only has my mom lost it with me but it seems like they have been fighting a lot which is not like them.
"I wish my parents would stop acting so weird. They are trying to be so controlling and there being so irrational and I wish I didn't care"
"I have a lot of experience in the department it's not you, it's them trust me parents are not rational people something happens when you get older. I think its hormones"
I shake my head taking in what she is saying
"They focus so much on you that they don't have to focus on them self's and all there crap"
"Thanks"
I feel a lot better now that I have talked to Santana and I think I might understand my parents a little better now. She always seems to brighten my day.
She smiles at me and I step in to give her a hug. I wrap my arms around her neck and feel her arms pull tight on my waist. It feels good it feels right. I don't want this moment to end. I don't know what happened but all of a sudden she starts to squirm and pulls back saying that she has to go. She walks away I turn to follow her with my eyes. Now I am sad again and confused. I don't get it I know she likes me why is she acting this way?
Later that night at the local teen club Santana puck and I all met up. Santana and I are sharing a booth and I have never been as confused with us as I am right now. She is so distant it's like she's not even her. I don't know what I did to make her act this way and its driving me crazy. After a few minutes Puck comes with our drinks
"Who got the club soda" he asks
He places the drinks down on the table in front of him. He looks up at us and sees me staring at Santana. I think he can tell that something is off
"Ok or I can just talk to myself maybe I can meet two new girls to get messed up in the head with."
Great now he's mad too? I don't even show him attention I keep staring at Santana and I can't take it anymore I need to know what is wrong and I need to know now.
"What's going on with you Santana?"
She won't even look at me
"Sometimes you're pulling me close to you I try and take a step towards you and you close up and move away"
"Exactly" Puck chimes in
I can't deal with him right now too
"Can you give us a minute?"
"Sure I will be right over here if any of you decides to straighten up"
"Cute" Her first words since we got here
"Do you want that life?" She askes "Stupid little comments on what you want and how you feel... that's why I learned to laugh most things off cause it hurts to much to do anything else"
I think she was trying to protect me and this is the only way she knew how to. With the way she was raised she didn't do things the right way or the sweetest but she was looking out for me none the less. She didn't want me to hurt the way she did when she came out. I don't really care though I want her only her no I need her.
"I can't just be friends with you Santana it has to be more then that or I am out of your life" I warn her
She just looks at me she say nothing
"I need to figure out mine"
Still nothing just this expressionless face. I shake my head and leave.
The next day at school Santana and Puck are walking the halls Santana needs advice she knows she wants to be with Brittany but she doesn't know if she is able to handle it all. She knows she's not good in relationships and she really likes Brittany and doesn't want to mess up the friendship that they have.
"What do I do about Brittany?"
"Don't ask me I am the only one in the school not hooking up"
"Yeah but your aloneness give you a certain clarity what do I do?"
"Do you want to be with her?"
"I dunno… what is I scare her way?"
"I think you're the one that is afraid"
"No"
"Yes"
"I know from experience that you're the one that does the heart breaking… maybe, maybe you're afraid that Brittany is the one that can break your heart…What are you thinking?"
"That you make a great girl"
Later that night at home I am with my dad and we are talking about how he and mom are not getting along right now. My dad and I are really close a lot closer than my mom and I. most have to do with the fact that I have always been daddy's little girl.
"I just want you and mom to be alright"
I was kinda scary this is the first time I was unsure as to whether or not my mom and dad were going to last, if you would have asked me before we moved if I thought if they would make it I would have thought you were crazy. But now I am not sure.
"I know you do, do so I but your mom and I might need to take a little break from each other get things back on track"
"You mean splitting up? How is that getting things back on track?"
"Maybe we will remember why we got together in the first place we will figure it out. How about you? You ok?"
I look down at the floor I don't know wheater or not to tell him the truth about Santana but part of me feels like he already knows.
"I don't know?"
"Brittany"
I look up at him
"You're my daughter I love you so very very much no matter who you are"
I thought he knew all I can go is hold back tears smile and hug my dad. I love him so much hes so caring and understanding. All he wants is the best for me and a part of me is sad that him and mom are fighting. Suddenly the doorbell rings.
"Are you expecting someone?" he asks
I shake my head no. My dad walks over to the door and opens it. It's Santana
"Is Brittany here?"
"Yeah come on in Santana, it's good to see you?"
"It's good to see you to Mr. P"
"I'll leave you two alone"
With that my dad walks off into the other room. Santana walks over to me and we walk into the living room. We sit down on the couch I really don't know what to say to her I kinda left what I had to say at the club.
"So" I ask her
"So I'm sorry for the come here go away trip I have been putting you through"
I immediately want to jump up and hug her and tell her its ok but I don't. I sit there staring into the most beautiful mocha eyes I have ever seen. I wanna hear more I wanna know she wants me as much as I want her.
"Ok why would you do that?" I ask her calmly
"Because I want you"
Yes finally the one thing that I have been waiting to hear from her. I swear I could do back flips right now but she continues so I sit and listen to everything she has to say.
"I don't want to hurt you"
"I can take care of myself"
She looks a little hurt she takes her eyes off me and looks down at the floor.
"And with some left over to take care of you" I say
She smiles and looks into my eyes I feel a surge of emotions swift through my body bouncing everywhere. I take how amazing he makes me feel with just her eyes. I wanna kiss her but I don't I control myself.
"Come to my place my mom is going to be in the Casta's for a couple days"
"Ok"
She scrunches up her nose as she smiles hard.
When we get to her house we make our way to her room. She pulls me towards the couch that is in her room, she sits on the back edge of the couch. I stand in between her legs with my hands on her waist. She moves a piece of hair that had fallen into my face grabs the back of my neck looks into my eyes and pulls me in for our first kiss. It's amazing I have never felt like this from just a kiss. I feel like fireworks are going off inside my body. To think the way she can make me feel by just looking into my eyes is easily tripled by her kiss. We stop kissing for a minute so we can look into each other's eyes again.
Then she grabs my hand and leads me to her bed...
