"Loki ..."

Both Loki and Thor had planned for this moment. Loki had thought about where to hit Thor, what to scream at him and what to say to him, while Thor had thought about what to say to Loki and how hard he'd hug him. Now that the moment was in front of them, all they could do was stare at each other, with Lki shaking his head in disbelief and Thor looking so lost and excited.

Just as Loki was about to stand back up and shove Thor, the man of iron was there knocking Thor off the tiny cliff they were on. Loki watched on as the man of iron started to battle with Thor. He watched until he realized he was still clutching a letter. Opening the letter and stared at the words, not reading them and not wanting to read them. The fear of what this letter could do to him burned in his mind. Loki didn't want to read how much Thor had hated him and he didn't want to read how he was disowned. Much to his disadvantage, Loki was curious and the urge to read had taken over.


Loki,

I have just finished reading your letter and I am at a loss of words. Have you ever had so much to say, but you didn't know where to start? I'm sure you haven't, words were always your weapon so it's only natural that you have never had this trouble. Ah, I am doing what you called "rambling", correct? I'm hoping that I will eventually ramble my way to a point. Do I even have a point? I guess this letter is showing you how much I need you. This is no metaphor I can think of that explains what you mean to me. Without you it's chaotic, everything is a mess and I cannot seem to think straight.

I don't know what I have done to make you feel like an outcast, or that I looked at you as being beneath me. It pains me to know that you think that when I have tried to prove otherwise. I wish you weren't so blinded by what you think you are, it has affected what you truly are. Does this make sense, Loki? Please bear with me if it doesn't. I have thousands of thoughts going through my head and so many things I wish to tell you; to set straight with you, and I still don't know where to start.

I miss you so much, brother, and no matter how you think father views you, please know that you were always number one to me and I would go through years of pain if it meant that it would bring you back. Nothing you can do will change the fact that you are my brother and I love you with everything that I am. Please be okay, Loki, please.

Thor.


Loki sat with tears flowing down his cheeks, reading the last few lines of Thor's letter over and over again, making sure he wasn't dreaming. This can't be right, he must be imagining things because there was no way Thor didn't hate him ... that Thor didn't want him dead. Loki had destroyed the bifrost, had ruined his chances of seeing Jane again and Thor still loved him? No, this is wrong.

"He is my brother and he is coming home with me!"
Loki glanced at the noise just in time to see Mjölnir smash into the man of iron's suit.
"Do you have any idea what your brother has done?!"
Loki smirked, both of them were so silly. While they were bickering, Loki could have escaped, he could still escape, but he had a plan. Oh, the plan. Loki frowned. Did he really want to go through this his plan now? Something had changed inside Loki, for some reason he didn't feel as cold as he had before. Staring at Thor made him feel something ... was it longing?

Although Loki was mad at his brother, he did love him. After his fall he had missed him dearly. No, he had to go through with his plan ... but what happens if he succeeded? Thor would be harmed, no doubt. Loki hugged the letter to his chest and began to think of possible ways he could make it seem like he was trying, but was sure to have a failed outcome. He grinned as he realized he could use the green monster the humans had. Things would get destroyed and he'd be free ... and then he could put the rest of his plan into action.

Loki would fail his mission and Thor would take him home. He didn't care what his father's punishment was, he'd be gone soon and Thor would rule and Loki knew that no matter what, Thor would always protect and love him. Loki wasn't as strong or as brave as Thor, he might not have been Thor's equal in anything, but Thor needed Loki and being needed, being wanted ... being loved was all Loki ever really wanted.