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Chapter Six

"Thank you for you dinner, it was great." Clare said staring straight ahead.

We had decided to drive to Fort Lauderdale, about 30 minutes away, we dinner.

There was a small restaurant on the beach.

We had finished eating and decided to go for a walk down the dock.

It was already dark out and the stars were shinning above us.

It was a little breezy out, but it felt good on the exposed skin.

"No problem." I smiled. "Thank you for not throwing it up."

"Ugh," Clare said disgusted. "Don't remind me of that. Ever."

"Deal." I laughed.

Clare was holding her purse with her far hand.

Our hands closest to one another kept touching, almost as if she wanted me to grab it.

Marc had told me to speed up the pace a little with her.

We only had about a week left here.

Our vacation was already halfway over.

I gave into temptation and twined our fingers together.

I stole a look at Clare from the corner of my eye.

She was smiling.

We were almost at the end of the dock.

"If you could have one thing in the world what would it be?" Clare asked, staring at the sky.

I considered this.

I hated thinking about Julia when I'm with Clare.

She ruins the vibe and happiness I begin to feel.

That's what I would change.

Julia.

Everything that happened with her.

"I could guess what yours is." I smirked, taking Clare off topic of me. "You know, if I could give you a star for every time I thought of you, you'd have the galaxy."

Clare snorted.

"Wow." She laughed. "I never took you for a cheese ball, Mr. Goldsworthy."

"It's a talent." I joked.

We were at the end of the pier now.

I leaned against the rail and looked at Clare.

She walked closer to me, her hands on my hips.

She brought her face closer to mine.

Her lips were on my ear.

"Maybe you should find a new one." She whispered.

"Ouch!" I said as she pulled her face away.

Clare just shrugged her shoulders and stood beside me.

She looked out over the ocean.

I turned and did the same.

"When I was a little girl, I always wanted to sail around the world."

I looked over to Clare.

She turned her head to me.

"I would have thought you for mermaid or something."

" .Ha. Very funny." She laughed.

"Have you ever thought of pursuing that?" I asked, stepping towards her.

Clare shook her head.

"You've never met my mom," She laughed. "It's always been school, school, career. I don't have time to think of anything else."

"She doesn't sound like the supportive, follow you're dreams type."

Clare pushed off the rail and faced me.

She slowly shook her head.

She walked up to me, pulling at my sweater.

"Clare..." I started.

"Shh." She whispered.

Her face was only inches from mine now.

I could feel her chest press into me.

Her heart was beating fast.

Her hot breath against my face.

Her hands pulling open my sweater.

She kissed my jaw and then the corner of my lips.

"Cla-"

I was cut off when her lips forced onto mine.

Everything stopped.

I could feel my blood pulsing and rushing down me.

Our lips moved as one.

Her mouth slowly opened, her tongue tracing my bottom lip.

I put my hands on her hips and pushed her away gently.

"Clare." I whispered. "I- I can't right now."

Clare's eyebrows pressed together.

"Why not?" She asked. "I- I thought that you..."

"I'm only going to hurt you." I whispered, placing a piece of her hair behind her ear.

Clare turned her head.

"I don't get a say in this?"

"I'm not going to be the one to break your heart." I said.

Clare looked into my eyes and shook her head.

"I want you, Eli."

I pressed our foreheads together.

I knew I was going to regret this.

She was never going to forgive me.

"But," I whispered, feeling a ball in my throat. "I don't... want you, Clare."

Clare stared at me in shock.

Her eyes started getting watery.

"Oh." She whispered.

She turned to walk back up the dock.

She stopped about a meter from me and then turned again.

"Wha-" She started. "Why ... why would you lead me on like that!"

I started towards her.

"Clare..."

"No!" She screamed. "Why-"

Tears were in her eyes now.

"Clare," I said softly. "You don't understand."

"Then help me!" She said. "Hel- help my understand, Eli. I want to understand."

I shook my head.

She hated me.

She was never going to forgive me.

"I- I can't." I whispered.

Clare nodded and looked past me.

"Neither can I." She said.

She turned and walked up the pier.

"Clare!" I called. "Please, Clare!"


Again, don't kill me! Someone had asked about Julia & you will find everything out within the next few chapters! Again, don't kill me! Thanks everyone for all you're awesome reviews and support! I'd love to hear what you think! Thank youuu! :)