So many people have been reading this and I'm happy about that because I personally didn't think it was that good but if you guys like it then I will continue :)
Today started out bad but ended on a defiant high note. I couldn't stop thinking about Maya after school today. She was amazing and I honestly loved that she hated me. It meant she wasn't like those crazy puck bunny fan girls. I'm happy I met her. I needed a friend here at Degrassi. I don't know if I should call her a friend yet though, we don't know much about each other and she was very rude. Okay so we are like acquaintances? I really don't know what to call it but all I know is: I've never been happier to take French.
At about five my phone buzzed.
Maya: Hey Cam meet me Dot 1 hour 4 project?
I stared at the message for a minute. I have hockey but I guess I could be a little late. It's for class right?
Me: Sounds great :)
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I don't know why but I invited Cam to the Dot to work on our class project. I really hope we can be friends and I think this will help.
Cam: Sounds great :)
Perfect.
….
I waited in the Dot for a while but he was nowhere to be found. After about 20 minutes when I was about to leave he showed.
"Where were you?" I asked calmly although I was furious.
"Sorry, hockey practice ran long. Are you mad?" how could I be when he had a face like that.
"No, but we are going to be here later than I hoped." I shrugged my shoulders and he sat down in the chair next to mine.
We spent a few hours on our project and it was almost done. We had to hope Tristan did his part and we were all set. I'm kinda disappointed though, I'm really starting to like Cam the more I learn about him.
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I spent hours with Maya at the Dot doing work for class. She is not at all what I thought when I first met her. She is kind and very passionate about music. I also found out she was holding auditions for a lead singer of her band, I wish I was a better singer.
"Well I will see you tomorrow for class then." I said with a yawn it was now 10 PM.
"See you then." She walked out.
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I woke up early hoping to get the music room to myself. I like to go in there sometimes to relax but it's almost always occupied.
When I got there I was lucky, it was vacant. I sat down and grabbed my notebook. I had 1 hour before class, and I plan to use it wisely. Whenever I am in here I can always find an inspiration for something new because it's calm and quite.
I looked through the notebook until I found the unfinished song that I was looking for. I will admit I like to write my own music but I don't think it's good and it's private. Most of the music is just small stuff I would write when I'm upset but this one song I could never finish. I started it three years ago and it's still only half done nothing more. After a few seconds of staring at the page I flipped it and cleared my throat.
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I stared at the one unfinished song I've written. I could never finish it and I don't know why. I walked over to the music room to try and finish it but when I got there the doors were locked and as I was about to go get Principal Simpson to unlock it, I heard a voice start to sing.
Did you ever picture life like this
No shooting star to grant your wish
Are you everything you hoped you'd be
Or caught somewhere in between
You dropped your nickel down a wishing well
And prayed for luck to cast its spell
To bring you closer to your dreams
That always seem just out of reach
I was hypnotized by the voice and it was oddly familiar. I don't recognize the song though, maybe the person wrote it?
You pray to God the moment when
You feel the current pull you in
Try to keep your head above water
Has never been harder
Even when it feels hopeless
You're gonna get through this
Head above water, gotta fight from going under
Even when it feels useless to wish
You're gonna get through this
I had already taken my phone out and was recording this. I had to find out who this is…. Maybe after the song though.
Have you ever felt like giving in
Tried for hours but just can't win
Tell yourself you're not good enough
The struggle alone is just too much
No one's there to hear you scream
You gasp for air but cannot breathe
Did you ever think you'd see the day
When you'd watch your life get washed away
I really want to know who is in the room but my feet… they just won't move.
You pray to God the moment when
You feel the current pull you in
Try to keep your head above water
Has never been harder
Even when it feels hopeless
You're gonna get through this
Head above water, gotta fight from going under
Even when it feels useless to wish
You're gonna get through this
Damn it feet move! I ordered to myself. Still plastered to the spot.
Did it ever hurt so bad
That the thought of feeling lost would never end
Well you will think again
Finally they work!
Try to keep your head above water
Has never been harder
When it feels hopeless
You're gonna get through this
Head above water, gotta fight from going under
Even when it feels useless to wish
You're gonna get through this
I dashed away, leaving my phone to record the rest.
Head above water, never been harder
Tryin' to keep your head above water has never been harder
You're gonna get through this
You're gonna get through this
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I noticed Maya outside the music room and rushed out through the other door. There was no way I was going to let her see me in here. I'm a horrible singer and if she heard me I don't want her to know it was me.
Once I was in the clear I went back to see Maya, I had found something we could add to our project.
"hey Maya, I thought I would find you in here."I said walking back into the music room.
"Oh hi cam I didn't see you." She took one of her ear buds out.
"Listen to this." She handed it to me. I put it in my ear and froze. I was the one singing, am I really that good?
"Who is it?" I hoped she didn't see me.
"I don't know. I came over here to practice but the door was locked and I heard this from inside. All I know is this person has talent and I need a singer for my band, help me find him?" I froze, if I say yes it will be a waste of time. If I tell her it will just crush her that I couldn't sing in her band.
"Sure." WHAT that was not what I had my brain tell my mouth.
Cam's song: "Head Above Water" Theory of a Deadman
