Lil
"Alright guys that's it for today" yelled Lil as she brought cheerleading practice to an end. All of her squad members nodded and gathered their things. She glared at Savannah and Kimi glared at her. She rolled her eyes at her ex best friend. They hadn't spoken since the second half of her freshman year.
During the eighth grade Kimi dropped her gothic phase and went more for the popular It girl phase. But she couldn't attract that type of crowd. And easy going Lil was always popular without even trying. That bugged Kimi to know end so during their freshman year of high school Kimi did something that Lil has never forgiven her for. The only reason she's still on the squad is because she's talented.
Lil walked over to get her things and was packing them away when her phone vibrated. She took it out and rolled her eyes. It was from Tommy…again. So last time she spoke to Chuckie she told him it was going to be a one time thing. And she meant it. Except when she went to cuss Tommy out for fucking running his mouth in the first place, arguing turned into kissing and kissing turned into groping and well you know the rest. Now that one time thing turned into a four-time thing and she didn't know how to stop it.
She opened the text and it said "Meet me somewhere anywhere" She replied "No" and closed her phone. As she walked back into school someone came up to her.
"Hey babe" She rolled her eyes again.
"Sean I'm not your babe ok, so get the fuck away from me" she said walking faster trying to get away from him.
"Dammit Lil would you slow the hell down, I told you that bitch Savannah meant nothing to me ok" She kept walking and he ran to catch up with her. He caught her arm. "Look Lil I said I'm fucking sorry ok" Lil stopped and turned to face him
"You are fucking sorry Sean, you're a sorry piece of shit who didn't realize what he had till it was gone, well guess what Fuck you and goodbye" she said pushing him away from her and walking off.
"Fuck" she heard him yell to no one in particular. Lil walked through the school over to her car. When she got in she blasted some music and drove all the way home with a smug smile on her face.
She got in the house went to her room. She smelled pot in the hallway, which probably meant that Chuckie was over and Phil was still depressed waiting on Suzie to call him. She made a mental note to confront Suzie on it later. She walked in her room and placed her bag on the floor after closing the door behind her.
"Hello Gorgeous" she jumped a little frightened by the unknown presence in her room and turned around. It was Tommy he was wearing his football jacket some blue jeans and a white tee shirt. He looked freshly showered and his cologne infiltrated her senses.
"Tommy what the fuck, you scared the shit out of me" she said holding her chest trying to catch her breath. Tommy smiled and walked over to her.
"I'm sorry baby that was not my intention," he said sweetly as he sat down on her bed.
"Why are you making yourself comfortable, I didn't fucking invite you to be here" said Lil glaring at him.
"I thought you wanted to continue what we started last night," he said smirking. Lil rolled her eyes smug asswhole.
"I told you last night that I'm done fucking you" she said pulling him by his arm attempting to make him move.
"Well you could've fooled me Lil, I saw the way you were looking at me today" he said not moving an inch. She refrained from pulling him and crossed her arms over her chest.
"What the fuck are you talking about?"
"In French, you were giving me those Fuck Me eyes all period" said Tommy licking his lips. Lil smirked.
"You are so fucking full of yourself"
"Maybe, but I'm also right" he said getting up and going over to her. She backed away from him.
"Um get the fuck out or imma scream at the top of my lungs" she said backing all the way to the door ready to open it. He followed her smirking
"Oh you will," he said confidently as he closed the distance between them kissing her. She tried to push him off at first but he was so skilled. This boy had learned a lot from whomever he had been with. His hands were everywhere, which was making it hard for her to resist him.
He tore his lips from her mouth and started kissing her on her neck. She grabbed the remote on her dresser, which was next to her bedroom door and turned on her stereo and blasted the music as loud as she could. If they were going to do this she was going to make damn sure that nobody heard them. She felt him smirk against her neck.
She threw the remote somewhere in the room and started to unbuckle his pants, as he nipped at her neck. She knew that he would be leaving hickeys there but she didn't care at the point. After she undid his buckle she shoved his pants down around his ankles and his hands started working their way to her pants he undid hers and she quickly stepped out of them.
He lifted her up and she wrapped her legs around his waist as he kissed her on the lips and forced his tongue into her mouth as they battled for dominance he slipped into her easily. She stopped kissing him and gasped at the sensational feeling.
Lil hadn't been sexually active with that many people. There had been Sean of course, he was her first and he taught her a lot of things but she taught him some things too. There was that guy Trent but it had only been a one-night stand after she got drunk when she found out that Sean had cheated on her. And then there was Tommy.
She didn't know why but so far no one could compare to him. He filled her up in ways that she thought wasn't possible. He was definitely the ultimate lover, but she knew that this was wrong, but it felt so fucking good.
He started pumping in and out of her while holding her up. Good thing he was so strong. Her knees felt like they would give out if he put her down. He starting kissing her mouth again and when he hit one spot inside her she felt like she would explode. She started yelling his name and he started yelling hers.
"Fuck Lil why do you have to be so tight" he said as he kept on plowing her into the wall.
"Why do you have to be so fucking good at this," she thought as she struggled to hold onto him and not to scream.
She gripped onto his back as she felt herself tense up she knew she was about over the edge. He felt it too, and it was becoming too much. He hoped that she would cum soon because it would be way too embarrassing if he did, but he felt like he was about too.
He tried to continue hitting that spot as accurately as he could and by the looks of it he was doing it right because she threw her head back and he felt her walls clench around him. They both came together with a mind-curling scream. He let her down physically spent and her legs felt like Jell-O. She struggled to walk over to the bed and he followed her. She collapsed on her bed and he fell on top of her.
"Ow stupid" he laughed at her and rolled off of her.
"Sorry shit I'm tired as fuck right now," he said rolling over to his side and pulling her to him. She allowed him too because she was too tired to push him off and fell asleep.
She woke up a couple of hours later and peeled Tommy's arm off of her and walked to the bathroom to take a shower. After getting out of the shower she went downstairs to start on dinner and found her mom passed out on her living room couch with an empty glass and a bottle of gin on the coffee. She rolled her eyes and she took both the bottle and the glass into the kitchen.
Her mom started drinking when her father left them about two years ago. He was sick of Betty always controlling his life. So he cashed in some money he'd won from some scratch off tickets got himself a new convertible and a hot blonde 20 something year old girlfriend and took off. She and Phil still kept in touch with their father and he sent them post cards where ever he went and gifts.
She seasoned some chicken and put it in the oven to start cooking. Chuckie and Phil came downstairs smelling the food.
"You potheads done smoking" she asked jokingly
"Nope I gotta fresh bag in my pocket" said Chuckie patting his side "Are you cooking, I'm fucking starving dude" he said smelling the good aroma of the food.
"Yes I'm cooking you douche are you staying for dinner"
"Sure" he said smirking as he and Phil started to search the kitchen for junk food. Tommy came downstairs and into the kitchen and the boys stopped what they were doing to look at what would happen.
"Tommy dude I didn't know you were here" said Phil. Chuckie glared at his best friend.
"Yeah I just got here dude looking for you losers, but I must be off, gotta hot date with Kimi tonight" Lil rolled her eyes and tried to turn away from the disappointing looks Chuckie was giving her.
"Your flies open" said Chuckie to Tommy who blushed and zipped it.
"Right see ya," he said walking out the front door. Phil nodded none the wise and Chuckie continued to glare at him.
After a few moments of awkward silence Lil took the bottle of Gin poured a glass for herself and walked out onto the front porch and began sipping. The spicy liquid burned her throat but felt good as it went down she didn't want to focus on what she had just done with Tommy or the looks her best friend was giving her. The front door opened and out came Chuckie with a glass. He poured himself some and sat down next to her on the front porch.
"Isn't that bad for your chemo" she asked. Chuckie told all of his friends about the cancer shortly after he got the news. Lil was scared to death for him but she didn't let on.
"Fuck it, you only live once right," said Chuckie shrugging. She nodded in agreement and continued to drink.
"I thought you said that you were going to stop fucking around with Tommy, it was just a one time thing," he said mocking her.
"It was a mistake," she said still drinking not wanting to talk about this.
"Oh I'm sure," he said sarcastically. She rolled her eyes. "How many more of those are you gonna fucking make Lil"
"What are you my fucking father, it's none of your business Chuckie so just leave it alone" she said.
"I thought you were smarter than that Lil now you're just like all those other sluts Tommy fucks" he said she knew it was the weed and alcohol speaking but that still hurt.
"Who the fuck are you to judge me huh, fuck you Chuckie ok," she said getting up.
"Wait Lil, wait I'm sorry ok, I just fucking care about you Dammit" he said stopping her. He got up as well and now they were both standing.
"I don't want to do this right now ok" she said. He nodded and pulled her into a hug.
"I'm sorry cheerface," he said and she nodded into his embrace laughing.
"Whatever pothead" she said he laughed as well.
The next day Lil saw Suzie in the library and decided to go talk to her. She walked in and took a seat at Suzie's table.
"Hey Suz what's going on?" she asked.
"Nothing just studying" she said sighing.
"No Suzie I mean what the fuck is going on with you and my brother" Suzie put the book down.
"What do you mean?"
"I mean why haven't you answered any of his calls or texts, what did he do?" she asked
"Nothing he didn't do anything, it was all me" she said picking her book back up. Lil grabbed the book and slammed it down on the table causing Suzie to jump and other people around her to look at them.
"What the fuck are you looking at," she yelled. The librarian wasn't present so she got away with it and all the students turned back to what they were doing.
"Suzie my brother may not be the best person in the world but he definitely doesn't deserve to be treated like shit ok, so go fucking talk to him or I'll lock the both of you up in a fucking room until you speak to him" she said getting up. Suzie nodded
"Ok you're right, I'll go talk to him" she said.
A couple of weeks later Lil started feeling ill. She and Tommy had been together but not since she started feeling sick and she was starting to worry. And on top of that she hadn't had her period on time. This has happened before when she was stressed about a cheer leading competition or something of that nature but there was no competition and she wasn't stressing out she didn't think.
And today in health class the teacher-discussed pregnancy now she was really starting to worry. She cancelled cheer practice after school and ran into Suzie.
"Hey Suz, are you busy."
"I have to go straight home," said Suzie.
"Please I need your help," she said. Suzie nodded and got into the car with Lil. Lil drove as fast as she could to the drug store, hopped out and hopped back in. Suzie took the bag from her as she started driving and pulled out what was inside.
"Is this a…pregnancy test?" she asked confused.
"Yes Suzie how very fucking observant of you"
"But Lil you and Sean"
"I haven't been with him in a really long time its not his if there is an, it that is" she said pulling into her drive way.
"Who, then" she asked.
"Tommy"
"Tommy, you didn't tell me about Tommy"
"Well you weren't speaking to anyone"
"I'm sorry"
"Don't worry about it" said Lil as they got out and walked through the front door. Lil put the pregnancy test back in the bag and gave it to Suzie. Lil's mom came up to them in a drunken haze.
"Lil, hey sweetie," she said pinching Lil's cheeks
"Mom I have to go and um do homework" said Lil trying to get past her.
"My perfect little Lil not like that good for nothing brother of yours where the fuck is he anyways"
"I don't know mom," she said trying to get past her.
"All men are dogs you understand me their dog shit," she said lying back down on the couch. Lil and Suzie walked past her and up the stairs.
"Sorry about that"
"No worries" said Suzie as she pulled out the test. "Ok here it says that all you have to do is pee on the stick if its blue its positive and if its pink it's negative set your timer for thirty seconds and it should be ready" Lil nodded and took the test and walked to the bathroom. "Take your time I have to call my dad," said Suzie as she grabbed Lil's house phone.
Lil walked to the bathroom at an unnaturally slow pace and closed the door and peed. What the fuck would she do if this test came out positive she was only sixteen. And she wasn't even in love with Tommy he was just someone to have fun with on occasion. She sat the test on the sink when she finished and washed her hands.
She put the timer on her phone on and sat back down on the toilet seat. What would she do, how would she tell Tommy what would he say, she'd have to quit cheerleading and what would everyone else say. Then she decided to think positively this she wasn't pregnant she was just scared she and Tommy were careful, she'd been on the pill since she'd started high school. She'd be fine. Her phone buzzed indicating that the time was up she shut it off and picked up the stick. It was indeed blue.
"Fuck"
