Chapter 7
A million thoughts were running through Jasmine's head.
As they were walking toward The Lake of Tears she remained silent and she thought. She thought about how she should have kept John from killing the Orchard keeper. If she had, the tree wouldn't have fell on him. She then proceeded to think about her breakdown out of The Forests of Silence. Burying John, then having to walk through the forests was awful. After they had found their way out the tears had come.
She remembered snapping at Mark. Then he had yelled right back at her. Lief rescued Mark by taking him on that walk. Then Barda had berated her about how she acted, then it settled to a light tongue-lashing, then Barda had just held her and they just sat. Then Mark and Lief had come back so they had needed to go. Jasmine didn't even know why she missed John so much. Was it because she had feelings for him? No, no, no. She didn't like love. It confused too many things. She had promised she would never get married. Even to Lief who made her feel the feeling she got with John. She dismissed this thought. On this quest you couldn't get sidetracked. She was sure Lief had made the quest lighter than it was to Mark.
Then the darker thoughts had come. The evil voice that had been in her head ever since her mother and father were taken away and stayed even when Doom came back. That voice was saying how she could pull out her dagger and lunge at Mark. She could make it clean and quick. Lief and Barda wouldn't be mad. Mark was an outsider. Somebody who didn't matter. She fought those thoughts. Mark was a person. Not a normal person, but he was a person. Maybe John died for a reason. For Mark to be able to prove maybe, just maybe, for her to learn to trust Mark.
