"I-I-I-I-I want to love you, but if it's not right what can I do, everything will be alright, so baby get some sleep tonight" – Marilyn by G-Eazy
Emily was so lost in her own mind that she didn't even realized she had reached out to hold her new friend in place. "Don't go…" barely left her lips; she didn't know what she was doing…I should be angry, or disgusted…or something, I shouldn't want her to stay. What does she even see in that man. She shuddered just thinking about it.
JJ watched as the brunette seemed to go through some sort of inner struggle. Should I say something? I don't know what to say, I don't even understand why she doesn't hate me. Oh God. She doesn't actually want to go through with the Will thing, does she?! I can't deal with this right now.
"Uhh,sorry, I mean…you can go, if you want to.." Emily stammered out "But you don't have to, or anything like that…"
JJ slowly sat back down as she felt a heat rush through body. Why does she have to be so damn adorable when she rambles like that. I shouldn't be having these feelings towards this woman…this gorgeous, outstanding woman…dammit, please someone save me from myself.
"We can talk about something else!" The blonde watched as brown eyes lit up at her own proposal. God, those beautiful brown eyes. Emily wiggled around on her stool trying to think of something else to talk about, anything that would clear the awkwardness that hung in the air around them.
JJ swallowed hard as she thought of something to say to help her new friend out "I'm glad you turned him down…" Fuck. Why did I say that, we're trying NOT to talk about that. "I, uhm, I mean…I….just…" she felt herself getting more and more embarrassed
Emily's eyes shot up to meet JJ's, did she really just hear that correctly? Oh hell no. He better not harm this angel. Wait-she's glad? Maybe she wants me for herself, I- Thoughts flew her head. Ugh, get it together Prentiss. She's just being a good person, it's nothing…He better not force her to do anything she doesn't want to. I can't even – ugh. Why am I so concerned for this woman. She couldn't help but smile and extended her arm to put a reassuring hand on JJ's shoulder to try to calm her down. "Hey…JJ…look at me…it's okay…" She waited until those stunning blue eyes met hers "do you want to talk about it?"
JJ sighed and her shoulders slumped. Why am I so horrible with words around her? Words are my job, I'm a journalist for crying out loud. "I…uhm…I just…" she felt Emily's hand rub her arm and found it even harder to put words together. Everything this beautiful brunette touched just seemed to tingle in some strange fantastic way. She took a deep breath and slowly let it go "Just let me get through this, please…I don't really like what he does…I always knew he was a bit of a ladies man, but it was supposed to be just us…this just kind of got started and now it happens far too often…and I know they always say that there's a way out…I just…there's no clear way, it seems like there's no win…if I say no he just goes off with the new girl on his own…I…I don't know…" She felt her eyes water and turned towards the bar to cradle her head in her hands. Why did I even just say all that, the woman isn't my damn therapist. She shouldn't have to deal with all this, surely she's going to sprint out the door now.
"How long have you been married for?" JJ looked up while still avoiding eye contact, completely surprised that the brunette was still sitting there let alone talking to her "Not even a whole year…" she let out a sad laugh "How sad is that?" Emily squinted her eyes a little, focusing on the blonde beauty and trying to get all of her thoughts together, she had thought the blonde must have been married for a long time and this had started because of some sort of lull; but not even a year? Something wasn't right. Her heart ached when she heard a sniffle and saw a tear trail down JJ's pale skin.
"Hey…" she reached out and gently wiped any fallen tears away with her thumb, keeping her hand softly cupping the side of her face in an effort to get the blonde to look at her "everything will be okay…I know I'm in no place to offer relationship advice, but if you ever need anything I'll be here for you…" she carefully twisted herself to grab a card out of her jacket, she turned back and desperately tried to ignore that JJ's hand that had fallen onto her thigh, if she had any hope of being able to listen to what this stunning woman might say, she had to ignore the hand. Why do these damn stools have to be so close anyway…not that I really mind…dammit Prentiss, concentrate. She scribbled down her personal number on the back of the card and handed it JJ "Here. I'll stay with you as long as you'd like tonight, and if you ever need anything again, just give me a call" as her eyes met JJ's she smiled and was suddenly engulfed in a huge hug. "Thank you, Emily…so much…I have no idea why you care, or why you haven't just yelled at me and left…but thank you…this-" Her eyes widened and she pulled back from the hug leaving Emily thoroughly confused.
"JJ?" Emily wondered what had happened, did she do something wrong? Something clearly upset JJ, she still hadn't said anything and was staring beyond her "JJ? Are you okay?"
"Ahh, I see my two lovely ladies for the evening have met…"
