I stayed in bed all day, shivering. I was freezing and I was embarrassed. How could I do that? To Sebastian?! He's going to take my soul sooner or later... So, I'm sure I don't have any feelings for him... Do I?
No. I don't and that's final. Having feelings for someone is weak and childish. I am neither of those!
I am not childish or weak or fragile or anything. I am an emotionless boy.
Yes, that's it.
I stayed curled up in my small little ball under my covers, shivering now from the fight going on inside my head.
"Young master... You should eat. You haven't had food in a while." A dark voice said, lifting up my covers. I looked up at my butler, seeing his red eyes and raven hair.
I sighed. "I'm not hungry... I thought I told you to leave me alone!"
"Is that an order, sir?" He said as he sat on the edge on my bed.
I rubbed my right eye and sighed. "No."
"Then I can stay." He continues to sit next to me, smirking.
I slowly sat up and crossed my legs. "I... I could use some tea."
He dashed out of the door, coming in with some tea. "Yes, young master."
I rolled my eyes. "It was your job to come and make me eat or drink something, wasn't it?"
He just nodded as he poured me tea.
"Who?"
"Your aunt is here, young master. She wanted you fed since you have a 'cold'." Sebastian handed me the small cup.
I took a sip and sighed. "Of course... She would be the one to do that..."
He nodded and sat next to me.
"I didn't tell you to sit next to me."
"And I didn't ask." He smirked.
"Look... About earlier... I meant nothing." I said as I put the empty tea cup down.
"Are you sure about that?" He leaned in close, looking into my eyes as I looked back into his.
My face heated up as I pulled away. "Yes..." I walked downstairs, seeing my aunt and her red attire.
"Hello, Ciel! You're feeling well enough to come down to see your aunt?" Madame Red walked up to me, hugging me gently. I just nodded and sighed quietly.
I felt tired and weak and hungry from all the stupid crying I've done today. I look up at her and smile weakly.
"A smile... From you? That's rare." She smiles and runs her fingers through my hair before releasing me. "Go back upstairs and sleep... You look like a wreck, Ciel."
I just nodded, too weak to fight back. I just walked upstairs and laid back on my bed, feeling a warm touch on my back. I turned around to see Sebastian laying with me, his coat off, revealing his vest. I hugged him and snuggled close.
"Don't leave. I'm tired and cold and for a demon, you're warm." I murmured.
"Is that an order."
I sighed and paused. "Yes." And with that, I made sure he wouldn't leave my bed.
He stayed quiet after that as I looked up at him. I looked at his lips, bringing my hand up to trace them. His lips were so soft... So sweet... So gentle, yet so rough... I was falling for him and I just could seem to land on my feet like I always did.
"K-kiss me..." I stuttered as I stared into his piercing red eyes.
"Are you sure, master?"
I pinned him down, climbing on top of him as I kissed him softly, tangling my fingers in his hair as my eyes snapped shut. I was satisfied once he started to kiss back, his hands trailing down my small teenage body.
Teenage.
I pulled away as my eyes widen. I was only a teenager. I was in the prime of my youth... I shouldn't be doing this.
I stared at Sebastian.
"This is wrong... Isn't it?" I whispered.
He nodded and cupped my face. "It is. But it's fine..." He smiles softly.
"I feel the same way for you, Ciel." As he whispered my name, shivers went down my spine.
I blushed slightly before turning my back towards him, snuggling close as I closed my eyes, falling into a peaceful sleep.


"Master, it's time to wake up." A soft, warm hand was placed on my cheek. I leaned my head into the hand and sighed quietly.
My eyes snapped open and I pulled away from Sebastian, seeing him with only his dress shirt on. My heart pounded in my chest as I frowned. Last night was a mistake. It was a big, big mistake that never, ever happened.
"Sebastian, leave. I'll start myself a bath and was myself today." I murmured.
"Your bath has already been started, my lord." He said before bowing, slipping on his vest, tie and tail coat before slipping out of my room.
I quickly went to the bath that was readied for me, undressing myself and slipping into the warm, clear water. I closed my eyes, sinking down even further in the water, letting it relax me as I sorted out my feelings for Sebastian.
One.
He was my butler and I am an earl, I shouldn't be feeling this was for my butler.
Two.
He will take my soul and love it.
Three.
I've had to kiss him, he's never kissed me.
Four.
Can demons even feel?
I continued to count, all the way up to ten. Ten good reasons I shouldn't love him. It's not rational. Another reason, I can't love. I'm incapable of love.
Bloody hell, I could be a demon for the little emotions I show!
I closed my eyes and held my nose, dipping under the water to get my hair wet. I came above the water, pushing the hair out of my eyes and taking a small breath. I sighed and opened my eyes, washing my hair and my body now. I ducked back under the nuke warm water and washed all the shampoo out of my hair before coming back up.
"Sire," a dark voice murmured behind the door. "Breakfast is ready."
I got out of the bath, grabbing a towel and drying myself off. I sighed once I realized I had no clothes in here. My face slightly heated up as I wrapped the towel around my waist, showing my branding mark. I looked down at it, frowning deeply. I continued to stare at it, walking into my room. I looked at breakfast and lost all sudden hunger. I wasn't hungry. I haven't been in the last few days...
Odd.
All well, I'd eat a few bites to humor Sebastian.
Sebastian...
I sighed as I saw him stare at me. "No clothes today, my lord?"
"Shut it and get me some clothes." I murmured before sitting on my bed. I looked up at Sebastian and sighed. "Do I have any plans for today?"
He grinned and turned to me. "Why, it's your fourteenth birthday today."
"So, no plans or meetings today... Good." I sighed for the third time. "Then just get me a shirt and my blue shorts. I don't feel like dressing up if I have nothing to do for the day."
He just nodded before I turned my attention to the French bread covered in some sort of jam. I looked at the tea, smelling the tea before I took a sip. My favorite. Earl Grey tea. It relaxed people and Sebastian made it perfectly. I looked at the jam covered bread and took a small bite, it was better than I expected. I continued to eat the bread happily, grabbing today's paper and reading it.
'Is Jack the Ripper really back?!'
I threw the paper down as I read the headline.
"Sebastian, soon, I want you to find this killer who's copying Red... She's dead." Yes, she was dead, but didn't she just visit me yesterday...?
"Yes, my lord." He responded as he started to dress me.
I was confused. I was so confused. She died. Right? But she was here, yesterday...
"Did I have any visitors yesterday?" I asked Sebastian, frowning.
"No, sir. Why do you ask?"
Was yesterday all just a dream?
"I could've sworn I saw her. Then we..." I cut myself off and shook my head. "How long have I been out?"
"Well, my lord, after I brought you back, you fell asleep. You were asleep all day yesterday." He told me.
"What happened at night?"
He sighs quietly, buttoning my shirt. "It wasn't a dream... What we did if you're wondering. But Madame Red is indeed dead. That was all just a dream."
Explains why I smiled then... I never smile at her any more ever since she tried to kill me...
I stayed quiet as I got off my bed, finishing my tea. "I'll be in my study, reading."
"Yes, my lord."
I walked out of my room, into the study. I unbuttoned my shirt, revealing my chest a bit. I was a bit hot and confused from yesterday's events.
I sat down in my chair, sorting everything out. I woke up then ran into the garden, and then into the woods, crying and upset. Then, Sebastian took me back home. He said I was asleep all day, but he came up in my room and made me eat because of my aunt downstairs... I visited her for a very short time, when usually she'd walk me to my room and tuck me in... And we kissed... Twice...
Yes, it was a dream. That Red wasn't friendly... It was all just a dream. But then how did I curl up into Sebastian's arms?
"Sebastian!" I called out as I sighed, holding my head. "Tell me what happened yesterday."
"You ran outside when it was snowing heavily, almost a blizzard and I found you in the woods. You were burning up and I suggested that you had a fever. I ran you back home where I changed you and put you into some night clothes. You then slept all day. You were having some more chills and sweats, so I was planing on touching your forehead to see if you were hot or cold. You woke up and curled up to me, falling back asleep." He said in a bored tone.
"You're missing two pieces of that story..." I got out of my chair and looked around, trying to find a good book to read.
"But I believe you already know..." He murmured.
"We kissed. Yes or no?"
"Yes, my lord."
"Once in the morning or twice, in the morning and at night?" I found a good mystery novel and pulled it out, sitting back down, but this time on my desk. I looked up, placing the book in my lap and looking up at him.
"Twice." He finally said.
I nodded. "Did you mean what you said?"
"Yes, young master."
I paused before looking at my book, picking it up and opening it to the first page. I glanced up to see Sebastian staring at my chest.
"Do you have a problem with it being undone?"
"No, are you still feverish, my lord? Maybe you should lay back down..." He seemed worried, but I knew better.
"No." I simply said as I started to read. It was a lie, I was still feeling a bit sick. I went back to my book, reading.
I kept looking back up at Sebastian and I wasn't focusing on my book. Great, a fourteen year old who can't even read a book without getting side tracked.
I sound like a little boy.
"Why are you still here?" I murmured to Sebastian.
"Do you want me to leave?" He asked, smirking.
I glared at him, sighing in frustration as I slammed my book down, walking up to him.
"You kiss me and you act like it didn't even happen!" I slapped him across his face. I was going to stop at one, but I just kept hitting him.
I slammed my fist onto his chest and he pulled me close to him, his hands on my small waist.
"Sir, you're throwing a fit." He said calmly.
I growled and stared up at him as he held me close. "Let me go. Now."
"Is that an order?"
"Yes!" I hissed. I pulled away once he let me go.
I turned around, only to be grabbed by my shirt and spun around, Sebastian's lips meeting mine.
I kissed him back, a blush appearing on my cheeks.
I quickly pulled away and slapped him again. "You're sick!"
"And you're a sinner." Sebastian smirked as I walked away.
I went into my room, locking the door.
Why do I have to like him?!