I laid on my bed, closing my eyes as I heard the door knob rattle. I wasn't ever going to open it.
"Young master, please open up. You'll need to eat sooner or later. Plus, Lizzie's here." Sebastian said behind the door.
I groaned and buried my face into my pillow. "Leave me alone!"
I waited for a cocky response, but none came. I sighed quietly and closed my eyes again.
"My lord."
I jumped and looked at my open window, seeing Sebastian standing right in front of it. I growled. "I told you to leave me alone."
"Is that an order?"
"I feel sick, Sebastian. I lied. I still feel horrible." I started to get cold, I fumbled with the buttons on my shirt, slipping under my covers.
I saw him frown for a moment, but it was replaced with a smirk. "So, should I tell you fiancee to leave?"
I nodded and pulled my covers over my head, closing my eyes once more. I heard my window close. I quickly got up and locked that, too.
"There... Now he shouldn't be getting in." I smiled slightly.
I laid back down, sighing as I curled up against my covers. I slowed my breathing, biting my bottom lip for a moment. I sneezed loudly, blushing a bit.
My eyes fluttered open and I saw Sebastian sneaking in, putting a small, silver key in his pocket.
"You really are one hell of a butler.." I frowned.
"Well, what type of butler would I be if I couldn't keep my master comfortable while he's sick?" He smirks.
"A horrible one..."
He walked over to me and took off his glove with his teeth, pressing his hand against my forehead.
"A slight fever... Are you cold or hot?"
"Cold." I murmured.
"Then get back under the covers, my lord. That will help you."
I just grabbed Sebastian's hand, pulling him up against me. I heard him gasp quietly before wrapping his arms around me. I kept close to him, closing my eyes and sighing.
"This isn't happening, got it?"
"Yes, young master."
I laid my head on his chest, listening to his even breathing.

Pain. Pain and burning flesh.
"Hold him down, make sure he doesn't get away!" One of the men who were holding me down said.
"No! Let me go!" I screamed, thrashing around as they pulled the hot iron rod away from my skin.
The pain intensified.
I was done with fighting, it was now time to beg.
"Please...!" I moaned, glancing down at the horrid burn on my side.
The men started to murmur to one another, pulling me off of the table. The hands grabbed my forearms and dragged me to another room. Another cold, dark, empty room. It had another table with restraints...
"Lay him down. It's time." Some rough voice said out of the shadows.
Tears streamed down my cheeks as I wanted to puke, a horrible smell coming from this room as they threw me onto the table, taking the leather bounds and putting them over my chest and legs.
What I wouldn't do for clothes right now...
"He's ready, sir."
The men started chanting. My head started spinning.
I wanted to kill them all as I fought against the restraints. I wish they were all dead. All of them! All of them! I continued to fight against this horrid leather bounds. I wish I could kill them. I wish I could get out of these and kill them all.
I'd do anything.
Anything, you say? A dark, deep, attractive voice said.
Great, now I was going insane... But I decided to answer back.
Yes, anything.
I heard a chuckle. You seem to act like I don't exists. Do you know what I am and what I do?
No...
I'm a demon
These idiots were trying to summon a demon?!
And what do you want with me?
Well, Ciel, I'll help you.
The voice seemed oddly familiar...
How?
By killing all of them. And what ever you wish... I just need something in return.
I knew what he wanted.
Take my soul... I don't care. I have nothing else. My family is gone...
I understand. But once you work with me, you're dammed to hell forever. We'll have a contract. I do what you want and once it's fulfilled, I take your soul.
Understood. I mentally frowned.
My orders?
Your orders are to serve me and the Phantomhive manor. Help me avenge my parents and capture their killer. You are to stay by my side and faithful until this contract is complete. I told this 'demon'.
I waited, wanting to hear a response. I returned back to reality, hearing the men chant. I was dizzy and all I saw was blackness. Black feathers shined as they passed my eye sight... Feathers?
A name, Ciel! I need a name!
I thought of the names that I was fond of...
"Sebastian." I thought out loud.
I screamed loudly as I felt a skull cracking pain. The source came from my eye.
With this I am able to find you. You may never run away from me or the contract. We are bound together.
I saw a face which seemed oddly familiar as well...
Now... Give me my orders.
"Sebastian, get me out of here! And kill these men!" I screamed.
I saw a flash of red eyes and then screaming. Screaming and more screaming. But this time it didn't come from me... It came from those horrible, evil men.
I closed my eyes, not wanting to see the site. I felt two arms unbound me and something being wrapped around me. I finally opened my eyes and saw a thin cloth covering my body as someone picked me up. I looked up and saw red eyes and raven hair. The red eyes turned into an autumn color as the man turned down to look at me.
"Hello, master."
"Sebastian..." I simply said before crying into his chest. I brought myself close to him, sobbing.

I wake up, sweat dripping down my face as I sit up. I saw Sebastian look at me.
"A nightmare, sir?"
I nodded and brought my knees up to my chest as I panted, shaking violently.
Sebastian got up and left the room, only to return a few minutes later with a cream colored milk. He handed me the steaming milk, the glass only half full so it wouldn't spill when I held it. I grabbed the milk and took a sip, closing my eyes and letting the tears escape.
Sebastian is the only one I'd let see me cry.
It's been years since that happened, but it was so real... So vivid...
I finished my honey milk and pulled Sebastian back in bed with me, curling up to him like I did that first night I ever had him. He stroked my hair and I looked up at him, feeling so childish... But I didn't care. I was weak and pathetic right now... That dream left me terrified...
"Ciel..." Sebastian whispered.
He never called me that...
"What?" I whispered back, looking up at him.
He softly kissed me. "Sleep... You're sick and need the rest..."
Wonderful... Sick on my birthday... But I didn't fight. I just closed my eyes and drifted off into a dreamless sleep.


I finally woke up after another hour or two. By this time it was right around noon and I was finally eating my lunch.
"I'm glad you're eating Ciel." My fiancee said as she played chess with me.
"Mm... I am as well. I've been so hungry lately, but I just can't stomach the food." I murmured as I moved my bishop, knocking out her last pawn.
The chess set was made of a glass, the white had a blue-ish tint to it and the black was replaced by a silver color. I was the silver.
"Check mate!" She said, her eyes wide as she knocks on of my pawns down. I sighed and shook my head.
"No, Lizzie... You can only say check mate when you do this." I captured her queen with my king and smirked.
"Aw..." She pouted a bit before giggling. "That was fun, Ciel. You should teach me how to play this again some more!"
I nodded and sighed, getting up. "Of course... Again, thank you for the chess set. It really is beautiful."
"Any time. It is your birthday after all." She leaned in and softly kissed my cheek. "Now, I must go." She giggles some more before leaving the room in a rush.
I just shrugged it off and sighed, walking to my study as I rubbed my eye. I was glad I was finally up and talking to Lizzie... She did seem to find a way to always brighten my day somehow. And I loved my gift she gave me... When I woke up earlier, Sebastian said he had a gift as well, but it was to be given to me later at night. I crossed my arms over my chest, that just wasn't fair. I was born in the afternoon, not at night...
"Whatever..." I whispered to myself as I entered my study. I went to my desk and sat in my chair, grabbing the book I picked out earlier.
I started to read.
'She ran, the rain pouring on her beautiful pale skin. She glanced back at the mad man who was chasing her with a knife. She gasped and he smirked, the girl tripping and falling over a log in the dense forest.
"No! Please!" The red headed girl pleaded for her life, her maid outfit ruined with mud and tears.
The man with evil red eyes just stared at her, grinning darkly. He walked up to her, grabbing her hair and wrenching it back. The knife slashed across her neck and blood spill-'
I was interrupted by a small knock on my door. "Open.." I sighed.
Sebastian walked in with my tea, like always. I started to read my book again. He always had to give me my tea when there was blood shed in the book.
My book snapped shut.
"You shouldn't be reading that, sir. It's far too bloody for you." He said. I looked up, glaring at him.
I got back up and groaned. "I can't read one book in this house, can I?!"
"Not this book, my lord. It also has intimate moments with two males in it as well." He smirks.
"Fine, Sebastian, I won't read it." I murmured before snatching the book out of his hand and putting it up.
I sighed and sat back at my desk, sipping my tea.
I watched Sebastian leave. I frowned a bit... It seemed like he was swaying his hips as he left. I waited a minute. I quickly and silently got back up and grabbed the book. I flipped through the pages and found what he was talking about...
A man, which I'm guessing was the crazy man in the beginning was raping another man. My eyes widen as I read the pages, explaining how this happened.
"Ow... " I whispered. It seemed painful... But also pleasurable.
A deep blush set on my cheeks as I put the book back up and sat down, sipping my tea again. I tried to get rid of the blush, but I just couldn't. The book was so graphic, so detailed. I could probably carry through what he did because of the details. I shuddered slightly before finishing my tea. I looked down, sighing quietly. I covered my eyes with my hands, groaning quietly.
"I take it you read it?" I look up to see my demon butler with a smug look on his face.
I just rolled my eyes and laid my head on my desk.
"Shut it, Sebastian."
I got up and sighed, walking outside in my dress shirt and blue shorts. Of course it was still snowing, and hard. I hugged myself, it felt nice out here, since I still had a slight fever.
I closed my eyes, just standing out in the middle of the snow and letting all the snow flakes drop on me. I tilted my head up to the gray skies. I ran back inside and went to Sebastian.
"You're wet." He stated.
"I was outside... Now, give me my violin." I sighed.
He nodded and bowed. He left me alone in the large dining room. I looked down at a silver fork and picked it up. I threw it at the open door, seeing Sebastian there and catching it. I smirked.
"Good." I ran over and grabbed my violin and ran outside in the snow. I just stood there, holding my violin down by my side. I slowly brought it up and in a ready position.
I closed my eyes, feeling the snow fall on my skin. I took a breath and started to play a soft, sad song. I hummed along as I made up the soft song.
I poured my emotions into this song, only because I honestly didn't want to show my emotions. I opened my eyes and spun around in the snow, the song turning into a happy little tune as I danced around, mostly spinning. This part represented the child that I still had in me... The music slowed, turning back into a sad, almost angry sound. The fire... The damage done to me. I closed my eyes.
The song slowly transformed into a hopefulness. I finally found Sebastian and I came home.
The hopefulness faded into a sad sound again... All of my smiles were gone... All of my childhood, ruined.
The song continues to be sad, showing all my sorrow and pain of my loved ones leaving me.
Finally, the soft sound turned into a romantic feelings, a slight smile on my lips as I played this part, showing my growing love for Sebastian.
The song ended with a loud and sweet sound before I opened my eyes and turned back to the manor.
I saw everyone there, their mouths wide open. Mey-Rin even had tears streaming down her cheeks. I pushed past them after I saw Sebastian's smirk. I ran into my room, putting my violin on my bed. I groaned. I can't believe they heard that. I looked out my window and sighed, seeing that the gray sky was darkening... I believed it was right around five now. Almost time for dinner. I sighed and laid on my bed, unbuttoning my shirt some more. It was so stuffy in this house. I ended up just taking my entire shirt off, leaving me there with just my shorts on. I sighed and closed my eyes.
I heard my door open, but I didn't care.
"That was beautiful, my lord. I didn't know you could play that well." Sebastian said.
"I didn't either... It just sort of happened..." I murmured.
I felt my bed dip. I opened my eyes and sighed quietly, only to see Sebastian licking his lips. "Are you going to take my soul?"
He smirks and stops. "No... It's time for your birthday present. And you can't pull away... Got it?"
I didn't understand, but I just smirked, like he does and tried to mimic him. "Is that an order, sir?"
"How cute... But yes, it is." He grins darkly and takes my violin away. He comes back a minute later, locking my door and walking back over to me. "Close your eyes."
I obeyed and closed my eyes again, sighing as I laid back on my bed.
I waited, a bit nervous to get my present from him.
What I'm sure was only a minute passed, but it felt like forever.
Warm skin touched my bare chest. I looked through my eyelashes, seeing Sebastian's raven hair surrounding his face as he presses his bare chest against mine. My heart started pounding as I blushed deeply, a soft, gently pair of lips touching my neck. I shuddered, my eyes now opening as I tilted my head, exposing more of my neck to him. He continues to kiss my neck, lightly biting.
A moan escaped my lips. My face heated up as I felt Sebastian's lip turn into a smirk against my skin. He looks down at me, into my eyes. He put his hand on the back of my neck, lifting my head up to take off my eye patch.
He pulls off his gloves with his teeth after removing my eye patch. He pressed his lips to my cheek, to my jaw line and then to the corner of my lips. He looked into my eyes.
"No pulling away..." He whispers before crashing his lips against mine.
I blushed deeply as I kissed back. I didn't pull away this time. I pressed him closer to me, tangling my small fingers into his raven hair. He licked my bottom lip, lightly biting it as I let out a soft moan, his tongue slipping into my mouth.
It was wrong... It was so very wrong, but I didn't care. It felt so good! It felt... It felt... Right.
His lips tasted like honey... His lips were so sweet, so soft, I loved it. I felt his hands trail down my body, sending shudders down my spine. I arched my body into his.
He suddenly pulled away and slipped out of the room...
He left me there, wanting more...
I wanted so much more from him... He was an addiction I couldn't get rid of now.