He just left me there... Wanting so much more.
But this was all wrong. It's wrong for an earl to fall in love with his butler...
I'll never love him. Never! It's wrong for me to love him... I'll deny my feelings for him. Forever...
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Years slowly passed, I became a demon and Sebastian became furious.
Of course, he never showed it any more. He never showed anything any more.
I was now officially eighteen, but I stopped aging, so I still looked like a young little boy. I broke the marriage off with Lizzie... it was bound to happen. She's moved on and I haven't seen her for a while. I don't miss her to be honest, she was starting to ask too many questions.
I've had to move towns, I've had to move to many different towns because they believe I'm the devil himself.
No, I'm just a simple demon who's butler hates him because he doesn't have a soul.
I looked up at Sebastian as we walked down the halls. We were at his house. It wasn't too big, but then again, it wasn't small. I frowned and sighed, seeing my butler's emotionless face.
I looked straight ahead, finally seeing two doors at the end of the black hallway. It seemed like everything in Sebastian's house was black or silver. I saw some spots of dark blue, but only a few things. Sebastian said we'll be living here for a long time, since it's away from most of the towns folk. I was glad, finally settling back down.
"This door is yours, master." Sebastian said, his voice even and clear, no emotion. He never even smirked any more. I hated how his cocky attitude was gone.
I just nodded.
"Is there anything you need?"
I shook my head. "No, Sebastian."
"Then I'll be retiring for the night." Sebastian slipped into the door right across from mine. Out of all of the rooms in the house, he gave me this one?
I walked into the room, excepting black.
White and dark blue everywhere. My mouth slightly fell open as I looked at all of the royal blue and beautiful white. Why was I so amazed by this?
"It's the color of my eye..." I whispered to myself. Well, it used to be. It's the same blue that everyone loved because of my eye. I sat down on the blue duvet on the foot of my bed.
I ran my fingers over the blue, shaking my head. He rather had this room set up just for me, or he likes these colors. But last time I checked, his favorite colors weren't blue or white. It's black and red... Thankfully Grell doesn't know that, though.
Ugh, Grell...
That man annoyed me.
I slowly took off my coat, laying it on a chair next to the bed, doing the same with my shoes, socks and shorts. I left my shirt on, letting it cover myself. I curled up under the covers, bringing the duvet up with me.
I closed my eyes and sighed. Us demons didn't really need sleep, but it was just easier to pass the time with sleep instead of spending all night crying to yourself...
I've turned into a horrible demon. I cry almost every night now and I can't stand it. It's because of that damn butler of mine! He hates me and I hate him! I wish I could just run, but I can't... We're bound... Forever. I buried my face into my pillows, making all of my thoughts stop as I closed my eyes.
"Master..." Sebastian said. I opened my eyes, seeing Sebastian's face right in front of mine. I glanced out the window, still seeing how dark it is.
I frowned. "What?" My voice broke. I touched my cheek, feeling how wet it was. Oh... I must have been crying in my sleep.
"I heard you scream for me." Sebastian sighed, turning around.
I growled at him, quickly getting up. I spun him around and slapped his cheek. I frowned. "Listen to me, Sebastian. I may be your master forever, but it isn't my fault that I had my soul taken from me! If I could give you anything else, I would! But I can't, seeing that this thing binds us so you're my butler forever!" I seemed to yell at him, grabbing his hand and pointing at my eye.
He just stayed emotionless.
He walked out of the room. I slammed my door and slid down it, tears streaming down my face as I cried silently. I hated being here with him. I just wanted to run away... Again. But that didn't work out so well. I growled and punched the wall, slipping back into bed. Tears continued to stream down my face as I fell asleep.
I woke up just to see the sun rising. I stood in front of my window, seeing the sun slowly rise in the sky, waking everyone up. I stood there, only in my large shirt. I unbuttoned the first two, exposing a bit of my chest as I ran my fingers through my hair, trying to make it look better.
"Mas-Oh. You're up." I heard Sebastian say. I just nodded, gripping onto the windowsill even harder.
"I shall fix you breakfast."
"No, Sebastian. Don't. I just want to be left alone today." My voice sounded dead.
I heard the door shut, I didn't look back. I just guessed my demon butler left me all alone like I wanted. I felt two hands wrap around my waist, pulling me into an embrace. I turned around to see Sebastian, his face still emotionless. He dragged me out of the room and sighed.
"You need to eat something..."
I just rolled my eyes and walked back into the room. I stood by the window. I wanted to get something from him. Some emotion, whether it be anger or pain or... Something! I was about to go mad. I've kicked him around and I've kissed him plenty of times, but he doesn't do a thing!
I looked out the window, seeing two black birds fly by. I smiled weakly.
"Sebastian... Do you remember when we first met?" It was a random question, I know, but I wanted to see the look on his face.
I turned to him as he spoke. "Yes, I do. You named me after a dog."
I rolled my eyes, his face still expressionless. "Why the hell don't you do anything any more?! It's not fun! And to think I loved you!" I saw pain flash in his eyes, but that was it. He turned around and left me alone.
I finally realized... I've never told him that I loved him... Looking back on everything, all of the moments we had... I've never told him that.
Whatever, I was falling apart inside and no one cared...
I wiped away my tears and stood up, sitting on my bed. I closed my eyes, covering my face with my hands.
I heard the door open, Sebastian must be bringing me food.
I gasped as he pushed me on the bed, kissing me roughly. His shirt was off and he was only wearing his pants. His hands pressed myself close against him.
"Ciel," he whispered as he pulled away. "I've always loved you... I didn't know how you felt about me..."
Was this a dream? It sure felt like it...
I pulled him back into a kiss, my hands running down his chest. Sebastian ripped off my shirt, my body now nude. I couldn't help but blush, his tongue slipping in my mouth, exploring it.
His lips still tasted so sweet, so wonderful.
I gasped and moaned when he bit into my neck, lightly sucking on my skin. I closed my eyes, breathing heavily.
"S-Sebastian..." I moaned again as he bit into another spot, right above my collar bones.
I didn't want him to stop... Ever. He continued to move down, but stopped. I knew what he was thinking, he shouldn't go any farther.
I looked at him and blushed deeply, looking away.
He tilted my head back and kissed me softly. "Now... Will you please eat, my love?" He smiles softly, caressing my cheek.
I nodded and smiled for once in my life. "Yes." He got up and chuckled, winking. I blushed deeply again, realizing I had no clothes on and I didn't know where Sebastian put my clothes.
Well... Finally I have my butler back.
So much can change in a few years...
"Well... That escalated rather quickly..." I murmured as I blushed, knowing he still heard me as he walked down the hall. I was talking about his feelings, but... Maybe I was talking about the kiss...? Who knows any more. I continued to blush as I took the sheet and wrapped it around myself, walking out of the room to wander around this beautiful house.
I continued to walk around the halls, a small smile on my lips. I looked down at the large white shirt I was wearing, fixing it a bit. I finally made my way back to my room, but I stopped. I looked at Sebastian's door, pressing my ear up against it. I stayed quiet.
I didn't hear anything, so I opened the door. The room was full of royal blue and black, but mostly black. I looked at all of the blue, touching my red eye. He liked blue? But I thought he hated blue...
"Oh, young master, I didn't know you came in here." Sebastian said. I jumped.
"I... I... I was curious..." I admitted.
"So, now you've found out what my room looks like. Not only is it my favorite color, but yes, it's the color of your eye. Or, what it used to be." He murmured, looking at me. He walked in and closed the door.
He moved close to me, pulling off his glove with his teeth... He was so... So... Hot. He made me melt just by doing this. I couldn't deny my feelings anymore. He placed his hand on my cheek, looking into his eyes. I grabbed the collar of his tail coat, pulling him down in a passionate kiss. I blushed deeply, my eyes shutting as he kissed back. Sebastian playfully bit my bottom lip, tugging on it a bit. I couldn't stop the soft moan from escaping my lips.
Sebastian smirked, pulling away to push me on the bed. He crawled on top of me, kissing up my jaw. I tilted my head, allowing him to kiss more of my neck. I gasped once he playfully bit down, drawing some blood. I glanced down at him, my face still a light shade of pink. I pulled Sebastian back up, wanting his soft lips. I needed them, they were addicting now. I kissed him roughly, tangling my fingers in his raven hair.
I felt his hands travel down my small body, under my shirt. My face heated up again as he pulled away, his hands on my inner thighs.
"My lord... If I kiss you one more time, I won't be able to hold back."
"Just do it."
"Are you sure...? I don't want to hurt you..."
"Sebastian, you idiot..." I pressed my lips against his again, shutting him up so he wouldn't fight.
He pulled away, his eyes were a bright red as he smirked slightly, kissing back down my neck. He unbuttoned my shirt, leaving me there naked. I felt him move down my chest, leaving small little bites as he did so. I continued to blush as he moved down to my member, looking away. I gasped, my eyes widening as I felt pleasure roll up my body. I finally looked back down to see Sebastian's head bobbing up and down, causing the mass amount of pleasure. I slowly tangled my fingers in his hair, throwing my head back as I moaned again.
I started to climax, needing to release, but Sebastian pulled away. I looked at him, panting as I blushed some more.
"A-are we done?" I asked sheepishly.
"Of course not, master." He smirked, his eyes now back to their regular color.
He kissed up my neck as I pathetically tried to remove his clothing. He just smirked and chuckled against my neck before removing his clothes himself. He moved to my lips before whispering in my ear.
"Lay on your stomach."
I obeyed and turned on my stomach, glancing back at the now naked Sebastian. I blushed deeply, looking at his beautiful, perfect skin. He grabbed my hips, pulling me back a bit.
He leaned down, his tongue tracing my tight hole. I moaned, blushing deeply as I felt the pleasure. He stuck a finger in, which caused my eyes to widen and my mouth to open, moaning loudly. He pumped his finger in and out until he thought I was ready. He pulled away, sitting up on his knees.
He slowly entered himself in me. I screamed out, gripping at the bed sheets as I panted.
"Do you want me to stop...?"
"N-no... Just give me a moment..."
I waited for a second before glancing back and nodding. He slammed his length in me, causing me to cry out in pain and pleasure. He stayed there for a minute before slowly rocking his hips, causing me to moan.
"Ciel... You need to relax..."
"I-I can't!" My body tightened, but Sebastian kissed my neck. I slowly started to relax.
It still hurt, but it was feeling better by the minute. Sebastian grabbed my hands, pulling them behind my back as I allowed him to take control. He tightened his grip on my hands, keeping them pressed against my back as I moaned some more.
"Hnng... S-Sebastian!" I panted, pressing my back against his chest, small tears forming on the corners of my eyes.
He went faster, deeper and harder. I kept my eyes closed, most of the pain going away as I screamed out in pleasure. I needed my release soon... Sebastian's hands let go of mine, traveling to my rock hard member. He started to rub me. I screamed some more,
I finally reached my climax, my hot seed spilling out and all over the bed and Sebastian's hand. I screamed as it happened, feeling him still move inside me. I moaned and blushed, letting him release in side of me. He slowly pulled out and let me go, letting me fall down on the bed as I panted, closing my eyes.
I felt Sebastian's arms wrap around me tightly, pulling me in. I turned around, burying my face into his chest.
"I love you." I whispered.
"I love you too, Ciel." I blushed as he said that, falling into a deep and peaceful sleep.
