Secrets in my heart
chapter 6
hospital: hallway
"No dad, she didn't..."
"sweetie I'm." Castle tries to be strong for his daughter but on the inside he felt like he had just been gutted open like a fish.
Dr Kovaks stands taking in a deep breath, watching the family react before he even had a chance to talk to them. If they react like this before I tell them...I think I'll have to tell them separately.
"Which one of you is Kate's father?"
Jim tries to stand up, his legs were wobbly. The doctor was waving for him to follow.
"Do you want me to go with you," Martha asks still holding on to his hand so that he wouldn't fall over "No I..." he let go of her hand. I've done this before, he wanted to say but didn't want to upset them even more.
Jim finally made his way to where the Dr was standing apart for the others.
He glances back at Castle who has his head down crying.
"Look Mr Beckett..." the Dr. continues.."I didn't want everyone up at once, that's why I want us to talk over here." the Dr. sighs, "You daughter's..."
"Just say it..." Jim looks back at Castle then at Martha. He watches her move closer to her son. "I...we need to know." But before the Dr could speak again, another Dr, a blond one, was whispering in Dr. Kovaks' ear. "Okay," he whispers
"which one is the..." the second Dr only shrugs and shakes his head and leaves.
"Your daughter's..." Dr. Kovaks starts again, hopefully without any more interruptions.
"Yes..." Jim waits for the answer to get this over with.
"Starting to wake up."
"What?" Everyone stares his direction. "I don't want everyone to be in there with her right now,"
"Is she going to be okay?" Jim whispers.
"That, we will have wait and see...remember she's just starting to wake up which is great but she's not out of the woods just yet."
The same blond Dr comes back.
"She's ready but she's weakly asking for a daughter, a something about Lexis, that's what I could make out."
"I don't know who that is either?" Dr. Kovaks questions, not paying attention to Jim leaving him standing there.
"Does she..." Dr. kovaks turns to face Jim but he's gone.
Martha before Jim makes it back to where the others where, gathers him into an embrace. "Oh Jim, I'm sorry...I'm so sorry." she whispers.
"She's..." before he could tell her the truth, that his daughter was okay, she guides him to the couch.
"There there. Sit."
"Ut...Um...Dr. you want to get the daughter that she's talking about, the one that she's calling for or you want me too." A nurse talks to Dr. Kovaks who was watching the father talk to Kate's friends.
Both the Dr. and the nurse walk up to the group this time. Jim nods, given his approval.
"um..." the dr. exhales heavily. "Does she have a daughter, Lexis?"
Alexis looks up, "me?"
"No that's my daughter, Alexis and why do you ask?" Castle was confused, "I thought..."
"Oh sorry, couldn't make it out." The blond says stepping closer.
"What?" Everyone glances at each other, then at Jim.
"Jim," Martha whispers. "What's he talking about?"
"She's..."
"What do you mean couldn't make it out?" Castle eyes the Drs.
"She's...asking..."
"She's alive..." Castle nearly jumps out of his chair.
"whoa sir." the Dr puts his hands up in a stopping motion. "Not so fast."
"Anyway she was asking for daughter Lexis well, that's what I made out, she still very, very weak."
"But she's..." Ryan and Esposito get up.
"Resting...yes," he took a deep breath, "I thought since she was asking us for...Alexis." he drags out the letter 'A'. "I send her in." he walks up to the girl.
"Alexis right?"
"Yes," Castle starts to get up.
"She just asks for her, alone, I think." the Dr smiles. "If she wants to, that's totally up to you dear," he smiles at her again, hoping to calm her some.
"You don't have to...she was just asking..."
Her dad looks at her. Alexis, had a scared look on her face.
"Only if you don't want to honey."
Alexis wipes at the tears from her face and starts to walk off with the Drs.
"Why is she asking for me and not.." Alexis glances back at her dad.
"We don't sweetie, we don't know." Alexis opens the door to Beckett's room. She sees Beckett propped up smiling at her.
"Hey," Alexis could barely hear Becket's whisper. The door closes behind Alexis and she nearly jumps. Beckett coughs some. "I'm not going to leave you."
"Don't talk to much," The nurse says, "You still need your rest."
"I just..." she swallows, "Wanted you to know that. Tell your dad that I'm not leaving anytime soon." she winks. "so he will have to deal with me." ut oh dad's in for it, what he did. Alexis thought. A smile crept across her face.
outside Beckett's room:
Castle sits wondering what's going on. Talking more to himself he asks, "Why did she would ask for her and not me I'm..."
"Son, I told you girl time," Martha answers him.
"I know...what did Alexis tell her."
"That's between the two of them."
"But I'm..." he had that whinny voice starting. "I'm her dad I should know."
"Not everything."
"Mother!" his voice rose, with that.
"Is he always like this?" Jim asks Ryan and Esposito.
"Pretty much..." they laugh... "When it comes to his daughter and Beckett." Ryan chuckles again.
"He's..." Esposito starts to say.
"In love I know...I once was..." Jim comments.
"I was going to say jealous bro but love works too,"
Alexis comes out smiling.
"Looks like she just won the lottery." comments Jim, after seeing the girl's grin.
"I think that she has bro." Esposito responds winking at Alexis.
"What?" Ryan didn't get it.
"She's asking for you." Alexis told Jim.
"Thanks dear," he pats her on the arm.
Ryan leans over the empty chair that Mr. Beckett was sitting in. "I guess you will be last, Castle."
Ryan laughs.
"Very funny guys."
"Oh dear here we go again." Martha shakes her head. Alexis sits by her dad.
"What did she say, what did she say." he kept asking all excited, he was sure that his daughter would tell him. She always told him everything. but she kept her mouth shut.
"Richard dear," his mother spoke up to make him stop asking.
"Ignore your grandmother, Alexis I..."
"It was between her and me." she gave an evil like grin at her father, then added. "If you want to know you'll have to ask her yourself." she winks more to her grandmother.
"That's my girl," Castle pouts, like a kid.
"Oww..." he could hear Ryan and Esposito. laughing.
"She told you bro." Esposito comes closer.
She's turned my daughter against me. Beckett he screams in his mind. I'm gonna...
gonna what...he could hear her voice in his head.
later on:
Castle approaches Beckett's bed. He just stood there staring in silence.
"What?"
"Uh,"
"You're staring at me, Castle. I must look really like crape."
"No. no, I just...I just never thought I'd never see those eyes open again...I..." he sits down.
"You scared me...not to mention what my daughter saw... she's right about...well you,"
"What?"
A nurse enters, "She needs her rest sir,"
"So I've been told." He creaks a smile. Beckett points to the cup on her beside tray.
"Water?"
She nods, Castle pours her some in the cup. He hands it to her but doesn't let go of her hand.
"Castle I..." he sighs, staring into her eyes.
"I know..." She takes a sip, then breathes in deep. "I keep seeing that face, the face of Montgomery dying. Me getting shot and dying right there in..."
"We'll get through this like we get though everything...together...I'm here."
"Castle, I'm really tired right now."
"Sir," the nurse response, "Respect the lady."
"Of course. till tomorrow." Castle shoots the chair back and starts to get up to leave.
"Not tomorrow?"
"What?"
"I just need a little time."
She's hiding from me again. only if she knew I know the truth. I'll play along.
"Sure. How much time?"
"I'll call you, okay?"
"I'll be there. I always am." He gives her one last smile before he walks away.
He knew what that meant. But a few days without Beckett was like an eternity. If this is what she needs then I will give it to her. He walks pass the guys and his daughter. Alexis starts to get up to go after him but Martha grabs her arm , "Let him be."
"But..."
"He respected your talk with her so let's do the same for him."
Ryan and Esposito never saw him like that, well except right when he thought she had died. What did she say to him? What happened behind that door to get him in that kind of mood?
They look over at Alexis who is hugging her grandmother. "Something's wrong with that picture. Something major." Ryan comments.
to be continued...
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