Secrets in my heart
chapter 8

Castle hung his head, he slinks out the door with a heavy sigh.

"You lost her bro." Esposito says.

"I know...I just..." he looks down and whispers to himself not knowing that the guys heard those last words. The words, "I love her". Ryan patted him on the back. He glances up, now he could only watch her from a distance.

Beckett wrapped her hands around Josh's waist, "Sorry he was..."

Josh glares back at the window, "he... he was trying to sabotage our relationship," knowing damn well Castle was still watching them "and you let him get away with it."

"He was helping me with my mother's case. That's all."

"Your mother's dead, what's that got to do with us. I thought we were past that...moving on, getting over it."

Beckett thought about his words...Your mother's dead. Move on. Get over it.

Those words...Castle knew that too but why would those words mean different when Castle said them...Is Josh making me forget about my mother...just to forget everything.

She pulled back from him. Stares him in eyes for a moment. Then out of no where punches him in the face. "Don't you dare..."
He was hit so hard that he hit the floor. Beckett just walks out leaving Josh on the floor.
"Wait...I..."

Castle was watching with Ryan and Esposito on the other side of the office, "What could that have been about?"
"I don't know bro," Esposito turns to Castle, "But go over to her, now's your chance."

"You get a second chance," Ryan adds.

Castle watches Beckett go over to her desk, sit down and buries her face in her hands. Then he hears her start to cry.
He wasn't sure if he should bother her or let her be. He swallows the lump in his throat and takes the chance. what could hurt he thought I'm already in trouble again with her. She already told me to leave , to get out, and to stay out.
to stay out what?
oh to stay away from her, that's what she meant to say. To stay away from her life but what if...I'm taking that chance, if I have to leave her I want to do it and have no regrets.

Beckett glances up when she heard his footsteps.

"I..." he calmly says. She kept staring at him, making him uncomfortable. what was she going to say.
"I'll leave if you want me too..." he swallows. "And not come back."

She knew that he'd never do that. He was to in love with her. And she was in love with him. She was his partner and he loved her. A little too much.

The silence between us...it's to much. I have to respect her. I know I screwed up and this time. I might as well keeping going she's definitely never going to talk to me anymore, not after the stunt I just pulled.

Castle starts to walk off, defeated.
"Castle wait," he turns to face her, just standing there.

"Yes," and she went right into his arms, which socked him but not as much as what she was about to say.
"This is where I want to be,"

"In my arms." he laughs. She just snuggle's closer against him. Ryan and Esposito give him a thumbs up.

Castle just smiles holding her. Just thank-full that she was...still in his life and that he had a chance to make this all work.

Something he always wanted

to unsolve the mystery of Kate Beckett.

the end