Okay here is chapter four. It's more or less a filler chapter but I hope you all enjoy it. My next chapter should address what is up with Jay Jay and possibly Emily professing her love. I know where I want to go but it may take me some time to get there. I have officially started the fifth chapter I believe I have two or three sentences so yeah you can be proud of me. I would suggest bribery, you know if you give me reviews and feedback, that the next chapter will just magically appear but sadly my muse doesn't work that way, so here's hoping my muse hits full force and I get this chapter out in no time. If not than it may not get posted next Sunday which I will apologize for in advance just in case.

Yup I was right. It is now quitting time and I have accomplished absolutely nothing after I returned to my desk and had my heart to heart with the one and only Mr. Derek Morgan. I really could kill him unless what I thought he was implying is actually what he was implying and what I think he was implying is actually the truth and not just some wishful thinking but is true. Good luck following that. Seriously I said it and I'm completely lost, but I digress. It's quitting time now which means phase four is about to commence or at least it would if Jay Jay would finally leave her office. Looking up towards her office I just so happen to see Garcia leaving her office and heading our way. And might I add looking all kinds of ready to party.

"Hey Baby Girl, looks like you're ready to go." They really need to hook up already. If two people have ever belonged together it is those two. I mean really all the cute little names, the constant flirting oh and don't get me started on the eye shagging. You know what I'm talking bout. You know the more I think about the more I wonder if they've ever thought about it. Maybe they have and have the same worries I do. You know the heart ache, the possible rejection, oh yeah and the loosing of one's best friend if the feelings are mutual.

"So Em, you ready?" I look up at the sound of my name and the word ready only to realize I have no idea what they have been talking about.

"Um, yeah all set." Okay I think I recovered well. As I grabbed my coat I realize that we are missing one. "Shouldn't we wait for Jay Jay?" Okay Garcia is looking at me all kinds of funny guess my recovery wasn't that good after all.

"Where were you a minute ago Sugar?" Now I'm looking at her all kinds of funny. Guess I zoned out.

"Sorry, guess I zoned out." Yeah still jealous of my verbal skills and my uncanny ability to state the obvious aren't you. "So yeah, well, since I zoned out what about Jay Jay?" I figure repeat the question cause well I still don't know the answer.

"Just the four of us for the time being. She said she would meet up with us later, had a phone call she had to make." With that said my eyes once again find their way in the direction of her office where I see what Garcia said is true. She is currently on her phone with what looks like a piece of paper in her hand looking all kinds of serious and now I am cursing Morgan because I am have begun using the word seriously. Looking at her it appears the conversation is extremely important and intense. She has this look, I can't quiet place it. She looks nervous, overwhelmed, slightly angry, maybe a little excited and well there is something else that I just can't place. Mental note to self, ask her later what the call was all about.

"Alrighty than, what are we waiting for?" I figure we should get this show on the road because well I could really use a drink and I figure it will be a good distraction to the professing of love that I plan on doing. With that we all head out, Garcia leading the way. Holding the door open I sneak one last look in the direction of Jay Jay's office. I can't shake the feeling that there is something behind that conversation.

Walking into the bar the first thing we do is grab a table and settle down for a split second. After that split second I can't sit any longer and jump up for drinks. "First round's on me." Getting up I get nods from all at the table and then head to the bar placing our orders the whole time going over what I will say to Jay Jay and realizing I haven't a clue what that is.

Three rounds, four dances, six songs and a little over an hour later I am still with the same thought, what am I going to say to Jay Jay if she ever shows up. Yeah you heard right, if she ever shows up, she still has yet to show. I am getting worried and I can tell I'm not the only one. Morgan has checked his watch and then the door twice in the last ten minutes, Garcia keeps checking her cell and well Reid, well Reid he um, well Reid's Reid and he left 30 minutes ago to read a book or something.

I finally decided something needs to be said as I see PG checking her phone once again. "PG anything yet?" I see Penny shake her head indicating no. "Jay Jay did say she was coming right?" Seeing a round of nods I can't help but feel a bit more anxious also hoping me asking that didn't make me sound too desperate, but really who am I kidding, I am. I have literally been working up to this moment since what seems the beginning of time and now I see my chance, my opportunity, my courage slipping through my fingers. Plus there's the fact that she said she would be here and we haven't even heard from her, that's worrisome and so not like her.

"No Sug haven't heard a thing, but I was just about to call her, so let's see what's up with our Media All Star. I bet she is just got caught up at work. You know our girl, she can never say no to anyone especially when they ask for help and we did see her on her phone looking all kinds of important so yeah, on it." Yeah, well that does sound like her but yeah so not thinking that's the case. As she finishes her thought, like magic her phone rings.

"Speaking of our Blonde Bombshell." We all share a bit of a chuckle at Garcia's nickname, you gotta love her creativity and flamboyancy when it comes to picking them. Nickname aside that is the only thing cute or good that came out of that sentence because with that statement said the beginning of the end has begun.

"Hey there My Pennsylvania Peach, did you forget about us?" A long pause makes us all nervous and by all I think mainly me. My nerves worsen when I hear PG state, "Wait, what? What do you mean you're not coming?" Another long pause and another part of my resolve gone, the rest of my resolve completely dissipated with this last statement. "Okay Honey….. No I understand….. Do you want me to come over? Okay, if you're sure…. No the others will too…. Okay take care, if you need anything give me a call… See you Monday." With that she hangs up and turns to us all.

"I take it Blondie's a no go." Geez Morgan way to call it, can we state the obvious oh wait you just did. "What's up, she not feelin good?" I find I am wishing that, that's the case and yes I know how that sounds but honestly for me it could be worse. Maybe she figured out it was me who is her secret admirer and can't face me, maybe Will flew into surprise her and that's why she's not here. See worse than being sick.

"Seems like it my Hunky Hunk. Says it came on suddenly, hoping it's just the 24hr deal." She must see the look of despair on at least my face because she feels the need to add. "She didn't sound so good either, sounded a bit stuffy so I'm thinking it's not good." Crap, now I feel a little guilty and a little bit more worried. Looking at PG those feelings change because I can see she isn't telling us everything, she's leaving something out.

"What is it PG? What aren't you telling us?" Okay I know we promised not to profile each other but really a blind person could see she's hiding something, no offense to those who are blind.

"Well my Profiling Guru….. The thing is she didn't really sound sick." Damn not sick, okay that sounds harsh but you know what I mean. So since she isn't sick I've decided it has to be one of my other two possibilities because really what else could it be. Okay there are probably a lot of other possibilities but it's my self-loathing and those two are the only two that exist. Both Morgan and I are staring at her encouraging her to continue and thankfully she does. "Well she didn't sound sick per se but she did sound as though she had been crying and mumbled something about Will." Great Will, just the word that I longed to hear. Wait tears and Will I wonder what that means? Did they break up? Or did he just do something stupid? Did she find out it's me and mentioned her undying love for him? Yeah my mind went there, what are you gonna do about it. With that silence engulfs the three of us as I suddenly find my glass extremely interesting. Twisting it in one hand playing with the lip of the glass with the other, watching the little liquid that is left swirl with the movement and seeing some water droplets trickle down the side, see oh so very interesting.

"Well that just sucks. Watcha gonna do now Princess?" At the sound of my name, okay nickname I slowly begin to lift my head when I realize the rest of the statement. My eyes meet Morgan's and I swear if looks could kill he would be dead ten times over. I cannot believe he just made that statement in front of Garcia. So if she didn't' know my secret before she does now. Now not only do I feel the last glimmer of hope slipping away because I have made up my own reason for her not being here and not buying the sick story, but also I feel embarrassment and am slightly mortified.

"Morgan." That one word and the tone it is said lets him know what I am thinking. I wish to continue though I know I shouldn't just in case she hasn't figured it out but before I can Garcia interjects.

"What's she gonna do? What's she gonna do? I'll tell you what she's gonna do. She is going to go over to Jay Jay's and finish what she's started. She is gonna go over and profess her undying love for her, kiss her and then live happily ever after. That's what she's gonna do."

Okay so my feels are short lived but now I am in complete and utter shock and I suppose my face is screaming this because before I can say anything I get put in my place. "Oh come off yourself Doll Face. I figured out your feelings long before you knew of your feelings." And with that statement my feelings of insecurities are gone or at least the ones about figuring it out cause it seems as though she already knows and is very much okay with the idea, but I guess a bit of disbelief is still present on my face. But before I can spit out a single word I get "Well what did you expect? I am the All Knowing Goddess of Everything and I do know everything." That is the response I get to the stupid expression plastered all over my face.

Looking up at her I can't help but feel a bit more confident. She has this look of extreme determination on her face and it is very convincing. Though I feel more confident still not confident. "I don't know Penny, what if…." But before I can continue she interrupts with "Cut the crap Prentiss. You are an unsub tracker, bad guy catcher, serial killer finder, bad ass profiling goddess. If you can do all that you can do this. Really what is so scary about our Blonde Bombshell?" Looking up at her I know she sees what I am afraid of, no use hiding it now, plus my compartments aren't big enough to hide Jay Jay away in them. "I get it I do. You're scared that this will change everything. That she doesn't feel the same things or the same way, that things will change between you two, that your friendship will never be the same. But Em, it is already changed and will never be the same. The moment you admitted to yourself your feelings, your friendship changed forever. Now you have two choices. Either tell her now and maybe stand a chance or let her find out later and risk what that could mean."

She's right. I mean right now I stand the best chance right? Sure she's in a relationship though last we checked it wasn't that serious and who knows it could be over with the mention of Will amongst sounding all stuffed up from crying. Plus it's not like they're married or engaged, they're not even exclusive. PG must see the wheels turning because for added emphasis she adds, "Em, you won't know if you don't try and if you ask me and you should cause I know everything, I you should try."

Okay way too much to take in let alone comprehend. On the upside I now have the backing of two members of the BAU family, Big Brother and Best Friend. Turning so that I am now facing Morgan, all I get from him is a goofy grin on his face, a stupid look in his eyes and a nod of his head. He is a man of many words. I guess he agrees. With that I now have two people staring at me, guess they're waiting to see what I do. That makes three of us waiting to see what I do. What am I going to do? I know they are waiting for a response but I am at a complete loose.

What am I going to do? What am I going to do? Well considering I now find myself standing outside Jay Jay's door my guess would be going over to Jay Jay's. Standing here I contemplate the fact that I'm not entirely sure how I got here. The last coherent thought I can remember was being at the bar having no idea what I was going to do and somehow I ended up here. I thought I would feel more panicked, yet I find I am more concerned. Not so much for what I wish to confess but more so why Jay Jay has seemed so out of sorts. So again I stand before Jay Jay's door pondering the question, 'what am I going to do."

Surprisingly the answer to what am I going to do is simple. I knock or at least that is what my hand decided to do. Yup you heard me sometime during my very intense debate on what to do my hand decided to knock. I know I knocked only because I hear a very quiet, a slightly muffled "Coming." Yup that one word has brought me out of my deep contemplation back to reality and as I return to reality, reality opens her door. There before me is Jennifer Jareau in all her glory. And by glory I mean old sweats, an oversized t-shirt, a messy ponytail and slightly puffy eyes. Standing there staring at her I see her eyes searching mine, and I can tell her mind is racing. I'm in the same boat. Words seem impossible to find until one of us finds them and it's not me.

"Emily."