My Version Of Mockingjay

Chapter 3

I'm sorry that I won't be able to post for at least 3 days a week the most or if I'm bored you will get a chapter tomorrow! If you are reading this in the future ignore this note ;-). (P.S. I really like skipping time!)

Katniss's POV

5 days later

I haven't eaten for days but I'm not hungry I just keep thinking about Peeta. Peeta, Peeta and Peeta. My mind just won't stop thinking about Peeta! Oh how I miss his blue eyes and that burning passion I got when I kissed him in the cave and on the beach. But those moments feel like they happened centuries ago. How I miss his protective arm around me when we slept in the train together, he scared my nightmares away and ever since he left I can't stop having nightmares, about him, Prim, Finnick, and everyone I care about! I even have nightmares about Rue, Thresh and even Cato. Of their death, their horrible and horrid death. I do love Peeta but he doesn't love me anymore because of the stupid Capitol! They took him away from me! My boy with the bread might be gone forever! But even if he does get better and we do win this war, am I willing to marry him? And even more give him what he wants, children? What if the games come back, then there's no doubt they will make sure to put our children in the games and make sure they suffer in there too. Maybe I would marry him, but not children. Katniss you are thinking too forward, think about here and now. My mind tells me. But how could I think about now when we all could die at this very moment! Oh I just wish for my life to be simple like the way it was before the games. I wonder what Gale is doing now? The last time I saw him was when he left for the rescue mission.

I take the short walk to Gale's compartment then I think that I shouldn't see him he will just make things complicated. I decide to see Finnick instead.

At Finnick's compartment, Finnick tells me that I need to give Peeta some space and time to heal. I agree with Finnick. I thank him and I leave. When I get to my compartment I decide it's time for me to get back in shape, follow my schedule will have to be the first step to pulling myself together.

When I'm getting dressed to go to dinner Prim walks into the room.

"Katniss I'm glad to see you're not crawled up into a ball crying anymore," Prim says with a touch of pity in her voice. "Look Katniss I'm sorry this happened to you, if I made the decision of what happens in our life we all wouldn't be in this mess," Prim always has a way of calming me down when I'm depressed.

"Prim why did everyone have to die for me, why did the Capitol have to hurt Peeta so much that he hates me?" I ask her.

"I don't know Katniss, I don't know," Prim answers me. Just then and there all the strength I worked up was gone and I was crying in Prim's arms like a baby. I'm becoming way too vulnerable for my own good.

Hello guys how did you like the chapter? Hope you liked it. And I know Katniss is extremely vulnerable she said it already. Probably by chapter 5 or 10 she will be strong and Peeta will be better a little bit. Also Finnick and Prim don't die in my story. They were too much of good people to die.