Title: Actually, its love not hates
Summary: Like always, Shizuo and Izaya are having their cat and mouse games at Ikebukuro when everything goes wrong. To clear his mind, Shizuo took a week off while Izaya accompanied the twin for their summer break. Neither of them knows that they can't deny their fate that had entangled them from their very first meet. Shizaya, Tsu/Psy, Del/Hibi, Roppi/Tsuki and Shitsuo/Sakuraya.
Warning: male x male relationship, violence, harsh word, lemon (due to request)
Rated: T (subject may change)
Disclaimer: I do not own Durarara!
Chapter 4: Heiwajima's Residence
A swirl of smoke dance in the air before disappears shortly after. In the Japanese's style residence, sit a man who peacefully smokes his cigarette and watching the beautiful Japanese's style garden in the yard. He has bleached blonde hair, caramel irises, muscular built, tanned skin colour and wear a light blue colour kimono. His eyes glow dimly in peace and relax.
The door behind him slides slowly and entered a man who also wears a kimono which had a complex pattern of sea waves. He smile seeing the man smoke peacefully and deep in his thought to not notice his arrival. With soft and deep voice, he called the said man.
"Shizuo," Shizuo turned to see the person who called his name. The man had the same face with him, same muscular built and tanned skin except he had blue eyes colour. Scratching his head, he smile weakly and answered the called.
"Tsugaru-san, I'm sorry. I didn't notice you earlier," Tsugaru just smile for the apologise and sit next to Shizuo. He turns to watch the garden in the middle of the yard and withdraw a Japanese's pipe from his sleeve. Putting some tobacco in it and lighted it, he smokes the pipe and savouring the taste of tobacco. He too seems calm by the beautiful scenery and smoking much like Shizuo. Both of them stayed quiet for a while before Tsugaru spoke.
"How is your day? Enjoying the peace?" ask Tsugaru. Shizuo chuckle lightly by the question. He had rant to Tsugaru a lot time before about his daily life in Ikebukuro including the chase between him and the flea too of course. Tsugaru know how much frustrated he is with his life, work and everything that include involving the flea.
Heiwajima Tsugaru that is his name. He is a distant relative to Shizuo, half-Japanese and half-French and older than Shizuo about 4 years. His blonde hair is real rather than Shizuo bleached one. He is the one of family relatives who did not afraid of Shizuo for his inhuman strength and short temper.
Shizuo then been told by Tsugaru that he is also had inhuman strength but able to control it and use it wisely as he is a very calm and patient man. Shizuo always adore Tsugaru for his ability to control his strength and temper. Also, Tsugaru had a weird aura emitted from him that makes Shizuo calm and able to control his temper every times he was near with Shizuo.
However, as human Tsugaru also had his anger. Even Shizuo will afraid of him if Tsugaru had gone rampaged. He always had an overwhelming murderous aura emitted from him that told everyone that he will not hesitated to kill. Rather than using fist or throwing heavy object like Shizuo when he was pissed, Tsugaru preferred using a katana. A real katana that he always bring together with him.
Shizuo do not know how he get permission on wielding the sword and brought it everywhere he went but shrugged it. Shizuo had to admit that he is will not come near Tsugaru when he is mad. Because he wield a katana and did not hold back at all when gone rampaged. The possibility to be killed is near 100% plus Tsugaru is more capable fighter than Shizuo himself.
"Yeah, much better. Thank you. Unfortunately, Kasuka can't join us. I bet he must be tired acting after a film to another. He could take a break if he wants but I'm sure he love acting more than anything else," said Shizuo. Shizuo love his little brother so much and will go mad if there is anybody who bad talks his brother.
"Can't help with that. We know how busy is anyway. I'm sure he can come the next time come around. Actually, I'm gladdened that you could come anyway. You still do not tell me the reason yet, Shizuo," said Tsugaru. Shizuo sighed after hearing that. He had phone Tsugaru for some advice earlier and Tsugaru suggested him to take vacation. He even offered Shizuo to come to his residence.
"Err...about that. Well, it's..." Shizuo having a problem on picking the suitable word to explain to Tsugaru. He does not know how to explain to Tsugaru that he had KISS IZAYA for god sake! He knows he did it on purpose to freak the gut out of him but what on earth will ever people kiss their arch rival for that purpose alone.
Tsugaru wait in patience for Shizuo to talk. He knows Shizuo is not a secretive person and always having an inner conflict within himself. So, he always talk about his problem to anyone he trust usually Celty or Shinra or Tom or Kasuka if he not busy. Sometimes on rare occasion, he would phone Tsugaru for advice. Exhale his breathe, clearing his throat , Shizuo began to talk.
"Tsugaru-san, do you remember Orihara Izaya, the flea I always talks about?"
"Erm, yeah. What's about him?" ask Tsugaru trying to figure out what did Shizuo want to say.
"You know how much I hate him 'till the phase I had developed an instinct mechanism to track him wherever he near me within some radius, right?"
"Yeah, you told me before," said Tsugaru raising his eyebrow.
"You know that I declared I hate him from the first I caught sight of him, right?" ask Shizuo again.
Tsugaru frowned at the question. Yeah, he knows Shizuo hate the guy. Yeah, he knows Shizuo hate the guy so much and he blame him for every trouble that happens in Ikebukuro. Yeah, he knows everything about the guy, Orihara Izaya or the flea thanks to Shizuo who told him every single information he need. So, why Shizuo did asked him like that.
"So, what about him? Really Shizuo, I cannot figure out what do you want to say, honestly. Okay, calm down. Take your breathe and tell me what exactly happen. You look like you had killed someone," Tsugaru froze at his own statement and shook his head.
"You...You didn't kill him, right?" asked Tsugaru worried. If Shizuo really finally had kill the man, he must had done something that make Shizuo snapped. He knows Shizuo is not the most patient person ever but he knows Shizuo will not killed someone no matter how much pissed off he feel. Oh no will he let Shizuo imprison for the murder he commit. He knows Shizuo already had miserably life, there's no need for him to lead a life time in prison. Corpse disposal, evidence trace, identity swapped, he had lots of money to deal with this kind of incident.
Shizuo look at him in disbelief before answered, "No. I...I did something else," whispered Shizuo. Tsugaru stayed silent mentioning Shizuo to continue. Taking a deep breathes, Shizuo continue.
"I...err, I...,"
"Shizuo," called Tsugaru trying to calm him.
"Okay, okay! I kiss him! I don't know why. I just want to freak him out but I don't know why I actually kiss him! He started rambling about how he can't love me 'coz I'm a monster and I finally had caught him. Even he knows I could just snap him easily, he just continues mocking me. I just want him to know how it's felt to be toy by other and it happens. Shit, that damn flea. At the end, I'm the one who be toy with," burst Shizuo in one breathe. He grits his teeth in anger while his face has turned bright red from the confession.
Tsugaru dumbfounded from every word that spit out from Shizuo. He tries to say something but close his mouth again. He turned his face to his side. Followed after, his body started to shake vigorously before a loud laugh could be heard. Shizuo widened his eyes in disbelief from Tsugaru unexpected respond. A vein pop in his head and he know he was pissed. He having a hard time trying to explain to him but was easily laughs off.
Tsugaru then notice the murderous aura emitted from Shizuo and stopped laughing. He close his mouth with his hand; trying to supress his laugh. Looking back to Shizuo before say, "Sorry, didn't mean to. I kind of surprise that you...actually did it. Not long to be done. Looks like Psyche win."
Hearing that, Shizuo raised his eyebrow in curiosity, "May I know what the meaning of your word, Tsugaru-san?"
"Okay, don't be mad with me. It's Psyche. He asked me about you and I accidently tell him about that guy. Well, it's not that secret after all. But, I don't know, Psyche out of blue make me bet with him that...um, you will kiss Izaya. Something like that I suppose?" said Tsugaru.
"Ah, Psyche..." shrugged Shizuo. He knows him. That guy is Tsugaru's lover. A very enthusiastic, cheerful and childish male he ever seen. At first he thought he was Izaya because he had freaking same face with that man but Psyche had a weird pinkish eyes and look much smaller than the flea. Yeah, that man had once mistake Shizuo as Tsugaru and hugged him. Luckily, he noticed the differences between him and Tsugaru and let go.
"How did he jump to the conclusion that I would kiss the flea?" asked Shizuo, curious. That man, Psyche is way too good in mind reading as the flea was, especially when it comes to emotional part. Tsugaru had told him before that Psyche had a degree on psychology but much prefers to sing.
"Well, after he heard my story about how much you hate him. He say something about that you maybe had...err, well had a little feeling to him?" said Tsugaru unsure. Shizuo raised his eyebrow in amusement. He rather interested by the assumption made by Psyche.
"So, you want to say that I fell in love to the flea?"
"Not me, it's Psyche who say it. Do you?"
Shrugging his shoulder, Shizuo let out a heavy sigh. He lights another cigarettes and inhale it. After a few minutes in silence, Shizuo finally talk. "I don't know. It just too confusing. I just do it on instinct and never thought of the after effect at all. Seeing the confused and scared face of the flea is all I wanted but...,"
"But?"
"I don't know. It just on some times, I recalled his faces and kind of feels guilty? I mean, really? It's the flea that we talking about. Like hell I feel pity for him,"
"Sometimes, I just thought that you are just too kind to actually hurt someone, Shizuo," said Tsugaru smiling.
"You not wrong about that, at all,"
"Maybe failing in love is not bad idea. What do you think, Shizuo? Well, I just think if there is someone who can stop him from doing all the bad things and trouble to others, I can only think of you. I don't think he that much worse person when you first told me. He taking care of his sisters, isn't he? If he that bad, he would never care in the slightest about them, right?"
"Yeah," answered Shizuo short.
"Are you nice with both of them?"
"Hmm? Mairu and Kururi? They kind of annoying and clingy for sometimes but I don't think them that bad. They mostly are nice to me but I think it's only so I will let them meet Kasuka. They really are big fan of him. Sometimes, if they bored, they will hanging around me and luckily not much troublemaker towards me even they have that flea's big mouth," explain Shizuo.
"I don't see the problem about building a relationship here," suggest Tsugaru.
"What? No way. First, not with the flea. Maybe it's just a confused for feeling guilty and I'm sure I'm not failing for him. Second, I'm not gay. Just because I don't go out with girls mean I'm gay. Sorry, don't mean to offend you but I think I'm straight," denied Shizuo.
"You think? And here you just told me that you just kiss a guy. And let me guess, that is your first kiss if I'm correct," Shizuo choked hearing Tsugaru assumption. 'Damn, he guesses just right'
"What's if that correct?"
"Shizuo, there's no need to be such in denial. Just admitted it. There's no harm in it,"
"Hell, sure it is. You just don't know him. Okay, let put some example. If I really in love with him and confess it. Let just say he accept it and we become couple if that is what you want. Trust me, the next time I let my guard down for believing him, that's the time where he'll definitely stabbed me from behind," growled Shizuo. 'Just thinking about it enough to see the reality. That flea is way too good to be true'
"It can't be that bad, isn't it? You just become paranoid,"
"Of course I am. I spend almost my entire life having so much trouble because of the flea and you say I don't become paranoid? Only idiots will be," barked Shizuo. He really is pissed off by the conversation. Usually he doesn't lose his temper when talk to Tsugaru but he can't help it.
"Okay, okay. Calm down. Whoa, you really lose your temper easily when it comes to that guy, huh? Alright, it's up to you what do you want to do. If there is anything you want to ask, I'm there for you,"
"Sorry, my fault. It's just...shit. Never mind, just leave the subject. Pretend like we don't talk about it," Shizuo sigh. He really feels guilty for raising his voice at Tsugaru. He knows that man is just trying to help.
"Do you mind if I tell Psyche?" ask Tsugaru. Shizuo eyes twitching hearing that. 'I knew it'
"If I say don't, you'll definitely tell him, right?" said Shizuo while furrowing. Tsugaru just smile at Shizuo. Sighing, "Fine, do what you want," he doesn't have any intention to argue with it anymore.
The door behind them slide open and at the door, a man in pink kimono kneel to them before greets sweetly, "Tsugaru-sama, forgive me for interrupting you. There's a call for you from Hibiya-sama regarding the shipping of the product you suppose to export. He called for an urgent meeting as there are some changes that need to be done," said him.
Tsugaru's eyes widen in shock from the news, "W-What? Really? There must be some mistake during the process. I bet Hibiya in problem right now. Thank you, Sakuraya. Tell Hibiya I'll be there as soon as possible," ordered Tsugaru to his maid. He raised from his seat and walks towards the door before send the maid another order.
"Sakuraya, I leave the house under your care. I don't know how long this urgent meeting will be but I'll call when it's over. I leave Shizuo on you too. Treat him the best treat you could give," turning to Shizuo. "Sorry, got to go. Talks on another time?" Shizuo just nodded. With that, Tsugaru leave both of them.
Shizuo look at the maid, Sakuraya. This maid had work for Tsugaru for the last two years. Short black hair, smooth cream skin face, long eyelashes, pinkish irises, small body and sweet, soft voice. Shizuo almost mistaken him as female if Tsugaru didn't tell him that the maid is a male. But that not what pissed Shizuo off, there's something about the maid that Shizuo can't stand at all. That maid has the same face with the FLEA!
Shizuo remembered his first meet with Sakuraya. When he first saw the maid, his blood boils almost instantly and he tried to launch a table toward the poor maid, mistaken him as Izaya. Luckily, he was stopped by Tsugaru before anything worst happens. After convince enough that he was not Izaya, Shizuo apologized for his mistake.
"Shizuo-sama," called Sakuraya and brings Shizuo back to reality. "Is there anything you want me to do?" ask the maid. Shizuo just shook his head mentioning he's fine for now. After ask permission for leaving, Shizuo was back to the beginning. He stared at the garden in the yard again, trying to recalled his conversation with Tsugaru.
'Me, falling in love for the flea? If it's true, when? When did I first feel like that towards him? All I could remember was how much I hate him. Could it be that I'd mistaken them?' He lighted another cigarette and smokes it instantly. The taste of the tobacco always helps him to calm down and relax. 'To be honest, I don't regret at all kissing him. He tastes quite good, sweet. Maybe, I'll get an answer about it when I meet him again. Wonder what would he been doing now?' Deep in his thought, Shizuo just want to admit that he's growing a feeling toward the man but he ignored it.
