I'm not really happy with the way this chapter turned out. I dunno maybe i didnt put my heart fully in it, maybe i just cant write love scenes. I thought it would turn out better than this though. If you like it please let me know, i appreciate feedback.
Neither of them could remember how it started, but suddenly they were both lying down and Marius was on top of Cosette, kissing her. Their tongues were connected for the first time since they'd been married and they were both loving it, neither of them had realised how badly they needed each other and they were both getting carried away with what they were doing. Marius couldn't wait to touch every part of Cosette, to taste every part of her, to completely love every part of her.
He was kissing her on the mouth, letting his tongue massage hers gently, he could hear her moan softly as he did this and that excited him, he let his mouth move down to her neck and kissed her softly there, then he moved a strap of her nightdress out of the way so he could kiss her shoulder, then he kissed her collarbone gently, he moved his hands over her breasts and heard her sigh softly as he did this, he felt her shape under the thin material of her nightdress and listened as Cosette got more excited as he did this.
There were some buttons on the front of her nightdress so he started to undo them slowly, he looked in Cosettes eyes before he did so to make sure she was alright with this and her eyes told him she wanted him to do it.
Cosette placed one of her hands over her head whilst Marius touched her front, there was something she had been meaning to ask him and she thought it was the best time to bring it up.
"Will it hurt?" she asked quietly, before she lost her nerve completely
Marius stopped what he was doing, his hands were about to slip inside her nightdress when she asked that question. He didn't know how to answer; he remembered what his friends used to tell him about being with women, and how when it was a womans first time it would hurt them.
He'd forgotten about that, he was getting so lost in the moment that he'd forgotten it was his beautiful Cosette he was about to be with and the last thing he wanted to do was hurt her even more than she'd been hurt, but he would have felt worse if he'd just gone ahead and hurt her without letting her know the facts.
He placed one of his hands on Cosettes shoulder, and decided to be honest with her.
"I think it does hurt the first time my love, I don't know how much though" He told her truthfully, which made Cosette look a little scared
Marius placed a hand on the side of her face and stroked her gently with the backs of his fingers, which made Cosette smile as she felt so comforted when he did this.
"Do you trust me Cosette?" He asked gently
"Of course I do" she told him confidently
"And you know I would never hurt you if I could help it don't you?" He asked her lovingly
Cosette nodded her head and smiled at him and then they started kissing again. Passionately, lovingly, tenderly, all the different ways you could kiss a person they tried them all in those moments, and any nerves either of them had slowly started to disappear.
Marius pulled away from her and started unbuttoning his waistcoat and shirt, he was working fast but he tried to keep a hold on himself, he didn't want Cosette to think he just wanted her physically; it was just his excitement getting the better of him. He tossed his shirt to one side and sat up on his knees. Cosette looked at him, really looked at him. She couldn't help think how amazing he looked shirtless, he was so strong and handsome, even the scars he had on his shoulders from the fighting he was in last summer looked beautiful to her. She smiled coyly at him as she admired him and he smiled back as he reached out to touch her legs.
He manoeuvred himself between them and moved his hands under her nightdress which was up at her knees at the moment, he started slowly moving it further upwards, he kept his eyes on Cosettes the whole time to make sure she wasn't uncomfortable with this, but her eyes told him he was doing the right thing so he kept going. He still kept his eyes on hers as he moved it further up her body, she arched her back as he reached her waist and then he moved it over her stomach, then her breasts and then finally he pulled the dress over her head.
Marius was able to look at his wifes naked body for the first time; he had never seen anything so beautiful before. She was completely perfect, everything about her was perfect, her breasts, her stomach, her legs, everything. It nearly made him weep to see her like this, he felt so lucky at that moment that she was his wife, that he was the only person in the world who was allowed to see her like this made him feel like a god.
Marius reached out and touched her waist and ran his hand slowly upwards to her stomach, this made Cosette tremble.
"Are you nervous?" He asked her softly
"No" said Cosette confidently, and she really wasn't, in fact having him touch her made her feel incredibly excited and aroused.
Marius lay on top of her again and felt his chest pressed against hers, it felt so wonderful to have their skin joined together for the first time, he kissed her neck and collarbone again softly and ran his hands down to her breasts, feeling her again, this time without any clothing in the way which made it feel even more incredible. He started kissing her there as well, he ran his tongue slowly over them, tasting her; he couldn't get enough of her, it was like he wanted to devour her.
Cosette felt even more aroused by what he was doing, she couldn't believe how good it felt being touched by him, It made her feel excited knowing how hungry he was for her, she could feel herself becoming wet the more he touched her. She had no idea that this was going to feel as good as it did, Marius had touched her before obviously, he had held her hand, he had touched her face, but this was a completely new experience. Feeling him pressed against her, their skin touching, him kissing her, his hands feeling every part of her was amazing. At that very moment she wasn't thinking about anything she'd been through that week, all she was thinking about was how good Marius was making her feel right now.
Marius let his hands wander down Cosettes body as he kept his mouth on hers, he felt her breasts again, he ran his hands over her ribcage, down to her stomach, past her waist, right down to that sweet wet spot between her legs.
Cosette gasped when she felt this and trembled again, she closed her eyes for a moment which made Marius stop what he was doing, but when she opened them again her eyes once again told him that she was enjoying this experience.
Now Cosette let her hands do some wandering, she didn't know why but she really wanted to touch him between his legs now, I was like it was instinct for her, her hands went from behind his head as he kissed her, to his strong shoulders, down his back, round his waist and then she let her hand touch him there, and then it was his turn to tremble.
Marius felt himself become hard when she touched him, even though he still had his trousers on he was still so thrilled when she touched him there he couldn't help himself. He knew what he wanted next, and he knew what she wanted next so he pulled away from her for a moment and started to unbutton his trousers, he was working fast again and had everything off within seconds, then he came back to her so he could see her beautiful face again.
He kissed her gently for a few moments before he couldn't wait any longer, he wanted to be inside her right now, he pulled up again to look her in the eyes.
"Are you sure you're ready?" he whispered to her
"I am" she whispered back
"If it hurts too much please tell me, I don't want to hurt you Cosette" he said, stroking her face with the back of his fingers again.
"I'm ready Marius" she just whispered back sweetly.
Marius kept his eyes on Cosettes while he slowly entered her, he thought if he went slowly it wouldn't be so painful but her expression told him otherwise.
She gasped and cried out in pain, holding on to him harder as she did so, she hadn't really known what to expect, but she wasn't prepared for how much it hurt. She screwed up her eyes and turned her head to one side, breathing hard as she did so.
Marius didn't know what to do.
"Do you want me to stop?" He asked softly, whilst kissing the side of her face closest to him
"No, don't. She said quickly, turning to him again. Please don't stop, I'm alright."
Marius believed her when she said this but still moved slowly inside her, she gave pained noises and held tightly on to his shoulder at first as he moved in her, it was really quite painful for her but she didn't want him to stop, she wanted to be with him so badly she was willing to push past the pain. She was glad she did because after a while it stopped being so painful and she could let herself enjoy the moment.
Sometimes it's good to suffer pain, because it makes the more wonderful moments even better.
Marius felt concern for her but also couldn't help thinking how amazing it felt being inside of her, she was so warm and wet inside and it felt so, so good for him. This is what he had been waiting for since he had first fallen in love with her; he had wanted to be with her like this, exactly like this.
But this was more than just two people who were involved in a sexual act, this was two people who needed each other so desperately, who were taking such comfort in each other, who were so grateful in that moment that they had each other that this was the only way they could express it, this was not just a physical act, this was a total emotional and even spiritual connection they had.
It was odd for Marius knowing something that was so painful for her felt so nice for him, but she seemed to be enjoying it too now that the pain had subsided a little, she was kissing him again and breathing hard, giving out gasps of pleasure, so he allowed himself to enjoy what he was doing.
They had been going at it for a while and Cosette was definitely feeling more pleasure now, she was moving with him rather than just having him move inside her now, she had moved one hand over her head and was holding onto a pillow, her other hand was still holding onto Marius's shoulder, Marius moved one of his hands to hold the one she had on the pillow, and their fingers intertwined each other's, he placed his other hand on her face so he could feel her soft skin there. He was moving a little faster inside her now but he wasn't rough with her at all, because this was not just anyone he was with, this was Cosette, and there was no way he was ever going to hurt her. He couldn't bear to feel like he was in any way violating her, especially when she had felt so vulnerable this past week so he kept it gentle. He kissed her neck softly again and heard Cosette make more noises of pleasure; he was glad that she liked this because he found that he really enjoyed it too.
He could feel himself ready to come in her, he had never felt more alive and wonderful in his life, he pressed his forehead gently against hers so he could look in her eyes, Cosettes breathing was becoming increasingly ragged as she was about to come too.
She had no idea that this would feel so good, she had never known what to expect, she had grown up with only a father and in a convent so she had never been given any sex education other than what she had heard other girls whisper about, she didn't know what an orgasm was so she had no idea what was happening to her when she could feel herself about to climax but she knew it felt good, and she needed so desperately to feel something good again.
Cosette looked into Marius's eyes and felt so much love from him, she then felt herself coming, and she heard what must have been the same from Marius as well, they came together. They both cried out as they did, not at all quiet but not loud either, not that they cared at that moment if anyone could hear them anyway, neither of them were thinking about anything other than each other right then.
After Marius had come he buried his head between Cosettes neck and shoulder, he kissed her there and whispered breathlessly to her, "I love you Cosette, I love you so much".
"I love you Marius" Cosette whispered back to him as she kissed his hair.
Marius rested his head on her chest for a moment as he got his breath back, he hadn't pulled out of her yet because he wanted to stay connected to her for as long as he could, he would have chosen to stay like that forever if he could but he knew he would have to come out of her at some point. But he didn't just yet, so he stayed there. He felt Cosettes fingers run through his hair, neither of them needed to say anything at that moment; they were both processing what had just happened.
Eventually he went to kiss her again and whilst their tongues were connected he came out of her. Cosette moaned quietly as he did as it still hurt a little from him being inside her, but she was so incredibly happy at that moment too. They had just made love for the first time, and it had been so worth it.
Marius stayed on top of her instead of immediately moving away from her, her legs were still either side of his waist when he asked her a question.
"Are you alright?" he asked her with concern in his voice
Cosette smiled at him sweetly again, she was more than alright, she felt better than she had all week in fact.
"I am Marius, I really am" she told him truthfully, still smiling.
Marius pulled up and kissed her lovingly on the forehead, he was so glad he hadn't caused her too much pain.
Then they were both aware how late it was and how tired they both were, it had been a long and eventful night after all but now they both wanted to sleep. Neither of them realised that this was their first proper night together since that terrible night after they'd been married. It felt completely natural that they should sleep together that they didn't even realise they'd been apart for so long, they were finally together now and neither of them wanted to spend another night apart from each other ever again.
Cosette drifted off to sleep first that night, Marius was laid on his side again holding her in his arms and thinking about how much he had missed her that week. But she was his again now, he knew it, and he felt it too. He felt it when they were making love, when they were connected to each other; it felt like they were made for each other and each other alone. Most of all he knew she was his again because he had seen it in her eyes that night, that light had returned to her eyes and he knew he had helped put it there, and it was an amazing feeling.
Marius looked at his beautiful wife again before he too fell asleep; she was sleeping soundly. He touched her head gently and leaned in to kiss her on the forehead one last time that night, as if to kiss goodbye everything bad that had happened that week.
