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3. After Party
Everyone was going around the room to clean up what was left of the party. Beer bottles and red cups were everywhere. In the middle of cleaning, Tanya decided it was time for her to leave. I would be lying if I said I wasn't happy for it.
"Well, I should get going." She said as put her bag on her shoulder.
"You really got to go?" Edward said. I looked at him. 'Thin ice, Masen'. I warned him with my eyes but I don't think he got that because he wasn't looking at me.
"Yeah. I have to get up early in the morning. Its already way pass my bedtime." She said with a smile. "But it was nice to see you guys again." She walked around the room and hugged. She saved Edward for last. "It was nice to see you again, Edward." She said to him with a smile that she didn't give everyone else. I know I wasn't the only one who noticed. Maybe I was.
"You too, Tanya." He smiled back. She gave him a kiss on the cheek. I think I've been quiet long enough.
I walked over to them and grabbed Edward's arm. They both looked at me. "Okay, Tanya. I think you should be leaving now. Don't you have to wake up early to tomorrow? Don't want to over sleep." I said.
"Bella." He said to me.
"No. she's right. Nice to meet you, Bella." She said to me.
I gave her a fake smile. "You too." I said. Now get out. I added in my head.
"Nice to meet to you, Alice, Jacob, Leah." She nodded to the ones she named. Both Alice and Leah gave her the same smile I did. I'm glad I wasn't the only one intimidated by her.
"See ya, Tanya." Jacob said as he gave a two finger wave. She smiled at him before walking out the door. I went to the door and watched her drive off to make sure she was gone. "She was nice." Jake said as I closed the door.
"Yeah. You can close your mouth now, Jake." I said as I walked back over to my trash bag.
"What are you talking about, Bella?" he said as he put some more cups in the bag.
"Jacob, you were drooling so much, I thought might have to swim back to the hotel." Leah said bitterly as she put some trash in the bag. Thank you Leah. I knew I wasn't the only who saw how they guys were acting.
"That's so not true." Jacob said defensively.
"Dude, I hate to say it; but you were kind of staring" Emmett said with a chuckle. Edward gave a laugh.
"You have no right to laugh." I said to him.
"What do you mean? I wasn't staring at her." He said.
"Whatever, Edward. If that's what you want to believe." I said as I walked away from him.
"Bella." I heard him behind me. "Don't be mad at me. I didn't doing anything." He pled behind me.
"Whatever, Edward. I don't want to talk about it." I told him. I didn't want to be mad; but if he didn't tell me something I would be.
"Bella, what do you want me to say?" he asked.
I turned to him. "Just tell me who she was." I said. That was all I wanted. What made me mad is that he kept avoiding the question. Him doing that made me feel like he was hiding something.
He sighed. "Fine. She was an ex-girlfriend." He said.
"Is that it? Why did you hide that from me?" I asked. I had ex-boyfriends so I didn't see the problem. But then again, I wasn't all over my exes.
"Because that's not all she was." Jasper said as he walked passed us. I looked at Jasper then back at Edward.
"Yeah, thanks." Edward said to his brother.
"What was she, Edward? Just tell me and stop trying to jump around it." I demanded.
He sighed again. "We had our first time together." My face dropped. It dropped because I knew what he meant without saying it. "And she was my last girlfriend before you." He said. I gave a small sound before walking away from him. He walked up to me and grabbed my arm. He pulled me in the bathroom so we could be alone. "Are you really going to get mad at me for something that happened two or three years before I even met you?" He said to me.
"Edward, I don't care about that."
"Then what is it?" he asked. "It's my first night and I don't want to spend it with you mad at me."
"I'm mad that you lie to me." I told him. he started to say something but I stopped him. "You did. When you asked you Jacob what was to me, I told you. You could've told me who she was and not walked around it. And on top of that, you were all over her tonight."
"I was-"
"You were undressing her with your eyes, Edward." I cut him off.
"Okay, I admit. I was probably a little friendlier than I should have been. But could you blame me, I haven't seen her in years. I didn't say anything when you jumped into Jacob's arms when you first saw him." he countered. I looked away from him. "Did I?" he said.
"No. but that's different." I said looking at him again.
"How?" he challenged.
"Because he's my friend." I told him.
"And so is Tanya."
"It still makes me uncomfortable, Edward."
"And how do you think I feel when you and Jake hug or share inside jokes? It just reminds of what you had before me." I shrugged. Damn it; I hate to admit it, but the jackass had me. He sighed and put his hands on my shoulders. "Bella, we broke up for the same reasons you and Jacob did. We didn't see each other like that anymore. After a while, it was just sex and we realized we both wanted more than a physical relationship. Yeah, I should have told you, but to be honest I didn't think it was a big deal. Technically, I didn't lie. She is just a friend now."
The whole it was just sex thing didn't make him look good. But the fact that he said he didn't see her like that anymore did. "So, she's nothing?" I said.
He shook his head. "Not at all. In fact I think she has a husband." He said. That did make me feel a little better.
"You won't back slide, will you?" I asked him, remembering what Alice said.
He gave a chuckled. "Of course not. I would never do that." He said.
I looked into his eyes. "We all have pasts, right?" I repeated the words he said to me years ago.
He smiled at me. "Exactly. What happened before doesn't matter. Because you are my now and my future. Okay?" he said. I nodded.
Even though I wanted to let it go, there was something that kept messing with me. "Wait, why the hell were you guys talking about sex positions?" I demanded.
He chuckled. I crooked my eyebrow at that. "That really wasn't anything. Jasper and Emmett was talking about that, then they called her over to get a female opinion. Then they called me over. it was nothing."
"But why did they have to ask her?" I asked.
He shrugged. "I don't know; I think because they might have felt awkward talking about it with anyone else. The only reason we felt comfortable around her is because we see her like you and Alice see Jacob, she's just like one of the guys now." I nodded. I understood that. Alice, Jacob and I have had talks where I think it would make Edward uncomfortable if he was a part of them. we've knew if each other since we were kids so it was that easy to forget that one person was a male and the other two were female.
"Beside, why does it matter?" he brought me back. I looked at him, not realizing I was looking away as I was thinking. I saw him smiling a smile telling he was hiding something. He leaned to my ear. "You're the only one I want to try any positions with." Once he said that, I couldn't help the big smile that came with the words.
I felt him move my hair so he could have easy access to my neck. I felt his lips on the nape of it. It's been a long time since he last did that. I allowed myself to get lost. I gripped the sides of his shirt, trying to keep from taking it off. "Not now." I sighed out loud. That was the most I could get out. I hope he understood.
He did and pulled away. "Later." He agreed. I nodded. He kissed my forehead "I love you." He said.
"I love you too." I said. When he pulled away, I put my hand on the back of his neck and pulled him to my lips. I kissed him with passion and lust. I wasn't trying to continue it; more like I was sending him a message. He wrapped his arm around my waist and pulled me to him and returned the kiss.
Finally I pulled away. "Just think about that if you do ever try it." I told him with a smile.
He smiled. "I always think about you." He said. "Come on. Let's go finished helping them clean up." He said before opening the door.
When we walked out, everyone looked at us. We both smiled at them. "We're good." I answered the question al their eyes were asking. They all smiled and clapped. I rolled my eyes at them. we have crazy people in our lives.
Everyone was happy expect for one. Rosalie. She looked very bored and just forced on cleaning up. I ignored her.
"Rosa I heard you invited Tanya." Edward said to her. She looked at him.
"I did." She said.
"Why did you do that?" he asked.
She shrugged. "She works with me. She saw a picture of us on my desk and asked about you guys. I told her about the party and said you would like to see her again. You didn't look like you had a problem with her being here." She shrugged and turned back to the mess.
"I didn't." I looked at him. he looked at me and saw the look. He knew we just fixed and he better not backtrack. He sighed. "Can you just warn me next time you decide to bring out an old girlfriend?" he said.
She stood up and looked at me. "Why, because your little girlfriend got jealous? Doesn't she know the world doesn't revolve around her?" She said it to him, but aimed it at me. She said it to me like I was a child.
He sighed again. "Not just that, but I would just like a heads up next time." He said.
"I'll keep that in mind." She said sarcastically as she rolled her eyes. One problem got fixed, now its time for another. I was done fighting with her. I know everyone else was too.
I walked over to her. "Rosalie, can I talk to you?" I said in her ear. She turned head to me.
"No, you can't." she said as she started to walk away. I didn't care she wanted. I grabbed her wrist and pulled her to the bathroom. I needed to have another private talk. I pushed her in there and closed the door behind me. "Bella, what the hell is your problem? Let me out." She demanded. I stood in front of the door with my arms crossed. "Bella, I'm not Edward. Let me out." She said.
"What's your problem with me?" I demanded, ignoring her request.
"You know what my problem with you is. Now let me out." She said. She reached around me for the knob. I moved over so I was in front of it.
"You made me feel like crap for years." I told her.
"Good. You should of." She said.
"Why can't you just get over that?" I asked her.
"You sent my brother to jail. I'm sorry if that's not something I can just get over." She said as she reached for the knob. Again, I was in front of it.
"I didn't send him. I wasn't the one who called the police. Beside, Emmett and Jasper forgave me. Carlisle and Esme did too. They understand that it wasn't my fault."
"Well, I'm not as easy as them." She said. She reached for the knob. This time I let her get to it. She pushed pass me to get to the door.
I said something to stop her. "Did you ever stop to think he was gone from me too?" I asked her. I knew that got to her, because she stopped. "Every morning I woke up and he wasn't there, every time I went to go see him, every time I passed by something that reminded me of anytime we spent together, rather it was big or small, it killed me inside. Killed me, Rosalie. And when you said the things you did, like I didn't care or I shouldn't be here, it hurt more that you probably thought it would. At one point, I thought about ending it. But I knew I would kill Edward if I wasn't there for him." I told her.
She turned to me. She crossed her arms across her chest. "I never thought about it like that.
I stepped towards her. "That's because you only thought about yourself and how it affected you."
She sighed. "It's just he's my little brother Bella."
I nodded. "I know. We all were hurting and I hate myself for causing it." I looked at her. "But you have to know I am in love with your brother. And I never meant for any of this to happen to him. I would probably hate myself for forever because of it."
She looked at me. "I'm sorry Bella. It was just he was gone and taking it out on you was the only way I knew how to handle it."
I nodded. "I know and I will do anything I can to make this right again. I don't want him to leave again."
Before I know what was happening, her arms were around me. She was hugging me. I was kind of surprised. I collected myself enough to hug her back.
"Bella, I hate to admit it, but I did miss you. If I had you, it might have made it better." She said as she pulled away.
I smiled too. "I missed you too." I hugged her again.
She pulled back. "But if you tell them I told you that, I would lie like my life depended on it." She said to me.
I laughed. "Deal." I said shaking her hand.
"I going to get out of here before you decide you want another heart to heart and bust into tears." She half joked as she opened the door and walked out.
I followed her and I walked over to Edward. I hugged him from behind and kissed him on the neck. He wrapped his arm around me. "Everything good?" he asked me.
I nodded. "Yeah. I think it is. Or it will be." I told him. he met his lips with mine.
XXX
After we finished cleaning up, we all decided to sit in the living room. We were all talking. We went from school to jobs to what would happen now. And somehow, we ended on movies that came out years ago.
Since everyone had a drink or two, they were trying to wait until the alcohol settled a bit before driving to their respectable areas.
I love them all, but it was closer to eleven than it was to ten. I was kind of ready for them to go home. I shared him with people all day and I was ready to have him to myself. So sue me if I wanted to be a little selfish with my boyfriend who I haven't seen in years.
I checked my watch. I heard Emmett try to hide a chuckle. I looked at him. "Are we keeping you from something, Bella?" he said, wriggling his eyebrows.
I gave him a smile. He knew exactly what he was talking about. And yes you were.
"No, I'm just kinda really to go to bed." I told him.
"Well, if you're so tired; feel free to go upstairs and go to bed. We'll be good and keep it down." Jasper chimed in with a knowing smile. I knew what he was talking about. No one asked for him to damn co-sign on Emmett's stupid joke.
But they've been making comments like this for days now. It doesn't mean it not still so fucking annoying. And a little embarrassing if everyone caught on.
I narrowed my eyes at him as I continued to smile. "What kind of hostess would I be if I do that?" I asked him.
Alice giggled. Of course she caught on to the joke. "Don't worry Bella, we'll be leaving in a little bit. Then you can 'sleep' all you want." I heard the quotation around the word sleep so she didn't have to use the air quotes. Too bad Emmett and Jasper caught on too. They both laughed.
I bowed my head so they couldn't see the redness. "Be quite, you guys." I mumbled. That just made them laugh harder.
The only thing that made them stop was the bell ringing. "I'll get it." I said as I got up. Anything to get away from them. As I walked to the door, I wondered who would be at it at this time. Maybe someone forgot something.
I opened the door and got my answer. "Bella, my baby." my mom greeted as she hugged me. Since I was in college now and she was dating someone named Phil, – who I was kind of fond of. He was cool and good for and to her. We didn't see each other as much as we wanted to. In fact, this was the first time I've seen her in a while.
"Hi mom." I said, hugging her back.
"How did things go?" she said as she pulled away. I told her he was coming home so she knew about the party. But she told me that she couldn't come.
"Pretty good." I told her.
'Who's still here?" she asked as I stepped aside so she could come in.
"Just his brother and sister, Emmett, Alice, Leah and Jake." I told her. Who I'm so ready for them to go. I led her to the living room where everyone was sitting.
"Hi everyone." She said when she got there. Everyone turn to her.
"Hi Renee." they all said in unison. They all like my mom and she like them. She kind of worked with Esme as a second mother to all of us to keep us in order; as if we need it. I think we could take care of ourselves; well, some of us could. But they didn't think so.
I noticed everyone said something beside Edward. I knew he didn't feel right doing that yet.
He stood up and walked over to my mom and me. "Ms. Swan, I never properly introduce myself. I'm…"
"I know who you are. I met you as her teacher, remember?" she cut him off coldly. I saw how quickly her mood changed. I forgot to mention; she liked everyone, but Edward. She accepted my relationship with him and realized she couldn't change it, but never liked it.
I saw the comment hit a soft spot for him, but he kept his face straight and smiling. "Yes, but not officially as her boyfriend." He corrected her. "So let me formally introduce myself. I'm Edward Mason." She let him finish this time. He held out his hand for her.
I saw she didn't take it right away. "Mom." I said to her, warning her to be nicer. She sighed and took his hand.
She quickly pulled away from it and turned to me. I saw her mood change again. She was smiling at me.
"So, mom, what are you doing here so late?"
She smiled. "I came to give you this. I figure it would be best to come after the party so I would crash it." She said. she took the bag she had on her shoulder and handed to me. I looked inside to see toilettes and two containers of food. She has become a better cook since I left. I was actually happy to get it. One container looked like cookies and the other looked like some kind of pasta.
"Thanks." I said as I hugged her again. "Anything else?" I asked her. She looked behind her to see that Edward was still there.
She grabbed my arm and pulled me away from him. "Yeah, I came to see if you were going to come home."
I sighed and rolled my eyes. Not this again. "Mom." I said in a tired voice.
"You know how I feel about you living here." She said in a low voice.
"Yeah, but that's when I was here alone. But he's here now so I won't be anymore. He will take care of me." I told her.
"Yeah, but you really think it's a good idea to stay here with him" I noticed how she said him, so it was naturally that I got offended. I looked over shoulder and saw Edward's back to us. He was leaning on the back of the couch and talking to the rest of them so he wasn't paying attention to us.
I looked back at my mom. "Can we continue this outside, please?" I said. She started to walk to the door. I walked over to Edward and handed him the bag before following her outside. I closed the door because I didn't want them to hear this conversation. No one knew how she felt about him. "Now, what was that supports to mean, mom?" I asked her, folding my arms.
"You know what that means, Bella. He's a convict." She said.
"Mom, I asked you not to call him that." I said to her, angrily. I hated that word. I hated it because it didn't fit him. Even thought he did go to jail, it was just not the word for him. To me, the word 'convict' was someone who stole, raped and killed. He didn't do any of that.
The only wrong thing he did was fall in love with some who was a year shy of being legal. It would've been worst if I didn't fall in love with him right back. So I asked my mom not to call him that. It wasn't the first time she did it which is way I got so angry.
"I'm just saying the truth." My mother argued.
"No you're not, mom." I flared my hands in a pissed way, which I was. I was very pissed off. She wasn't getting it. "I keep telling you, he went away for me. Not because he robbed a bank or something. For me."
"Bella, I don't care if all he didn't pay his taxes. He was still in jail. He's no good for you."
"Mom, didn't we have this talk when I was seventeen? He's perfect for me and I love him. Please, at least give him a small chance." I begged her. I love Edward and I love my mom. I don't want to have to choose between them.
"I might if you just come home now." She begged back.
"No. This is my home and I need to be here more than ever now, please mom." I said.
She shook her head. "I just can't. I still feel he's too old for you and no good." She stood her ground.
I sighed hard. "You just don't know him like I do. And if you keep shutting him out, you never will. If you just give him a chance, you will see what a great person he is." She turned her head away from me.
"Bella." I heard Edward call me from inside the house. I sighed.
"I better get back in there. Do you want to stay a while?" I asked her.
"I can't." she said, still looking into the night darkness.
I hugged her still body. "I love you mom. But you got to know that I will be fine with Edward." I told her in her ear. I gave her a kiss on the cheek before pulling away. I turned and cracked the door.
"Bella," she said. I stopped. "Do you think you will ever come back home? I miss you, sweetie."
I turned to give her a small smile. I saw she was looking at me with sad eyes. "I miss you too. But probably not for a while." I said before opening the door and walking in. I closed the door softly behind me.
When I walked in, I searched room for Edward. I saw he was the only one still in the living room. He was looking at me with worried eyes. I walked over to him. Before he had to a chance to say something, I crashed my lips to his. I pulled away from him. "Where is everyone?" I asked him, hoping the kiss got his mind off my mom.
"In the kitchen, destroying the cookies. I tried to get you, but you were still talking to your mother." He said with a smiled. I laughed at the fact they were eating of my cookies. They do this all the time. I'm starting to think she just brought them for them. That's probably why she gives me so many.
"Let's go get some because they will eat them all." I warned him, knowing from experience. I started to go to the kitchen, but he grabbed my wrist and turned me to him.
"Are you okay?" he said in a low voice.
I gave him a smile. "Yes. Why wouldn't I be?" I asked him, knowing what he was talking about.
"You and your mom seem to have a heated talk." He said. I knew he wouldn't let it go. Why did I think he would? He never does.
"Yeah, but it wasn't about anything." I told him.
"Don't lie to me. Was it about me?" he said. I looked away from his eyes. I didn't want to look at him to tell him it was. "It was, wasn't it?" he said. I sighed and nodded. He groaned."Does she still hate me for when we first dated?" he asked. I nodded again.
"She thinks you're no good for me." I told him. I looked at him. "But she's wrong. I know she is." I grabbed his hands. He looked at me. "She can't hate you for long. Sooner or later, she will see how much we love each other and she will just have to accept it."
He flipped his hands over so our palms were touching and our fingers intertwined. He kissed my forehead. "I just hate coming between you two." He said.
I know how he felt about mom/child relationships since he was so close to his. And since I told him he was the reason I got in a fight with my mom and live here for a few weeks, he hated himself for it.
"I know." I sighed. "You're not coming in between us. We just have different options about you. I told you, she will come around. Just give her time. She will love you, like I do." I told him. I reached up and gave him a kiss. "Don't worry, everything will be fine." He nodded. I tried to walk away again, but he held my wrist. It caused me to stop in my tracks. I turned back to him. "What now?"
"One thing. What did I hear about this being your home now?" he asked. My eyes widen. I didn't want to tell him that yet. And I didn't want him to hear it while I was arguing with my mom about it.
"You know I think of this as my second home." I lied.
He shook his head. "Yeah, but I know that's not what you meant."
"You heard." I concluded, sighing.
"I wasn't ease dropping. I just over heard." He covered up quickly. I nodded in understanding.
"I understand. I didn't want to tell you this yet, but around my second year of college, I moved in here." I confused.
"How are you paying the mortgage?" he asked with a confused face.
"I got a job. Plus your dad is helping full out the holes." I told him.
"My dad?" he asked.
I nodded. "He hated that I was alone, so he offered to help." I told him.
"But why here?" he asked.
I shrugged. "I just go to school a few miles away and I was going to be here all the time when you were back and it was going unused anyways so I thought why not." I said. he didn't say anything so I didn't know how he was thinking it. I continued. "If you don't want me to, I will leave tomorrow or something." I said finally.
He shook his head. "It's not that. It just I'm surprise."
"Do you want me to stay?" I asked.
He gave me a kiss on the lips. "Of course. I was actually going to ask you sooner or later. You just beat me to the punch." He gave a light chuckle at his small joke. I chuckled back. "Come on, let's go." He said then nodded to the kitchen.
"Hey, there they are." Jasper said.
"I thought they went to 'bed'." Emmett said. They both laughed along with Alice. I rolled my eyes.
Edward ignored them. "Guess what guys, Bella is living here now." He said with a smile.
"About time he found out." Jacob said before biting into a cookie. Everyone else laughed.
"What do you mean?" he said with an unknowing smile. He looked from one person to another.
"They already know. Everyone kind of helped me move in." I told him, trying to not laugh myself.
"So I was the one who didn't." he asked. Everyone nodded. He gave a light chuckle. "Then forget what I just said."
"Forgotten." Jasper said as he passed the container. I moved away from Edward and rush to get in. empty. It never fails.
I bowed my head and shook it. "Not again." I mumbled. They laughed. I looked at them. "You all could have saved us one." I told them as I toss the empty bowl I the sink.
"You should've gotten in here early." Jacob said as he was about to take another bit. I took it from his hand as he got the chance.
"And you should have better reflexives." I teased him as I ate the rest of his cookie.
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After another half an hour, everyone was finally leaving.
"Oh, I keep forgetting. Happy homecoming, Edward." Alice said as she put on her jacket.
"Yeah, happy homecoming." Jacob co-signed with a smile.
"Thanks guys. And by the way thanks for all the letters and calls too." He said sarcastically but with a smile.
They both laughed. "Sorry, we had school. But in our defense we told Bella to sent you our love." Alice said for both of them. Because of everything going on with them, they didn't have time to see him as much as I did.
"Which I did." I said with my own smile. I did. Every time I saw him, I told him how everyone missed him.
"Okay." He said, giving a small laugh.
"Okay, can you guys leave now?" I said. I was tired of being polite. I wanted them gone.
"Sorry." Alice said. she turned. "Jasper, can you give me a ride back to my dorm?" she called.
"Sure. It's on my way home." He called back. I knew that was lie. If anything it was out of the way. But I kept quite.
She turned back to us. "See ya." She said. Everyone else said bye then went to their cars. I opened and locked it.
I turned to him. Before I had the chance, he pulled me to him and put his lips to mine. I knotted my hand in his hair and pulled him to me. "Finally alone." I said as I pulled away from his lips a few inches.
He smiled. "So now what?" he asked.
"Well, how much energy do you have left?" I asked with a flirty tone as I twirl my fingers in his hair.
"That depends." He responded the same way.
"On?" I asked with a smile. He just gave me a smile that told me he knew I knew what he meant. And I did. "Okay, well you might need more than you have." I warned him.
He chuckled. "I think I'll be just fine." He said before giving me a soft and sweet kiss.
I pulled away. "Okay, I need to do something first. Can you wait for a sec?" I asked him.
"What do you need to do?" he asked.
"It's a surprise." I told him with a wink. He nodded. I gave him a quick kiss before pulling out of his embrace. "I'll be right back." I told him. I pulled him to the couch and told him to sit there and wait. He did what I asked without questioning.
When he was sitting, I walked over to the freezer and grabbed the bucket of ice I was keeping in there while the party was going on. I took it out and started towards the stairs.
"What's with the ice?" he asked as he watched me walk past him.
"Just wait a second. You'll find out." I told him. I carried the bucket up stairs to the room. the room was once his but I've been calling it mine for about two years now. I was happy that we would be calling it ours now.
When I walked in, the room was clean. Don't get me wrong, it wasn't always like that. sometimes it was such a mess, I couldn't find the thing I just sat down a few minutes ago. But when he told me he was coming home, I spent two days cleaning the whole house. I wanted everything to be perfect.
I walked over to the nightstand next to the bed and set the bucket down and put the bottle that was on the bed in there so it would be somewhat cold when he came up. The bed was made with a beautiful red and tan comforter. Gift from Esme, kind of a welcome home gift. I almost felt bad about what was about to happen under it. Almost.
I finished setting up everything. Everything was kind of already set up, but with the party going on downstairs, I wanted to wait until it was over to finish. When I finished the set up, I took off my clothes and threw them in the closet so they would be out of sight. I went to the drawer and pull out what I was changing into. I looked at it with hesitation. I didn't want to buy this but Alice talked me into it. The only reason she did because she use my words when I said I wanted to make the night special against me. she said what was more special than that.
I was seriously thinking about putting it back, but I closed my eyes and relaxed myself.
When everything was done, I sat on the bed. I was thinking about how the night would go. Would he like everything I did? Would he like what was under this rob or would he think it was too much? Would the passion still be there? I hope so. It would suck if we waited all this time and couldn't even do that with each other any more. But there was no doubt in my mind that that wouldn't be a problem. He mentioned many times how that was one thing he was looking forward to more than anything else. But there was one thing that was messing with me. That was the question of will it hurt again?
The first time was painful. I don't want that to happen again. But it wasn't a crazy thought. I mean we both haven't done it with anyone else. It has to be some pain right? maybe not.
As I sat, I noticed my foot tapping. That's how it starts. First the tapping, then the shaking. I know how to stop it before it goes any further through. I got off the bed and sat on the floor in a yoga position and breathed deeply through my nose and let it out through my mouth and I calmed down. I kept reminding myself that I had nothing to worry about. He would love what I had planning as long as we were together. I nodded and got up.
"Okay Edward. I'm ready." I said as I walked down the stairs. When I got to the base, I heard soft snoring. I walked over to the couch to see him laying down with his eyes closed. I was temped to let him sleep, but I knew if I did this tomorrow, it wouldn't be as special and I would loose my nerve for what I had planned.
I bended down and tapped him lightly on the forehead. His eyes slowly opened. I smiled at him when our eyes met. "Hey, ready?" he asked in a groggy voice.
I nodded. "Unless you want to sleep." I suggested.
He shook his head. "I'm okay."
"Good." I held out my hand to him. he smiled and took it. I pulled him off the couch and led him upstairs.
"This seems familiar." He said as he followed me. I gave a small laugh. When we got to door, I stopped, just like the first time. It did seem familiar. "Getting shy on me again?" he whispered in my ear.
I shook my head. "Not this time." I took a deep breathe. I took me a shorter amount of time to get the courage to open the door than the first time.
When I opened the door, he was greeted by soft music coming from a far corner and a dark room that was lit up by candles all over the place. They weren't scented because I thought that would be pushing it. But there was a tray on the bed that was covered.
"Wow." I heard him say. I turned to him and saw him looking around the room with his mouth open.
"Was that a good wow?" I asked.
"It was 'I can't believe you did all this' wow." He said then he looked at me. "You do know that I'm a guy, right?" he asked with a smile that I could barely see in the dark. I rolled my eyes.
"I worked hard on this. You can at least pertain you like it." I said as hit him of the chest. I turned away from him and folded my arms in a pout. I heard him chuckled and felt his arm wrap around my body. Then I felt his lips on the side of my head.
"I didn't say I didn't. But something like this is usually something I would do for you." He said.
I gave a small smile. "I'll remember that next time." I turned to face him and wrapped my arms around his neck. "You really like it?' I asked.
He leaned in to kiss me on the lips. "Love it." He assured me. he leaned in and kissed me again. He pulled back an inch away from my lips. "What's on the tray?" he asked nodding toward the bed.
I looked to it as if I didn't know hat he was talking about. I turned back to him and smiled. "I thought we can have a snack." I pulled out of his hold and walked over to the bed. I removed the covering, reveling a tray full of strawberries, bananas, cherries, and mangos. Next to it was a can of whipped cream. In the middle of the fruit was a bowl of melted chocolate.
"Good thinking." He said as he walked towards me. I took a strawberry of the tray and fed it to him. He took a bit without question.
"And…" I handed him the rest of the berry so he could finish eating it. I turned and grabbed the bottle to show it to him.
"Champagne?" he questioned before taking another bit. I nodded. "Where did you get that?"
"Our favorite bartender." I answered as I poured some in each glass.
"Jasper gave you a whole bottle of champagne?" he asked as he sat on bed.
I nodded as I handed a glass. "He wanted to help make your first night special." I said as I sat next to him. "So how is it?" I asked him.
He leaned into kiss my lips. "Better now." he said.
I gave a smile. "I'm glad." I held up the glass. "To you being home."
"To us being together again." He said, meeting the side of my glass with his. we both brought our glass to our lips to take a slip. I took mine away and saw him still drinking. I place my on the night stand and waited for him to finish. He took away after a second or so.
"I have an idea." I said with a smile. He looked at me with a confused face. I took his glass out of his hand and put it next to mine. "Take off your shirt." I ordered. He kept his confused face. I rolled my eyes. 'Just do what I say please." I told him. he didn't ask questions as he did what I said. he took off his shirt and tossed it somewhere I couldn't see. I pushed the tray to the side of the bed to give him room to lay down. "Lay down." I said as I placed my hand on his shoulder and gently guided him on the bed.
I reached over him and grabbed the can of whipped cream. I shook it as it directed on the can. "What are you doing?" he asked as he eyed the can in my hand.
I smiled at him. "You'll see." I took off the top and placed it where the can was. I sprayed a small bit on my finger and licked it off to see how it tasted. It tasted like any other kind of whipped cream.
I sprayed a thin line on his stomach to his chest. I leaned in and erase the line with my tongue. I felt a light jump when he felt my tongue touch his skin. I pulled away and made another line from his shoulder to the middle of his chest. I did the same thing I did with the first line. I heard him give a little groan as I remove the second line.
I pulled away and giggled at him when I saw his eyes closed. "You okay?" I asked with a smile. He nodded. I took that as a cue to continue.
So I draw another line on the opposite shoulder and did the same thing. After that one, I was drawing random the lines all over the front side of his torso. And each time I draw a new line, I would take it away from his body the same time as the first, making room for another one.
After a minute, I pulled away from him. "I'm done." I announced as I licked my fingers to get some of the cream that happen to get on them off.
He opened his eyes and looked at me. "I was enjoying that." he said. I shrugged. I was enjoying it to, but my tongue was getting tired so I stopped before it did. "But think I would enjoy something a little bit better." He said as sat up and wrapped his arms around me.
I placed my hands on his face and leaned to his lips. He started sucking them as if trying to suck whatever left over cream that was still on them. I leaned more into him until he was lying down again and I was half on top of him.
I ran my hand up to his hair as he continued to suck on my bottom lip. I was starting to think I did still have cream on my lips and he was trying to get it off; or at least the taste of it off. I felt his hand slowly run up and down the side of my body. Then I felt his hand moved to the front on the robe and gently started to pull at the string. I almost forgot I had this thing on. But as he started to pull at it, I remembered what was under it.
I gave a light groan and pulled away from him. I held the robe closed as I got off the bed. I walked towards the closet so I could be away from the closet. I had my back facing towards him. I was telling myself to calm down and there was nothing to worry about.
I was nervous for him to see what was under this. It was because I never did anything like this. I was being a chicken; I know. But who can blame me. He was the only person I slept with and we never did anything like this.
"I thought you weren't shy." he said behind me. I turned around to see he was sitting on the side of the bed now.
I shook my head as I turned completely. "I'm not." I lied.
"Then come here." He said softly as held out his hand to me. I walked over to him and placed my hands on his shoulders and leaned in to his lips. He wrapped one arm around my waist and pulled me closer to his body. I felt his hand move to the string again. Again I gave a groan and pulled away and backed away from him. "Bella, are you okay? what's under there you don't want me to see?" he asked.
I shook my head. "It's not that. It's just…I wanted to do it." I told him.
His face went into realization. "Oh. Okay, why didn't you say so in the first place." he sat back so he was more comfortable.
I stood in front him with my hand on the string. I started to pull on it, but stopped. I looked down and tried again and again I stopped. I groaned at the fact that I couldn't do it. I looked at him. "I'm sorry." I said for taking so long and acting so weird.
He gave me a small smile. "It's okay. take as long as you need to. We got all night." He said. I nodded. He was right, we did have all night. But I wanted to get this over with because the longer I put it off, the more nervous I will be.
I closed my eyes and told myself to just do it. I slowly pulled at the already loose string, opened the robe and let it fall to my ankles. I knew it was off because I felt the air on my bare stomach, arms and legs.
"Oh my…lingerie?" I heard him said softly. What he was staring at was a dark red lacey bra and panties set with black ruffles around the edges. There was a small bow in front of the panties and there were buttons in front of the bra instead on clasps in the back. the was actually one of the things that drove me to get it was the buttons. I thought it would be something different.
My plan was to strike a pose, but I couldn't get the nerve to do it, so I just stood with my hands behind my back. I slowly open one eye and then the other. "Do you like it?" I asked unsure. He didn't say anything as he stared at my body with his mouth hanging wide open. "Too much?" I asked, unsure. Again, he said nothing. I took that as the answer. I sighed. "It is too much, isn't it?" I knew I shouldn't have let Alice talked me into this. "I knew it was. I'm going to change, I'll be right back." I said as I bend down to grabbed my robe.
"No." I heard him say as I reached the door. I turned to him. "You don't have to." He said.
"I thought you didn't like it." I said as I dropped the robe again.
He shook his head. "I didn't say that." he said.
I shrugged as I walked back to where I was before. "You didn't say anything, so I just thought…"
"I didn't know what to say. but you look…" he stopped like he couldn't find the right word. "Amazing." He finally said.
I walked over to him and sat down next to him. "I wanted to make this as special as possible." I told him as I tucked some hair behind my ear.
He looked down at my body again. "I would say mission accomplished." He said. I smiled.
I placed my hand under his chin and lifted his face to mine. "You really like and not just saying it."
He shook his head. "Of course not. I love it." he said. I smiled as he hugged his arms around my waist and pulled himself closer to me. I leaned into his inviting lips and wrapped my arms around his neck.
I moved myself so that I was straddled on his lap and we pulled each other closer to one another. I hugged him as if I thought if I didn't hug him tight enough he would disappear. He hugged me as if he would die if he let go. We were in the lip lock so long, I forgot I needed air.
I pulled away and rested my forehead on his. I ran my hands through his hair. "I love you Edward." I said softly with a serious face.
He looked into my eyes. "I love you too, Bella." he said just as softly. I leaned to his lips again. He laid down on the bed with me on top of him.
This time I didn't pull away.
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I understand the phase 'screwing like rabbits.' Because that's what we did, if that makes sense. But I don't want to call what we did a screw. Normally, I wouldn't have a problem with the word since that's what we did do. but this time we didn't do that. I don't know what other times were but this time we made love. Sweet, and undesirable and passionate love.
I let him hold me, he let me hold him. we didn't want to let each other go. I wouldn't have had it any other way. Nothing else would made the night better. I don't know what I was so worried about. I should've known that once I was in his arms and he was kissing and holding me like he was, nothing else mattered, none. I'll tell you how much nothing, the phone rang about three times. All three times, we didn't pull away from each other. I remember the old time when we would stop to get it; not this time.
It was some where around four in the morning when we went to sleep. I didn't want to sleep. I didn't want to close my eyes. I didn't want to miss anything that was him. I would've stayed up all night if my body and eyes would let me.
We held each other even as we slept. I don't think we ever held each other so closely as we slept. I was happy to have his arms around me again. I haven't slept as good as I did that night in years.
It was about three hours later when we woke up. I heard my stomach growl at me as I sat up and stretched. I groaned as I wrapped my arms around me. "What's wrong?" he said as he looked up at me from where he laid next to me.
I looked down at him. "I'm starving." I complained.
He yawned. "Yeah, I'm a little hungry too." He agreed.
"Can we get something?" I asked. He nodded. Then he looked over to the nightstand that was next to me.
"Or, I have a better idea." I crooked an eyebrow at him in confusion. He sat up and reached over me to grabbed the tray that was on top of the bucket of ice. We put it there sometime last night to keep the fruit that was on there cold. "We never had our snack." He said as he placed the tray between us.
I smiled as I grabbed a strawberry and bite into it. "The ice worked." I said with my mouth full with cold berry. He took a banana chuck and bite into it.
He nodded. "It did." he agreed.
After that, we sat there and ate the fruit that we never got a change to eat last night. It would be a good breakfast if we didn't combine the fruit with the whipped cream and the chocolate. We were feeding each other as if we knew how to feed each other but we were unable to feed ourselves.
"That's the disgusting." He commented as I grabbed a mango slice and dipped in chocolate.
"What?" I said before dropping it in my mouth.
"How can you eat mangos and chocolate?" he asked. That was the fourth or fifth time I ate that combination and each time he gave me a disgusted look.
I shrugged as I grabbed a cherry and ate it plain. "I don't know. I like the taste."
He shook his head. "It just doesn't seem like the two would go well together." He stated. I shrugged again. I watched him as he took a strawberry and dipped in the chocolate.
"How can you eat that?" I asked him as he bite the berry until the leave and put it on the tray.
He finished eating it before talking. "What are you talking about? That's a common combination." He said with a confused face.
I shook my head. "I never understood how people ate that." I told him.
He chuckled. "The way I see it, it reminds me of you." He said.
"And how is that?" I asked with smile.
He looked at me and smile. "Well, your hair and eyes are brown like chocolate. And it seems like you always smell strawberries."
I got a soft smile on my face. "I still don't like it." I said.
"Have you even tried it?" he asked. I shook my head. "Then how you know you don't like it?" he turned his head back to the tray and grabbed another strawberry and dipped in the chocolate. "Try it." He said, holding inches from my mouth.
I gave in as I opened my mouth. He started to move towards my mouth then dropped to my neck and started drawing a line from my jaw line to my shoulder. I gave him a look. "Sorry." he said with a smile that made me not believe him.
"Did you do that on purpose?" I asked as I looked at the line of chocolate.
He shook his head as he placed the berry back on the tray. "But I would be happy to get it off." Of course he would. I was happy to let him. I lick the cream off him, I think it was only fair.
I tiled my head to the side so he would have better access. He started from my shoulder and moved his tongue up to my jaw. He started sucking on the side of my jaw. He pulled away then turned my head to him so he could meet his lips with mine. I started sucking on his lips like he did mine last night because he had a faint taste of chocolate on there.
I moaned against his lips. I placed my hands on his face as if to hold him in place. Then out of no where, he stopped moving his lips with mine and pulled back. I looked at his face and it look like he had something on his mind. "What's wrong?" I asked him.
"I was just thinking of something." He said. he wasn't looking at me anymore. It like he was staring into space or something.
"What?" I asked.
"We didn't use… protection, did we?" he said. I thought about it. Now that he said that, I don't think I remember us getting something. I shook my head. "Shit." he said as he backed away from me. he brought his hands to his face to cover it. "No, no. damn it, how could I forget something like that?" he said more to himself as he shook his head.
I looked at him. I was about to ask what was wrong but I saw what was wrong. he was worried about the no protection thing. I was about to ask why was he upset about that, but then I remember that he didn't know.
I couldn't help but laugh. He looked at me. "I'm glad you think this is funny." He snapped. That nothing but make me laugh harder. "Bella, stop laughing. This could be a real problem." He said. I laughed harder. I was laughing so hard that I fell over of my side, holding my stomach. "You mind telling me what the hell is so funny?" he said, annoyed now.
I nodded. I was going to tell him, but I couldn't stop laughing. I held up a finger tell him to hold on. I let out the last few laughs before I sat back up. "Okay, let me tell you before your head explodes." I said as a last few chuckles came out.
"Tell me what?"
"Edward, nothing will happen because of this one time." I told him.
"What do you –."
"I'm on the pill." I cut him off.
"You're what?" he asked.
"I'm on the pregnancy pill." I repeated.
"Why?" he asked confused.
I shrugged. "I got on it a few months ago. I knew we would do that when you came home and I thought stopping to reach for a condom would kind of kill the romance. You saw how hard I work on last night. I didn't want anything to ruin it." I told him as if was nothing.
"You could've told me that and not let me freak out." he said.
I chuckled. "Sorry. it was funny." I stopped when I saw his face. he didn't think it was as funny as I did. I moved closer to him and wrapped my arms around his neck. "I'm sorry I laughed at you and I should've told you." I kissed him on the cheek.
He looked at me. "It's okay." he said.
I was about to leaned into his lips when something on his arm caught my eyes. What the hell was that on his arm? I pulled back to look at it. I still couldn't tell. I grabbed his left wrist and pulled his arm to me. I saw what it was and I couldn't believe it. I blinked a few times to be sure. It was what I thought it was. I gasp.
It was… it was… "A tattoo."
so how'd you guys like it. see, i make him good. expect for the whole marking thing. but read the next chapter and you'll find out why he has it. ...i be having thing to say, but i forget them.
but i know one thing i want to say...
2 MONTHS, 3 WEEKS, 4 DAYS! so close yet still so far away. lol.
keep R & R-ing
Luv & Rockets.
