A/n: I do not own Twilight. Wish I did, because it would have a totally different ending!
Honestly if you are going to attack my writing, then don't be a coward and hide behind your screen. At least login so I can actually reply to your comments. I just came back to writing, and I haven't wrote in a more than six months so sorry but I'm not perfect. Thanks for the supportive reviews, and for haters, keep hating because your life will always be miserable. Don't like it? Don't read it.
Halo.
Jacob's P.O.V.
I don't know who to believe anymore, because I can't trust either the pack or the Cullens. They both have lied to me before, and they both use me for their own purpose. I ran as far as I could take myself away from the reservation, away from Forks and far away from my problems.
"What are you doing here?" I growled as the stench reached my nostrils. Why did she always come running after me? Doesn't she know that I don't love her anymore?
"The pack lied to you, we would never do that to you." Renesmee said sweetly as she approached me from behind.
I turned to face her, and I wish I could see a monster underneath that bronze curly hair, and chocolate brown eyes, but I can't. She will never be a monster to me even if she was the one responsible for Billy's death. Love is sickening it makes you love even your worst of enemies.
"I don't believe any of you." I growled.
"I'm sorry for leaving you, but I thought I was protecting you from future harm." she said with sympathy but I don't want sympathy.
I could feel the space around us get tighter as if she was suffocating me. Suffocating me into wanting to go with her, and be my old naive self. I can't let anyone control my life and especially not my feelings anymore. "I will never forgive you." I replied coldly, but I will never be as cold as her.
"Why can't you just forgive-"
"Leave me alone, I don't want you," I snarled as I took a step toward her and towered over her small frame. My hot breath trailed down onto her face enclosing our space even more. "You are dead to me, and there will never be a day when a vampire and werewolf will come over their differences and be together."
I could see the tears, that she was fighting back so hardly, but this time it wasn't going to get to me. I will not let her, make me feel guilty for making her feel so incredibly worthless.
"I hate you."
"The feeling is mutual." and with that last word spoken, she bolted into a run leaving me finally to myself.
I have always loved being surrounded in a huge forest by myself, because it was the one place that I could actually feel like myself. I'm not sure if it's because I am a werewolf and being in the woods is apart of my blood or if it's just nature looking so peaceful and serene.
Now, where am I going to go? Is the real question, because I can't go to Cullens, but do I really want to be with a pack again? I was doing so well on my own before, Leah had to come and show me what I was missing. She always seemed to be the one, who did that.
Flashback:
I was sitting outside in the garage working on the bike after Bella had left to go home to cook Charlie dinner. It has been nice, spending time with her but I just wish she could shut up about that Bloodsucker.
"Still working on that bike, I see." Leah said and I jumped, because I didn't know she was watching me.
I turned to face her, and saw she had a rain boots, jeans, and a rain jacket on with her hair pulled into a pony-tail. She always went for more of a simple tom-boy look, but it definitely fit her.
"Yeah, it's almost done."
"I saw that vampire-lover, just left." Leah stabbed, and I didn't find it worth my effort to argue about Bella's loyalty.
The awkward silence set in, and Leah took a seat next to me as she watched me work on the bike even more. Ever since, she had became a member of the pack, she never really tried to fit in with any of us. I guess I have the privilege of being the first she has opened up to.
"Bella, is not as bad as you think-"
"She, is only using you because she missing that bloodsucker," Leah said flatly as if she was being bored to death even having to talk about Bella for five minutes. "If she really cares about you, then she would make time for you even when she is with him." and with that said, she stood up and walked away.
I hated to admit it, but she was right. Bella, never tried to contact me when she was with that pale face.
End of flashback:
I think that was the day, when I finally understood that no matter what I would do for Bella, I wouldn't ever mean as much to her as Edward does. Bella, only used me to make her feel less alone, but now that I think about it, I did the same thing to Leah.
"Fuck." I mumbled to myself as I realized my mistake. I thought, I was perfection but I am nothing close to that. I used Leah to make me feel less alone, and I left her in the same state Bella and Renesmee left me in.
I need to apologize to Leah, for all the pain that I have caused her. She is a beautiful and sweet girl once you get to know her. She needs someone to appreciate all her flaws, because she is worth it.
"Hey, listen Leah was worried and asked for me to check on you." Seth said as he approached me slowly. I should have known, she would have someone check on me.
"I'm fine. I just need time to think about all of this." I told him truthfully, because I had no reason to lie.
"It's a messed up situation," Seth agreed. I always had gotten along with Seth, because he never cared about what Sam had to say, because to him, I was his mentor and his true leader. "We all do care about you. Especially, Leah because she defended you everyday when you were gone."
Typical Leah, always looking after me even when I didn't deserve it. I never fully understood why, she cared about my well-being. Maybe it is because I am a member of the pack and she cares about all of us equally. "She is always protecting me."
"She loves you, Jake. She has always loved you," Seth confessed to me in the dark forest. It had sent chills up my spine, all this time, I never knew. "She hated Bella for taking your attention, but more than that she hated Renesmee for stealing your heart away from her. Everything she has done for you, has been out of love for you."
Now it all makes sense, from her hating Renesmee to her protecting me from Sam's wrath. How could I have not seen it? How can I go back to the reservation with this news? This confession has changed my life forever.
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