Sorry if this is short... i typed it up on my phone because at the moment i dont have my computer with me.. haha. This is basically a filler chapter for the big event that is going to take place next chapter! (: anyways, hope you enjoy! please review! they mean the world! (:
Aria was waiting for Spencer to come and visit her for the day. She was always punctual and today she hasn't yet shown up. Ezra had visited her the previous day and his day wasn't until tomorrow so if Spencer didnt show up today, she would just have to wait until then. With only thirty minutes left to visiting hours, Aria was ready to give up on Spence ever showing up. Right before she grabbed her journal though to begin writing, a guard came to her cell.
"Your friend is here to visit you."
Aria quickly nodded her head and made her way over to the cell so he could handcuff her. Once she was handcuffed, he opened the cel door and she followed him down the long hallway to the visiting room.
"I didn't think you were coming today! I was about to..." Aria suddenly stopped speaking as she took in Spencer's disheveled look. "Oh my god! Spencer what is wrong?!"
Spencer looked up at her and her eyes were vacant with no emotion whatsoever. With five words Spencer responded. "I can't visit you anymore." She pushed the chair back and walked out the doors leaving Aria there with tears running down her cheeks. The guard came over to her and handcuffed her once more and took her back to her cell.
Once back in the cell, Aria pulled out the journal that Ezra had given to her and began writing in it. She poured all of her emotions onto three pages and tears were covering the pages, but she didn't care. All she cared about was that she had just lost another friend; her best friend at that. She laid down on the bed and cried herself to sleep.
Aria awoke at around lunch the next day and had slept through breakfast, but she didn't care. She was empty inside and she hoped Ezra would still come today and see her; she needed the comfort only he could provide. With only hope getting her through the first few hours of being awake, she waited not so patiently to see if Ezra would arrive. At the beginning of visiting hours, Ezra showed up right on time. She repeated the usually process and made her way down the long corridor to the visiting room. Ezra hugged her and she sat down across from him, gazing into his beautiful crystal blue eyes.
"So, Spencer is no longer going to come and see me. She said that she couldn't so this anymore. Have any idea why she would say something like that? It's been eating at me all night and I cried myself to sleep, Ezra. How could she just do this to me? She is my best friend and the one person I know I can trust other than you. She had always been there for me through thick and thin and I don't know how I can continue to be in this hell hole and not have any contact with her!" She all but screamed as tears rolled down her face.
Ezra looked at her sympathetically and then reached over and wiped the tears from his girlfriends face. He couldn't stand to see her this way. She already seemed a little distraught but now she was worse. He tentatively grabbed her hand and rubbed his thumb over her knuckles, trying his best to calm her.
"Aria, honey, I don't know why Spencer is doing this all of a sudden. If you want me too, I will try and talk to her and see what is going on. I know you haven't done anything to her to make her do this. I promise I will so whatever I can." He smiled at her reassuringly and she just nodded her head in response. Ezra could tell this was going to be a long visit. One that would be painful to sit through if she wasn't willing to speak to him. He continued to rub her hand and she stared at him, expressionless. He wanted nothing more than to take her home with him, cuddle on the couch and watch old movies, but he knew that was impossible and it would stay that way for a long time. Tears began feeling his eyes as he though about this and Aria soon snapped out out her haze and started speaking.
"Ezra! What's wrong? Why are you crying? Baby!"
He wiped a tear that had fallen from his eye and looked her in the eyes. "I was just thinking how I won't be able to take you home with me and how we won't be able to cuddle on my old leather couch and watch old movies like I know you would love too. It's hard coming in here, Aria. I'm sorry to have to say that, but it's the god honest truth and I honestly hate it. You have no idea. I love you, I really do, and I wouldn't trade you for anything in this world, but it's so hard walking in here to see you and know I can't leave with you. I might not show it, but I'm in serious pain, honey. There is a constant ache in my chest and I can't get rid of it. When I'm in class teaching, I always glance at that desk hoping that all of this is a nightmare and that you will suddenly be sitting there, but that never happens. The girls miss you, I know they do. They might not come and see you, but I know they miss you. We are good at faking how we feel, Aria. We have grown to accept the fact that you won't be getting out any time soon and we are gonna have to deal with this. I'm sorry to say all of this at once," Ezra rambled on.
Aria just stared at him blankly, not sure what exactly to say at first. She eventually found the words to speak though.
"Ezra, baby, I had no idea you felt that way. I mean I guess I should have known you did, but I guess I just tried not to think about it. I've out everyone through so much pain and I wish I wasn't in here. I am innocent, Ezra and I shouldn't be in here, yet here I am, having to have visitors. And you want to know the saddest part about all of this? I'm only 17 and having to do this. I have an ache in my chest too, everyday. One that is still there, taunting me. I'm sorry for all of the pain Ezra. I truly am."
They gazed at each other with pure love in their eyes. "Aria, I love you and I promise I'm not gonna stop visiting you. I will be here every other day just like always. You can count on that, okay?"
She nodded her head and then let the tears flow. "Ezra, thank you. Thank you for loving me and being there when I need you the most, but what I'm about to say is going to kill us both on the inside and I don't want to do this." She let out a sob and wiped her face before continuing, "I think you need to forget about me. I'm going to be in here for another fifteen years at least, and by then you can have the family I know you want. I don't want to hold you back from that. If I know I did, it would make me feel even more worse than I so at the moment. You need to be with someone who can be there with you at all times and who you can kiss and hug and make love to when ever you want. I don't want to be the reason you don't have a life you want. I'm sorry, but please do this for me. Stop all visits and move on. Forget about me and I will forget about you. Please. Please." She begged him as tears rolled down her face.
Ezra stood and nodded his head. "Okay. But just remember this one thing Aria. I would give up anything including the life I had planned just to be with you. I love you and that will never change. Goodbye," he said as he turned and walked out leaving aria with tears running down her face.
She went back into her cell and missed dinner too. She couldn't eat. She had literally made herself sick from what happened earlier. Why she had let the man she loved with all her heart go, she had no idea; the only thing she knew was that it was better for him in the long run. She cried uncontrollably all night long, not getting any sleep. She couldn't sleep. Not after all the pain she had caused herself and for Ezra.
