A/N: I've started adding a lot of my oneshots to

my profile so if you haven't already read then, go

on and give then a try (: One more thing, I will

NOT be able to update any of my stories

regularly because of tons of school work.

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Xx Strawberri

RPOV

My mind was chaotic, but my face betrayed nothing. After

the funeral and my confession to Seth, I had tucked

myself into my room and not left once. That was two

months, five days, four hours, and fifty-seven minutes

ago.

That I was hurting was to put it as simple as possible, so

simple that the stupidest person on earth could

understand instantly not only what was said, but also

what wasn't. How do you think you'd feel if you had no

meaning? No purpose? No drive? What if you stood still

and everyone else just kept passing by, only occasionally

stopping to ask if you're okay? What if you didn't even

wasn't them to stop? What of you wanted the seclusion,

the emptiness, the lack of happiness and need and want

and life because it made the pain real and didn't let you

forget a moment of what came before it?

That's how I am. I'm empty and alone to remember Jake

like he was forever imprinted into my mind.

Imprinted... He was my other half. We truly were meant

for each other, put together by his ancestor gods. Without

Jacob, I honestly don't know who I am. He's been with me

since the day I was born, and, until now, we had never left

each other's side for more than a day.

Now he was gone.

Forever.

But not in my memories. Over and over like a movie I kept

seeing my eyes meeting Jake's for the first time, Jake

telling mom my nickname, Jake protecting me, Jake

holding me, Jake hugging me, Jake sleeping with me to

keep the nightmares away, mine and Jake's first date, our

first kiss, our almost first time, our almost second time,

our last almost time, and, finally, my nightmare turned

reality: Jake's car crash. We had been through so much

on our short seven years together, but it would never be

enough, ever because we were supposed to have

forever.

Only now we didn't.

SPOV

As I left the cottage and phased, Paul and Embry's

thoughts filled my mind.

I showed them Renesmee, and they both sighed.

"She needs to at least eat!" Embry complained. "She's as

thin as a stick, and she was already skinny before!"

"Next time you go over, just pull her put the bed, Seth,"

Paul said. "Haul her down to La Push and show her what

she's missing out on staying camped up in her room like

that."

I thought it over.

"Paul, you're a genius!" I cried, almost to the La Push

borderline.

"Dude, I was kidding- Renesmee would flip out!"

"Oh well, that's where the saying the end justifies the

means applies," I told him.

Embry snorted. "Yeah, okay..."

I would finally break through to Renesmee- tomorrow.