Chapter Four: Miracle
Months went by since Phil passed. Lil was slowly going back to the way she was before Savannah and Samantha. Tommy, Chuckie and Kimi gladly accepted her back into their group. Rachel did her best to get to know Lil but Lil didn't show any interest in getting to know her. Lil knew that Tommy and Rachel liked each other, and she didn't know what it was, but she didn't approve of or like Rachel. Tommy would meet Lil at her locker every day and Rachel was always with him. It bothered her, but she never let it show.
One morning, Tommy was running late. And thankfully, Rachel wasn't at her locker. She was about to pull her last book when her locker door was shut. She jumped back because it scared her. She looked at the person that closed it "Jesus, Rachel. You almost gave me a heart attack."
Rachel crossed her arms "I know you don't like me."
Lil gave Rachel a weird look. Sure, it's true that she didn't like Rachel, but she had never told anyone. "And?"
"And I don't like you either. You wanna know why? Because Tommy likes you."
Lil laughed and started to walk away, Rachel following her. "That's not true, Rachel. Tommy likes you. I'm sure of it."
"Is that why you don't like me?" Rachel had grabbed Lil's arm to stop her from walking.
"I don't like you for other reasons. Tommy is my friend. I've known him my whole life" Lil wanted this conversation to end, or for Kimi, Chuckie, or anybody to walk over to them.
"I don't care." Rachel crossed her arms again "I can tell Tommy likes you by the way he looks at you."
"Why does it matter? I don't like Tommy."
"It matters because with you around, he won't want to date anyone else. God Lil, are you really this stupid? He's pretty much in love with you!"
Lil shook her head and started backing away "Look, I don't know where you're getting the idea that Tommy likes me, but it's crazy and not true. I have to get to class"
"One more thing" Rachel walked closer to Lil "It should have been you instead of Phil." Rachel walked away leaving Lil with tears in her eyes.
Lil ended up skipping her first period. She went straight to Kimi's locker when the bell rang and waited for her. Kimi finally walked over and looked at Lil with worry "What's wrong?"
Lil's eyes were red from crying and it made Kimi scared for what was going on. "Rachel.. She-" Lil was about to finish her sentence when Tommy and Rachel walked over.
Tommy looked at Lil and his smile fell "Lil... What's wrong?"
Lil glanced at Rachel was standing with her arms crossed and glaring at her. Lil wiped the tears away and then looked at Kimi "Where's Chuckie?"
"He should be at his locker or in his next class...Why?"
"I just.. I need to talk to him" Lil was about to walk by Rachel and Tommy but he stopped her.
"Lil, please. What's wrong?"
"I can't tell you" she gave Rachel one last glance and turned towards Chuckie's locker.
Kimi turned to Tommy and looked at Rachel "Can I talk to him alone?"
Rachel shrugged and walked off. Tommy looked at Kimi "What?"
"Rachel. Rachel's the problem." Kimi closed her locker and looked at Tommy who looked confused.
"What are you talking about, Kimi?"
Kimi rolled her eyes. "Figure it out, Tommy."
Lil walked until she found Chuckie's locker and he wasn't there. She turned around and sighed, she didn't know what his next class was, she knew that Chuckie would understand. What Rachel had wasn't something anyone would want to hear. Lil was looking at the ground trying not to let it show that she was starting to cry again when she ran into someone.
"Lil?"
She looked up and saw Tommy. He had his hands on her arms "I'm sorry Tommy. But I have to get to class" she went to walk off but he stopped her and made her look at him.
"What did Rachel do?" she looked up at his face and could tell that he really wanted to know.
"It's nothing. Really. I have to go" Lil pushed past him and started walking towards her Kimi's class. She got there and saw her getting ready to sit down.
She ran in and grabbed Kimi's arm pulling her out of the class "I have to talk to you. I couldn't find Chuckie, but I need someone"
"Tell me. What did Rachel do?" it had bothered Kimi about what was wrong with Lil. And she knew that she wasn't planning on telling her if Rachel or Tommy were around.
Lil told Kimi what Rachel had said this morning. Kimi thought about it for a second before standing up "That bitch! She may have been right about one thing, but no. Bringing up Phil is too far"
"Technically she didn't bring Phil up, Kim. She just said it should have been me"
"I never liked her. Tommy was better off-" Kimi stopped talking before she said something that would make Tommy mad at her.
"Tommy was better off, what?" Lil asked raising her eyebrow at Kimi.
Kimi looked away from Lil, trying to think of something else to say "He's better off... Staying single! Next time I see Rachel, I swear"
Lil sat down against the wall "I didn't care what she was saying at first, but then she said that and it just..."
"Hurts." Lil nodded as she wiped away the tears.
Tommy was walking through the halls trying to think of what Rachel would have done to Lil to make her so upset. He didn't want to go to class, and he was pretty sure that Lil didn't want to go to class either. He was about to keep walking straight when he heard voices so he turned the corner. He stopped when he saw Lil and Kimi.
"Tommy Pickles! You better control that girl of yours before I hurt her!" Kimi said walking over to him "If you even knew what she said to Lil, you'd probably want to hurt her too!" Kimi turned and walked back over to Lil. Tommy was standing there, still confused as to what Rachel did to Lil. He made eye contact with Lil. He knew that whatever it was really hurt her.
He turned and walked away and to Rachel's class. He texted her and told her to meet him in the hall and she did. "I have a question for you."
"What is it?" Rachel seemed so happy and nice, but Tommy was starting to have second thoughts about her.
"What did you say to Lil this morning that made her so upset?"
Rachel rolled her eyes and leaned against the wall "I told her something. And no, I'm not telling you what it is, because you know what it is."
Tommy thought about it for a second before meeting Rachel's eyes "You told her I liked her?" Rachel nodded and Tommy shook his head "There's more to it than just that."
"I would never say anything to Lil that would hurt her, you should know me better than that. I have to get back to class. I'll see you later" Rachel turned and walked into her class before he could say anything else.
Lil walked home that day still upset over what Rachel had said. Nothing has ever bothered her so bad before. She sighed as she walked into her house. She hated having to walk home alone, and she hated that her house was so quiet now. She walked by Phil's room, no one had been in there since the day she came home. Her mom was supposed to clean his room out but Lil is pretty sure she hasn't. She took a deep breath and opened his bedroom door. She looked around, it was weird being in his room after avoiding it for so long. She looked at his walls, he had pictures of the gang over by his computer, and then by his bed he had pictures of just the two of them from when they were babies, to toddlers, and a few years ago.
Lil turned and walked out of his room. No matter how long has passed it would still be hard for her to be in there. She walked to her room and fell onto her bed. "It should have been you instead of Phil" the words were still running through head. She felt the tears starting to fall again. "Maybe she's right... It should have been me." Lil said to herself in a whisper. That thought had crossed her mind many times since Phil died, but actually hearing someone else say it broke her heart. She closed her eyes, just wanting sleep to take over so she could forget about this day.
"Lillian... Please, wake up, Lillian."
Lil woke up to the sound of a voice. A voice she hasn't heard in a long time. Phil. She opened her eyes and looked around. She was in a white room. It looked like a hospital room. She looked next to her and saw her brother. He was holding her hand and looking at the ground. "Phil...?" Lil felt like she could barely talk. It felt like she hadn't talked in years.
Phil looked up and had tears running down his face "Thank god, you're awake!" Phil jumped up and gave her a hug.
"What are you talking about?" Lil had seen Phil cry plenty of times, but she never seen him so upset before.
"You've been in a coma. For almost five months. I was so scared that you weren't going to come out of it" Phil started crying again. He had never been so scared in his life. Losing his sister was the last thing he wanted.
Lil stared at him and felt tears starting to form. All that happened to her, it was just a dream. Phil was still alive. She had never been happier to be awake. "I had...I had the worst dream, Phil. You... You died. And Tommy was wanting to date-" her sentence was cut off by Tommy, Kimi, Chuckie and Rachel walking in.
"Lil!" Kimi ran over to her and gave her a hug "I was so scared. Phil never left your side"
"We've been here everyday. They told Phil that there was probably no chance of you waking up, but Phil refused to believe it." Chuckie said walking over to give her a hug.
Lil gave her best smile as the tears started to fall. Tommy smiled at her as he walked over and gave her a hug. Phil looked at Lil "What were you saying about that dream?"
"Right. And Tommy was wanting to date her." Lil pointed over at Rachel who was a little taken back by what Lil said.
"Wait, you had a dream that I wanted to date Rachel?" he asked, trying to control his laughter.
Lil nodded and Tommy shook his head "Rachel's just a friend."
Lil looked at Phil "You have no idea how glad I am to see you, Phillip."
She was happier than she had ever been. She almost was the one that didn't make it. She's lucky to have a brother like Phil. And as they talked she did learn that Phil never left her side, not once. He didn't want to miss anything. Even though they were fighting when the accident happened and before it happened, this is her brother. Her best friend. Her twin, and she would be completely lost without him.
