Chp 5

As I lay in Percys bed, watching his peaceful face, I couldn't help feeling my heart ache. He was leaving today, and I would be left again back to my normal life. I had gone from remembering what it felt like to have the Prince Charming then have my heart break more.

I rested my fingertips on his skin, having my last touch of his sweet skin. He had made me forget how it felt like to feel broken, but he also showed me that I wasn't that broken.

I still had a family, friends, a life. I never saw it as always being my choice. I always saw it as life having been planned already. And I was happier, that he made me see that I'm not that different to other people.

But I was just that much more different compared to him. He had it all going for hm from the day he was born. Here I was, trying to plan how I wanted my own life to be at age sixteen. And I still spent a night in his cabin, and he's twenty.

But I don't regret it. Because then I wouldn't have seen my true self now. But that still didn't change that he was leaving. I shouldn't care, he's not even mine. Never will be.

But I felt like we could have something, something more than this. I wanted it so bad. Why couldn't I just stay with him? Because he leaves tomorrow for Yale and I don't see him for a year, and he cheats on me with some girl and breaks up on the phone.

That's what happens with long distance relationships. I kissed his forehead once more before taking my things and leaving. Every step I took away from him, the further my desire for him grew. He was what I wanted, but I can't have him.