I just look at him not knowing what to say. I guess I should have expected, hell no guessing about it, I should have known he would come, but still seeing him there catches me off guard.

'Hey Sam,' he says to me. 'Are you going to invite me in or what?' He follows in a light voice. I think about slamming the door in his face, seeing it play out in my minds eye like the way they do on sitcoms sometimes. Then part of me realises that I do need this, I need to talk to him, I need some questions answered so I just walk back into my living room leaving the door open for him to follow.

I hear the front door close and his footsteps coming towards me but I have my back turned. I can't stop thinking about how I felt yesterday, how much I would have given to just be in the same room as him, to be here with him. Now that it's happening part of me just wants to run and the other part seems intent on torturing myself by talking to him. Strange how things turn out.

'Sam, are you alright? You've been quiet with me since we got back on world.' He asks and I can't believe it, he's not going to tell me, he's going to treat me like I'm the one who changed.
'Shouldn't I be asking you that?' I reply, turning to face him. 'I mean you're the one who's been stuck on Edora for the past three months'

He takes a step towards me but I step back not wanting him anywhere near me.

'Sam what's the matter? I've missed you'
'Isn't there something you want to tell me Sir?' I ask knowing my use of rank will get a reaction
'Sir? So when did we go back to that?' He asks sounding confused.
I don't know why, but at this point I just snap, I hate that he is playing dumb, but I don't know what makes this sentence the one that breaks me but it does and I find myself yelling at him 'Since you spent the past three months on Edora fucking around while I worked my ass off trying to get you home'
'Sam'
'What? You thought you'd gotten away with it, that I'd be stupid enough to not realise?'
'No'
'Then what, that I'd pretend nothing happened? Just go back to what we had?'
'Sam, no…..' but I don't let him finish
'Well what then, you come here acting like nothing happened'
'I was gonna tell you'
'When? When were you going to tell me, when you were holding me, after kissing me? Oh no, I get it. You came here for a fucking lay, and then if it came up you might have enlightened me.'
'No I wouldn't have….'
'What pretended nothing had changed, because that's what you were already doing'
'I WAS LOST' He shouts, losing his temper
'AND SO WAS I'

We just look at each other, seconds ticking into minutes and just silence, and not the comfortable ones we used to share.

'Why did you give up on me?' I ask in a much calmer voice
'This is not just about you, you know' he says, anger dripping through his voice.
'Jack you screwed up, I deserve answers' my voice staying low and even.
'I thought I'd never get home, if it hasn't escaped you notice I'm not as brainy as you, I thought the gate was gone.'
'What about the Tollan, or the Tok'ra or god even the Asguard?' I ask him
'What about them?' he asks looking confused.
'Space travel. Didn't you figure that eventually one of them would come for you?'
'No' he reply's simply

'So after giving up all hope, pretty easily may I add, how long did it take to jump into that bitch's bed'
'She's not a bitch'
'So not the right answer'
'What do you want, for me to lie to you, to tell you that she was an evil, vindictive cow who seduced me when I was pining for you?'
'That would be a start' I bite at him
'No, you want me to be truthful, so here it is,' he pauses. 'I never gave up hope, not for ages. I tried to dig up the gate but the villagers needed my help, we had to rebuild before the harvest. And before you say anything you would have done the same thing.'
'Yes I would have, but then I wouldn't have followed it up by cheating on you'
I see something change in his eyes

'That's what you think I did?'
'Did you or did you not have sex with someone else?'
He just looks away
'Then yes, you cheated on me' I tell him, barely managing to say the last part. My tears starting again I sink down onto the sofa.
'Sam, baby please don't cry' he says sitting next to me, trying to put his arm around me but I just flinch away from him.

He stands back up, looking hurt. 'Don't you dare' I sob at him, 'Don't you dare stand there acting like you're the hurt one in all this'
'Well I'm not exactly peachy'
'You told me you loved me' I shout at him.
'I do lo...'
'Don't say it' I beg. 'Just don't you dare say it.' Then after a few deep breaths 'I think you should leave'
'Sam…' he starts to say
'Jack please just go'

He starts to walk away. 'For what it's worth Sam, I did miss you, my heart ached for you.'

I look up but he has gone. I hear him close the front door behind him, and as the click of the door echoes around my empty house, I sit here and uncontrollably sob my heart out.