Because, in truth, all she needs is reasurance, support, and love in order to go on. Her Innocence is more than willing to give her all that she needs.


Because We Love You

Tell us of your dreams, Lenalee-chan. Mind you, we already know your every dream. It is you who seem to have forgotten them. But do not worry, we will remind you.

Instead, will you tell us of your hope? This we know you still possess and will always remember. Perhaps you do not realize this, but you move your hope; it shifts between groups and individuals, and flickers, hides, races in circles with each new battle, or death, or fragment of Innocence lost or found. Often we have trouble finding it amongst, or even within the pieces you have split your soul into, but we always search until it is in our grasp again.

'Puzzle pieces' is what you call all the tiny sections you have divided yourself into. Puzzles pieces would be a very fitting way to describe your soul except that that is not how souls work. Puzzles have a set number of pieces, they have predefined borders, and they have an end, a point at which they are complete. Souls are not finite, they do not recognize such things as borders, and they never simply end. Not even in death. Furthermore, you cannot replace a piece of your soul once lost as there is no such thing as an exact replica in life- not in actions or words, in photographs, keys, or even in clones. If lost, could anyone ever take the places in your heart that Allen Walker, Kanda, or Ni-san occupy?

We don't suppose it really matters how you describe your soul, your world, or even how you view it. We care only that these things are preserved.

Once, all of you crumbled, fell into the sea, and tried to drown- both figuratively and literally. Was it really all that surprising that we jumped the metaphorical ship? It is not as if we left you or would ever let you actually drown. We held you just at the surface and let you flounder, gasp for air, and decide if you again wanted to fly.

We did not worry. As well as we know you, we already knew your answer. Yes, your decision took longer than we would have liked, but eventually you dragged your self-made Atlantis from the ocean floor. It will take time to dry out your battered wings and repair all of the buildings damaged by the pressure, but at least your world is at sea level again. You can truly breathe now. We can breathe. We wonder if, perhaps, we should have pushed you harder.

We know that we are cruel, but is because we so love you, Lenalee-chan. We are cruel because this is the only way we know how to protect you. Gladly we will push you, hurt you, and abandon you. Gladly we will always return to you and help rebuild what is left of you. We will repeat this process as many times as we must in order to make you strong. Gladly we will do all this, suffer all this, if only because we love you.

We cannot love a corpse and there is nothing to be done for one who has given up. All you must do is live and we will love you. All you must do is fight and we will be there for you. We will be there for you when Allen Walker is consumed, when Kanda Yuu turns to dust, when Lavi leaves, and when Ni-san dies- or, as is more likely, when they are all killed. But do not fear, Lenalee-chan. Because we love you we will always be there for you.

So long as we are with you, you should have no fear at all. And yet you still fear a great deal. We imagine that we know your fears even better than we know your dreams. Indeed, we know every wish and regret, every nightmare and waking fear- warranted or not. We know everything you should fear but inexplicably do not and vice versa. We are all but plagued by these things. You fear loneliness, but not death. You fear survival and failure both. You fear your allies, but not Akuma. You fear Noah, but not your allies. Ha! We are not sure if we should laugh or cry, or simply attack the whole lot.

You are such a deranged and naïve child, beloved. Yet these qualities are, in part, why we love you so. Your despair and fear gave you truer vision and helped us in giving you an astounding strength all your own. So why do you still bother to rely on others when you know that you can rely on us? Why do you stay with the Dark Order and trust those around you when you have us? We are thankful that they brought you to us, but are you any happier than we are that they later betrayed and imprisoned you for dubious reasons- for any reasons? We may hold you, keep you, hurt you, but only because we love you.

Tell us of your resolve, Lenalee-chan. Tell us what you will do when those you love more than the world are gone. There is no certainty that you can keep them, but you can keep us. All you need is us, so why do you still feel that you need them? Why do you still want them? Tell us, what will you do, what will happen to you as the Dark Order continues to demand the impossible and perpetuates their cruelty? And when they betray you again? Tell us, what will you do when your puzzle pieces leave or die on you?

We know what you will do: you will crumble. But because we love you we will be there for you. Because we love you we will continue to repair you and return you to the front lines. As much as you hate this war you need to be a part of it, just as we do. You hate us for putting you in this war, for keeping you in it, and for trying to protect you from it. We love you just as much as you hate us. But we do not mind.

Whether we have no choice but to love you due to the nature of what we are, or if it is truly by choice that we gladly suffer unrequited love… even we do not know. We do not mind the 'not knowing' either. By force or choice, that we love you is all that matters.

We returned to you after you nearly drowned because you promised to fight with us, to be with us, live for us. Only because of our love for you did we concede to your promise to Ni-san. Do you see how much we love you by allowing you to give even a part of yourself to any other? As Innocence we are cruel, just as we said. We are also incredibly selfish, not only because we are Innocence, but also because we so love you. Do not be angry with us for this. Is not the way that humans love also selfish? Even if our love is the only kind that is so, we cannot, we will not change it.

So long as you live, and even in death, we will love you. So long as you fight with us and for us we will be there for you. Just as much as you hate the Noah and Akuma… as much as you hate God and us, we love you and do not wish to be parted from you. Even when you do not need us or want us, we will do all that is in our power to stay by your side.

Because we love you we will never let you go, our dearest Lenalee-chan.


So, tell me what you think of Lenalee and her kind of creepy Dark Boots.