AN: This is a slightly disappointing end (in term of being rushed), but it's all I could come up with in the little time I had. Thanks to everyone who enjoyed this and supported me through out. And I'm sorry again to those that were following ''Someone like you''. Till we meet again…(when I have another story and lots of time). You guys are amazing!
Lets just assume Lindsey Harper's song was done by Jane huh. Just for this STORY. Thanks
Jane turned around on the same spot until she felt dizzy. The brunette was trying, and failing, to take everything in at the same time. This was her house, their house. She could hardly believe it. It would have to be a few more weeks until it all sank in. It would have to be much longer until everything that transpired in the previous six months, leading to this moment, finally took root within her.
Today was her first morning in their new house – her and Maura. It had taken a million plus compromises to finally reach that point. Doctor Isles had been – obviously – used to extravagant houses, posh furniture, and luxurious cars. Not that she flaunted it, it was just what she had. But Detective Rizzoli was the complete opposite, and part of their 'living together' arrangement was that they meet half way (sensibly so).
So together, they had purchased a moderately sized three-bedroomed home in an average neighbourhood in Maryland. Jane had had all the belongings she held dear shipped to Maryland where Maura and herself had arranged everything to suit both their likes. In no way was it easy. Jane wanted her sports stuff everywhere, while Maura insisted on her African tribal masks being hung on the wall. But because what mattered most to them was that they were together, and not what their rooms looked like, the two ended up finding things like a yoga room and mini gym sharing the same four walls.
It was summer now, beautiful and warm in the lovely state. Jane made a quick breakfast, just like Maura liked it, and set everything out on their deck. The blonde loved the morning fresh air, while Jane just enjoyed watching Maura smile. Jane promised herself that today would be the first of many breakfasts in their home. She promised herself that she would always be there to prepare oats, and fruit for Maura in the morning. She swore to herself that she'd never love again. Maura had her heart, and that was final. When she looked back to how far they had come, in merely seven months of knowing each other, she couldn't help but want to cry and laugh at the same time.
Rosario had taken the news relatively well at first, but had gradually become livid over the whole situation. On the second Sunday dinner after her confrontation with Jane (just before Christmas), she had requested that the brunette attend the dinner. And because Jane was in no position to say no to the friend she had betrayed, she went. Only to find out that Roe's attempt at making her pay was to make Jane announce what she had done to her family and friends.
Jane hadn't really done done anything if you were to look at the situation objectively...but still. Rosario knew that no manner of shouting or revenge would bring Maura back to her. Nothing she did or said was going to make Jane and Maura fall out of love – it was unfortunate like that. But she knew Jane valued her respect, her honor, and her dignity. And making Jane humiliate herself personally was the worst thing that could ever happen to the detective.
And so Roe had told the family, including Frost and Korsak that Jane had something she needed to say. The brunette was obviously not expecting this and had endured a minor artificial stroke upon realizing what was actually happening. Either way, the truth was going to come out that night, so Jane decided to just spill the beans – she owed it to Rosario. Painfully, Jane explained the events that had taken place since Maura arrived in Boston, and the details that led to her ultimate break-up with Rosario. Everyone was gobsmacked. No one had for a second imaged that Jane would have something to do with the collapse of Rosario's relationship, but as it turned out, she had everything to do with it.
Jane's heart shattered as she saw the look of disappointment in her mothers eyes. Her heart exploded into a billion particles when Frankie had told her he didn't look up to her anymore. He said to her – and Jane remembered these words precisely – ''family looks out for each other. Family doesn't betray one another. Rosario is like a sister to us, and you had to take away the person she loved'', his rage had only increased after those words, ''do I have to be afraid of bringing my girlfriend over to family events now? How am I, or anyone else here for that matter, supposed to trust you to not do that again after this?''. Frankie had walked away, not waiting for a reply from his sister.
Angela was not at all pleased with her daughters actions, but she understood to an extent. She wouldn't say this to anyone, because they might look at it the wrong way, but she had an idea of why Jane had done what she did. She knew her daughter. And things like loyalty and love came naturally to her. That is why she had not been in a serious relationship before. No matter how much Angela pushed, she knew deep down Casey and Dean were not for Jane. And to now see Jane risk all of what had happened for Maura, Angela was sure Jane had found true love. The circumstances were not ideal, granted, but it was what it was. The elder Rizzoli knew without doubt that Jane was smart, meaning she would have figured that eventually all of this was going to come out. If this girl wasn't worth all the discord in her Janie's life, then Jane would have put a stop to everything the minute it began. But Maura was worth it, and Angela knew it. She didn't want to support it, because Rosario was like a daughter to her too. But there was no way of stopping it either.
''Morning Sunshine'', Jane greeted Maura when she walked onto the deck looking like one of God's angels. The blonde had a white short summer dress, and she wore flip flops on her feet. It was amazing how this woman could get herself so together that early in the morning. Jane was still in her pyjama shorts and a camisole.
''Morning'', Maura placed a kiss to Jane's waiting lips.
They both sat down and enjoyed their breakfast. Maura, ever organized, went through the weekend itinerary she had planned. Since finalizing Jane's move, they hadn't had any time to just relax and be. Having this weekend off, meant the two could at least do something eventful – in an exciting way.
After Jane's partial abandonment from her family, she had finally called Maura. It must have been close to a week since the blonde had last called her - the day Rosario had shown up at Jane's apartment. Jane was busy trying to sort things out with her life (family, work, etc.) without having to throw Maura into the mix. She didn't want to call the blonde before she was sure of what exactly was going on, and she didn't want to worry Maura with details of everything that was happening in Boston.
But when she finally got around to calling Maura, she learned that the doctor had been emotionally crippled since their last talk. In her attempt to spare Maura the burden, she had actually increased it. The woman shared how she thought Jane wanted nothing to do with her – getting a little hysterically while at it. But when she finally calmed down, Jane began to explain all that had transpired. And just like Jane had assumed, Maura took it badly, blaming herself entirely for the situation.
But after that call, they began conversing everyday, leading to twice a day, and ultimately all the time (text messages, emails, and all). Jane spent her first Christmas alone that year. For Maura it was nothing unusual. But since they only had each other for company, they skyped almost the whole day, getting to know more and more about each other. That night Jane had fallen asleep in tears in an inebriated state. She missed her family and friends so dearly, and she felt so alone. She tried to decipher how it was possible that finding the one thing she had searched for since her teen years could cost her everything else. She got no answer, and felt as hollow as could be.
When New Years came along, and Jane had three days off, she went to Maryland for the first time. Both her and Maura were reluctant about this, but sooner or later they were going to have to cross that step right? And after having the worst holiday of her life only a week ago, Jane had her best holiday. The three days she spent with Maura were the best since forever ago for her. They shut off all their insecurities and guilt, and just enjoyed each others company. They made love for the first time – it wasn't possible not to after sharing their first kiss.
...
It was Valentines Day night that Maura showed up at Jane's door step. She knew Jane was home alone and wanted to surprise her – it worked. They shared their first Valentine's together, made love all night and talked and talked. And so the next day Jane had found the courage to ask Maura to be her girlfriend – officially. Till that moment they had been skirting around the issue of titles, both unsure whether it was too soon or unwelcome. But when Jane asked, Maura didn't even have to think about it, it only felt natural to make things official.
About six weeks later, the topic of at least living together was now like a blanket constantly covering them. When Maura was with Rosario, she hadn't felt completely consumed by the need to be together almost constantly. In fact, they were both quite content with the arrangement they had to some extent. But with Jane it was a whole different ball game. Not only did Maura want to be in the same state as Jane, she wanted them to be under the same roof – forever and ever. It sounded silly, even to her. But that's just what she felt. And her and Jane had got to a stage, albeit too quickly, where they always shared what was on their mind. And when Maura mentioned this, it came as a surprise that Jane was also wishing for this. Maura had been so unsure.
''I'm move there'', Jane had said.
''But…your family, and work'', Maura tried to reason.
Jane's voice had cracked as she said her next words. It was an unspoken agreement that they never mentioned Rosario, not even fleetingly. ''Roe asked not to flaunt this in her face, I hardly spend time with my family anymore Maur. And I can get work there'', Jane had successfully answered all of Maura's questions.
''I'm sorry'', the apology had came out for the first time. Maura never said it during the course of their time together, but Jane knew Maura carried more guilt than she did. Maura was sorry for having been the one that pulled Jane away from her family. She had hurt Rosario, broken her and Jane's friendship, and driven Jane's friends and family away. Jane saw it in her eyes every time, how sorry Maura was. She had told the blonde not to say it every time the words and reached her lips. Jane kept trying to reassure Maura that it wasn't entirely her fault. That it was the both of them, and that they would live through everything together.
So just like that, Jane's moving arrangements began. The brunettes plan had been to apply for a transfer into the Maryland police force, but was saddened to hear that they were not in need of a detective at the moment. Looking closely at Jane's CV, the Lieutenant in Maryland had agreed to make Jane a floating detective at first, until a permanent position arose. It was an insult to her skills, but she had no choice.
That was of course until Maura spoke with an attorney she had crossed paths with a few times. She asked him if they were any jobs to suit Jane's skill set, and as it so happened there was. The defense attorney was in need of a Private Investigator for his affluent corporation. Upon reading Jane's CV and meeting the brunette in person, he was more that convinced that she was the woman for the job.
Jane couldn't have said no even if she wanted to. She was getting paid almost three times more her previous salary, and she still got to do what she loved. Some aspects of the job where going to cover things she didn't know in detail, mainly law, so the brunette was subjected to six months of Law training before carrying out a case on her own. Either way, she loved it. It was going to give her plenty of time with Maura, and she was going to do something she loved but in a less life threatening environment. If her she was still as close to her mother as she was before, she knew the elder woman would have been so proud of her.
Resigning was more of a relief to her. Working at the BPD was no longer fun. Her relationships with her partners had become tentative, and Frankie avoided her whenever he could. Both her and Rosario stayed out of each others way, and everything just got plain weird. But when she announced she was leaving, it didn't make anyone happy. They hated what she did, but they didn't hate her.
It must have been the huge step she took in leaving her job and moving to a different state that smoothed out the relations around her. In the days before her departure, her friends and family began to speak with her more and more. Angela obviously wept and begged that her daughter not leave, but it was too late. Rosario came to understand the full extent of Jane and Maura's love, if they were buying a house together and Jane was completely changing her life. It was that alone, that lead to Rosario forgiving Jane and Maura. She wasn't ready to tell them yet, but deep down it was decided – they were forgiven.
The last chapter of Jane's life in Boston was finally closed down the first week of June when she completely moved to Maryland. The trips done to move were done alone – where Jane and Maura had gone house hunting and all. Maura hadn't seen anyone from Boston since that Thanksgiving visit. Angela had wanted to escort her daughter, but Jane refused. What they were doing was too fast, but for some reason Maura meeting everyone else seemed too soon. Jane had promised her family that they could come to visit after she had settled in well, and they said they would. The agreed date was July the fourth apparently. They would just have to see how that worked out in the next coming weeks.
''Come here'', Jane called Maura after they had dinner on Sunday night.
Maura was in the kitchen clearing up the plates and all the other mess from the moving and from their weekend. Tomorrow was going to be her day back to work, and Jane's first first day altogether. ''I'm coming, let me just put the plates in the dishwasher.
''Okay''
When Maura entered the living room, it was to see Jane sitting by her piano. The whole time they had been together she had never asked Jane to play. She so desperately wished the brunette would play, but she knew it was a sensitive topic and she didn't want to push things.
''I want to play something for you'', Jane said without looking up at Maura. The doctor couldn't believe her ears. Not only was Jane playing, but she was playing for her. She hadn't the vocabulary to respond, so she swallowed hard and walked towards Jane.
The brunette quickly stood up and pulled a chair for Maura to sit on a little further to her side, before sitting herself back on her small piano bench.
''That day, after the wedding…'', Jane started. She knew Maura knew which day she was referring to. It was seven months ago, but it felt like just two weeks back. ''…I started to compose a song for you''
''Really?'', Maura gasped.
''Yeah. You were just as special to me back then Maura, and I didn't know how else to express myself. There was so much going on and I couldn't understand half of it'', Jane rambled.
And after a minute of silently composing herself, she began to play the cords.
It was heaven to Maura's ears. She had never doubted Jane was good, but to actually hear it and see her play – the words to describe it weren't there. And then Jane began to sing in her deep throaty voice –
'' In the space between what's wrong and right,
You will find me waiting for you.
All your fortresses go down in the night.
To the dawn I'll see you through.
'Cause I know, that you know,
You're all over me now.
And it's clear, it will show,
Your curtains will close.
But if your heart is cold, my sheets are warm.
I will shelter you through the storm.
I will shelter you all through the storm.
The answers aren't so easy to find,
The questions will have to do.
'Cause I've lost myself deep in your life,
My only fix is you…..
Maura had learnt one thing – among others – since meeting Jane. And that was 'tears of joy'. Never in her life had she cried that brand of tears before. But during the course of her relationship with Jane (since her guilt about Rosario began to slowly wear off), the only tears she knew were those of Joy. From Jane asking her out, to Jane moving to Maryland, to them buying a house together, and all the things in between.
Maura padded her eyes with the small tissue in her hand as Jane came to the last cords of the song. It was all for her. ''Th-that was beautiful'', she said, voice thick with emotion.
Jane wasn't sure if it was the song itself, or the gesture. She was going to have to inquire another time, when Maura wasn't too caught up in the moment.
''I'm glad you liked''
''I loved it'', Maura stood from her chair, threw herself onto Jane's lap and engulfed the woman into a strong hug. ''and I love you''
''Love you too'', Jane got out through the vice grip Maura had on her.
The blonde eventually let go, wiped her tears and looked at Jane seriously. ''This is the place between wrong and right. Where we are right now. I know it didn't come to be, the right way, the safe way, the less hurtful way. But regardless, it came to be. I grew up hearing people say love is messy. I could never understand why something that was meant to be right, something that was meant to be beautiful and good could be messy. But I understand now. And I learnt the best way – through experience. Or maybe not the best in this case'', she amended. ''But I know now, and I understand. And I love you Jane, more than I have ever loved anyone in my life''
''I know'', Jane said as Maura wiped the tear running down the brunettes tan chick.
''It may seem too soon, this step that we have taken. But I have no doubt we are headed in the right direction. I will work for this relationship Jane, and I will fight for you. I will do everything I can to keep us happy, and to be the best friend, and partner that I can be to you''
Jane nodded, and Maura pulled her into a strong kiss of conviction, solidifying her words with actions.
And after yet another night of passionate love making, Maura and Jane would be faced with the first day of their new lives. Together, they were beginning a new chapter in their lives. It was a new page, where they were now a 'we', and not separate individuals. They were going to learn to be partners, and deal with all the good and difficult times that came with that.
They had forgiven themselves for what they had done, and had moved on from it. The people in Boston were clearly doing the same. With time, Jane and Maura were sure they would all be able to come together as a family and love one another like they did before.
Together, they had found that fine line. That very tiny almost imperceptible line between what was right and what was wrong. And that's where they were surviving together – heavily leaning on right. In the end, they knew some people would never forgive what they did, but it didn't matter so much now. Life happens, it doesn't come with a manual and list of do's and don'ts. No one on earth was God, and therefore had no right to continuously judge them for loving each other. God had created love, and they had found it – period.
AN: If in the future I get time, I will write a long one-shot sequel to how these two got on with their new life together. Thanks again for the time you took to read this you guys…
