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Chapter 2: Nightmares and Determination

'Where am I?'

Fields of black roses came in rows endlessly. Everything is so dark. Nothing can be seen, except for the infinite rows of roses.

But there, in the midst of the darkness, a glow was visible.

I came closer. But everytime I do, it just gets farther and farther from me. I ran, desperate for the light. Finally, it stopped moving.

I got closer and closer. To see that it wasn't light. No, it wasn't.

A young girl, a child with beautiful flowing blonde hair in white. Her back was turned to me, I couldn't see her face. But I knew who it was. It was Gem. My precious Gem.

She knelt down, gracefully as she did so, but her back was still facing me. She picked up a beautiful black rose. She stood up, admiring it for a moment, and faced me.

I expected to see two beautiful glowing sky-blue eyes, but what greeted me was black. I stumbled backwards, falling on the bed of roses.

Her eyes, she had no eyes. Two empty sockets greeted me, a grin so wide it tore up her face. Blood was pouring from her eyes, staining the black rose she held to red. She spoke.

"Why didn't you save me, Bell?" This isn't her voice. This isn't her. She tilted her head, the grin never once faltering. "I thought you loved me."

She knelt down, she leaned in, and whispered so lowly in my ear, it was almost like a demons,

You don't deserve to live.


"Mistress, young mistress!"

I jolted awake, my some of my hair glued to my head because of sweat. Panting, I look to see at my side, Eynaglene, my maid. She was holding a candelabra, I can see her face which is etched in pure concern. I look at the clock on the wall, I squint to see in the dark, and it read, 3:15 am.

"Young mistress," I turn my attention to the brunette, "bad dream again?" she smiles warmly. My breathing finally slowed and I force a smile.

"Yes, Eyna. Thank you for coming to my aid. I'm sorry as well to disturb you in this stormy night."

She merely smiles and shakes her head. "It's nothing, dear mistress. Now off you sleep. Mickael will wake you up early. Tomorrow is a very special day after all. We're going to England!" I smile at her childish squeal. I let her push me down the bed and lay the blanket over me. She gives me a soft 'goodnight' and disappears in the room and into the dark hallways of my mansion.

I gave out a breath I had been holding. Eyna, she always treats me like her sister. She was even kind enough not to ask about the dream I had. I smile, I'm lucky to have her and the servants of my household. Too bad I can't grow up with them some more.

I can't let these feeling of mine get in the way of my real ones. And by 'real ones' I mean what I should be feeling.

Hate ,Disgust ,Regret, Remorse.

If I stay beside happiness, I'll lose myself and I can't bear that. For Gem, for Ice and for everyone else. Each time I close my eyes to sleep, I can feel them. I can feel them watching me so intently, it burns my soul. It deepens the scar in my heart and the memories keep flashing back to me instantly.

3 years. It had been exactly 3 whole painful years. I reach for the side of my neck and clutch at the symbol. I close my eyes, and opened them again.

"Are you sure he's in England, Mickael?" A small wind made my blanket and her fly a little. I sat up again, and looked at the man bowing down to me. He slowly raises his head and gives me a small smile.

"Of course, Mistress. Have I ever been wrong?" I scoff. I close my eyes again, ignoring the searing pain at the back of my neck. I exhale.

I open my eyes with new found determination, "Ciel Phantomhive, I'm coming for you."

Little did I know, that Mickael had been glaring at the crow by my window. I swear that I saw it's eyes gleam red like Mickael's. But as I look back again, it flew away. And as I slept that night I can't seem to shrug off the feeling I was being watched.


Mickael is different from Michael. It's pronounced as Micka-el. Two syllables :) Thank you again for reading! Don't forget to hit me up on Tumblr! :)