Two months had passed and mum hadn't even called. I was getting angrier and angrier by the day, not necessarily because she didn't call, but because I'd ran out of things to say to Sam.
"Is mummy okay?"
"I don't know Sammy."
"Is mummy coming back?"
"I don't know Sammy."
I noticed a difference in Sammy too. Not once did I see him cry, not once did he fall asleep before I did. He was always either reading Bobby's books or writing. If not doing that he was staring blankly into space. This made Cas cry, so many hugs ensued. It was hard to believe that he was only six.
A lot of things had happened in those two months, disturbing things...Karen got possessed by a demon, so Bobby and I tied her up in the basement. We tried everything we could to get the demon to leave, but she didn't. Not until Karen died of starvation. It was disgusting how much torture the demon was willing to take just for the fun of watching Bobby break. We gave her a hunter's funeral. Cas cried more than anyone-he felt responsible.
"Other angels can fix these things." He cried and cried and it hurt to watch, I got fond of the little guy-I say little guy but he looked my age. Every time Bobby felt sad, Cas would know and he'd appear, give him a hug then go again. Not once did he take of his trench coat, so I asked him about it. His blue eyes lit up when I did. So he told me the story.
"I'm still a baby by angel standards." He giggled. "So when I was told to find you using a blood spell I accidentally turned up at a house in Wisconsin, there was a hunter there with your last name! Blood spells are supposed to take you to the person you're looking for, but I got it a little bit wrong and went to a person with your last name instead." He furrowed his eyebrows and his eyes got watery again. "I'm sorry I messed up Dean...Can I hug you to make you feel better?"
I laughed. "I'm not mad Cas, but alright." And so we hugged, and he continued to tell the story.
"The boy there was nice, he didn't try to stab me with the pointy things you hunters carry." He giggled again. "He let me in because it was raining and gave me the coat to warm up. He said it was his dads but he didn't want it anymore, so he let me keep it, isn't that cool!" He grinned and flopped his hands so that the sleeves of his coat jumped up and down. "You and him have so much in common, his dad's name is John too!" He announced proudly. At this point I was seeing a connection.
"Cas...Was he by any chance related to me?" I asked.
Cas' eyes widened and he began to hyperventilate. "I'm so sorry Dean, I shouldn't have brought it up, I only just figured out how blood spells work, they send you to family members, not people with the same last name, I'm so sorry Dean, I'm sorry." Tears spilled out of his eyes savagely, he kept repeating himself. "I'm sorry Dean, I'm sorry."
I felt my eyes brim with tears, he always felt like he failed me for some reason, so like clockwork, I took him in my arms and hugged him
"I'm not mad Cas...If you knew you would've told me. You're the best angel buddy ever, I promise."
Cas sniffed and wiped his eyes. He smiled, took my hands and jumped up and down. "I'm Dean's favourite angel buddy!" He beamed.
As if on cue, we were interrupted by a crash and a flash of light. I looked over to see a boy with floppy brown hair and puppy-like brown eyes halfway stuck in the windshield of Bobby's truck.
"I'm okay!" He called and wriggled himself out of the broken car, he was wearing an oversized leather jacket. That brought one thought to my head.
Baby angel.
"Gabriel?!" Cas asked excitedly.
"CAS! It's me!" Gabriel ran over to Cas and tackle hugged him, they fell on the ground in a weird struggle of affection. This is the only time I'll ever say it, but the scene was so cute I could've died in a puddle of cuteness induced puke. Cas and Gabriel got up arm in arm, both smiling wide.
"We were born on the same day! He's one of the messenger babys." Cas giggled. "That means he has a message for us!"
Gabriel moved his floppy hair out of his eyes. "I came to tell you to take Sam and Dean somewhere else, it's not safe here anymore, I'm sorry to burden you, Cas." His puppy eyes widened as if he expected a telling off. Cas pulled him into his arms.
"It's okay Gabey, it's not your fault. "
Gabriel wiped his eyes. "I have to go now Cas, but angel radio me once you're safe, okay?"
"Okay Gabriel, I'll see you very soon." And with that, Gabriel vanished.
I chuckled and we went inside to find Bobby passed out on the couch again, he'd been getting drunk a lot lately. Cas' lower lip trembled when he saw Bobby laying there. "He's sad again." Cas whimpered. "I don't want to wake him up because he'll drink again and hurt himself more." He glanced over at me, so I assured him everything was fine and Bobby will be okay soon. I couldn't help but feel I was lying. I knew we were starting to burden Bobby even though he would never admit it, even when drunk. So in that moment I made a snap decision and left Bobby a note.
Cas is taking Sam and I somewhere safe, don't worry about us, we'll be in touch -Dean
I asked Cas if he could take us to this brother of mine in Wisconsin. It didn't even surprise me that he existed to be honest. The amount of things that had happened made having a brother that I didn't know about seem like a holiday. Cas said he would take us, but first I needed to tell Sam.
I walked into our room, Cas by my side to find Sam scribbling down into a notebook. He was a little genius, could write better than me at the age of six. "What you up to Sammy?" I asked with a smile.
"Writing." He replied without looking up.
"About what?" I asked, still smiling.
"Aunty Karen." He said, still not looking up. My smile faded.
"Why would you do that?" I demanded.
"Because I'm not a baby. I have ears you know. I know what happened to her, I know what that thing did. I'm making sure we remember for next time."
I felt a mixture of uneasiness and surprise, I glanced at Cas, his lower lip quivering again.
"What do you mean by next time?" I asked.
This time he looked up from the book. "There's always a next time."
