ViLeonce
Chapter 7: What happens now?
Vi opened her door giggling like a fool while Leona stumbled in behind her. Vi swung around and grabbed Leona by the waist, then bringing her head in for a hard kiss. Leona kissed her back earnestly. Vi's head was buzzing. She was scared but also excited and it mixed well with her drunkenness. They were kissing for a few moments before Leona asked the question that Vi was wondering dreadfully herself.
"Should we go upstairs?"
She was horny, she knew that, but at the same time she couldn't really shake the feeling that this was wrong. Vi was confused, but she was drunk and turned on and Leona was willing and able. She must have spent a few too many seconds pondering the question because Leona's face fell and she looked up into her face and said softly,
"It's okay if you don't want to. It's no big deal..."
Vi kissed her again and said, "I, damn, I just haven't done this before and I'm hesitating and I don't know why."
"It's okay, I don't mind," Leona smiled sweetly while stroking Vi's hair.
Vi sighed heavily and slumped down on her couch in the living room. Leona came with her and nestled herself onto Vi's chest in the pit of her arm and just lay there. The feeling was more cooling than the kissing before, but almost more intimate. She could feel Leona's breathing, steady and slow on her chest. She knew Leona could feel her heart pounding, but she didn't really care.
"Can I ask you something?" Leona asked quietly.
"I suppose so," Vi said, resting an arm on Leona's back.
"Is it because we are both women?" she asked equally quietly.
The statement was quiet in tone but it almost felt like it was being screamed at her. Vi had felt the weight of the question since she first realized how attracted she was to her. Now that things were going towards the intimate, she felt it ever more present in her mind. She was grappling with the thought when she finally answered,
"I've never really been intimate with anyone. I guess I just never imagined it would be a girl."
Vi's brutal sincerity surprised even her. The thought of opening up to Leona, whom she barely knew, was terrifying. She felt naked, vulnerable. She was totally at Leona's mercy now. If she wanted to, she could emotionally crush Vi so completely that she might never be the same again.
Instead, Leona just reached an arm around and hugged Vi around the midsection and said,
"We don't have to do anything you don't want to do. I'm happy either way as long as I'm here."
Vi just sighed and lifted Leona's face by the chin and looked at her. Their gazes met, Leona had a slight smile and Vi had a hard look of stern confusion. They kissed again. Every kiss felt better, closer and more comfortable than the last one. She was okay with it, even began craving it.
"So what happens now?" Vi asked hesitantly.
"Whatever you want to happen," Leona deflected the question.
That irritated her a little, she was confused and wanted direction. But Leona was giving her none. Leona seemed to sense this because she added.
"We are both adults Vi, I'm not going to make your decisions for you. But while I won't make decisions for you I will also not make you do anything. If you want to stop what we are doing that's fine."
Vi felt a little stung by that and she retorted hotly,
"I'm still trying to figure out what we are doing in the first place. I'd like a little direction here, if you don't mind."
Leona sat up, "Sorry, but that's not my problem. I'm secure in knowing what I want from you and from this and if you can't handle that then you should just say so now."
"And what do you want then?" Vi practically exploded.
Leona's voice caught for just a second, and Vi followed up.
"You don't even know. Here I am lost and confused with these stupid feelings and you are just letting me flail."
Leona stood up and straightened herself before saying, "I guess I should leave then."
She began to walk out before Vi swore and said, "No, please, don't go yet. Come back."
Vi felt dumb when Leona walked back calmly and sat on the sofa with her. Her head was swimming, but she was now stone cold sober. She realized as Leona was walking away that she didn't really know why, but she just couldn't let her go yet. It was why she wanted to see her again so bad.
"Look, I'm not really good at this, so just bear with me okay?" Vi said, rubbing her temples.
Leona just nodded and waited.
"I've never really, um, expressed my feelings before. So this may sound kind of needy or weird, but, I need you Leona. I don't know what it means, but I need you around me. I don't feel, right without you here. But when we were getting hot n' heavy I just sort of froze up and wanted it to stop and go on. It's like my brain and snatch are playing tug-of-war and no one is winning."
Leona giggled.
Vi smiled, "What's so funny?"
"You are so crude, I love it," she said smiling.
"Yeah? I took you for the prim and proper type," Vi laughed lightly.
"I have to be sometimes, but that doesn't mean that's who I am on the inside," Leona said, "I just think it's adorable."
"You are so sexy," Vi admitted evenly.
"I know," Leona smiled teasingly, "It's something I'm good at."
"Tease," Vi smiled then took one of Leona's hands in hers, "Just help me out here, just a little bit. I can do the rest."
Leona squeezed her hand, "Okay, what do you want me to do?"
"Tell me what you want," she said bitterly honest.
Leona sat there and thought about it for a second. Then she cleared her throat and said,
"Well first I want to fuck you."
Vi just laughed.
"But after that, I'm not really sure yet. I guess I just want to get to know you better, see where things go, maybe move on a little if we both want to. I wouldn't mind being yours, officer."
Vi looked only a little uncomfortable but not altogether displeased with the answer.
"Would you mind," Vi asked, uncharacteristically shyly, "If we just, took the physical stuff slow. I want to, I really do, I just don't know if I can yet."
"I'll only wait as long as I can before I take you myself," Leona teased.
"Man you are persistent with the teasing!" Vi laughed.
They both giggled.
"But yeah, I'll go as slow as you need to. And if you end up deciding not to, while I can't promise I'll stick around, I'll understand," she said.
Vi's smile didn't deepen or broaden, but more like it softened before she said,
"You know I really respect that kind of honesty."
Leona just shrugged, "I owe that to you. You are a great gal, and I can't wait to get to know you better. But I am just being realistic."
"I know, I appreciate that," Vi said softly.
Leona leaned in more then said softly next to Vi's lips, "You didn't seem to mind kissing me, do you mind if we keep doing that?"
There was a heavy, sexy, huskiness to her voice that made Vi shiver.
"Definitely," she whispered.
