Chapter 4

God, I hate lying to Charlie. If he found out this somehow, he would never forgive me, but I promised to Bella.

BPOV

I woke up in the softest and the biggest bad I've ever seen. Where the hell am I?! As per usual I couldn't remember anything.

"Are you really awake now?" said a soft velvety voice.

And with that, all the memories, from waking up in the hospital rushed back to me. The escape and the angel.

I looked up and saw the most beautiful creature on the face of earth. As I looked closer I saw red eyes. No, no, no, no! This couldn't be happening. No, I don't want to believe this! My angel, my savior is vampire! Will he kill me now? Am I already dead? No, I don't feel any different, so I guess he wants to play with his food. Why this shit always happens to me?! First James, now… Hmm, I don't even know his name. I guess it doesn't matter, because I will be dead soon. Maybe it's a good thing. No more suffering for Jacob and Charlie.

"Can you hear me?" he asked.

"Yes, I can. And yes, I'm awake" I replied.

There was a strange ache in my body, like a pull towards him, but I soon forgot about that, because suddenly the visions and the voices came back with a force. I doubled over from the pain and the intensity. I've never felt it so strongly, it was as if someone was broadcasting them with all the force they could.

As I was starting to succumb to unconsciousness, might I add, again, I felt strong arms wrap around me. I inhaled his intoxicating scent and relaxed against his cold skin. If there was one thing better, than drugs, to releas me from my nighmarish „gift", than it was closness to vampire. But even that, never really took it all away, not like now, not like with... Hell, I don't even know his name!

„Umm, thanks, for that." I said, as I relaxed even more, „so, can I know your name at least, before I become your next meal? I know, it doesn't matter in the long run, but still..."

He looked at me as if I was crazy. Oh, I guess I was...

EPOV

She wants to know my name. Yes, humans needs that, to feel comfortable around anothers. Whait, what does she means by next meal?! Does she knows I'm a vampire? But that is impossible, Volturi would've deald with her a long time ago, if she knew our secret. But on the other hand, she has vampire bite marks and she still is a human.

„Edward, my name is Edward. And yours?"

„Bella, or a least, that is how everybody calls me. My name is Isabella, but I depise that name."

Hmm, interesting. It's unussual, that somebody would despise their name. But I like it, it suits her. I could safely admit, that she is rather beautiful, or could be, if she didn't use drugs. She could be even more beautiful than... No, I can't go there.

It's strange, how one frail human, could make me remember... Her... I've buried thos thoughts long time ago. Because of... Her... I am like this now. She... did this to me.

„Do you remember what happend yesterday?"

„Umm, yes. But I don't want to talk about that. So, how much time do I have left? I can see that you haven't resently fed, your eyes are black."

Again she's talking about her death, like it's a walk in the park. Just like She did. I couldn't admit, even to myself, that her scent wath mouthwatering. It would be so easy, but the drugs kept repelling me. She isn't the first junky I've ever met, but it seams, that the drugs she uses are not the same a all the others. They are even compelling to me, but at the same time, they repulse me. Just like... No... That could explain the bite marks.

I only heard about this once, in passing, but there was a vampire, that used his own blood, to make a new drug, that even vampires could get high, if they got over the revolsion of the venom. But it is suposed to be deadly to humans.

Maybe she isn't entarily human after all. Calisle mentioned, that there are some type of half breeds, not human, but not truly vampire. More like schamans, with some interesting abilities, from vampires and other „creatures of the night". Maybe that's how she knows about us.

„Isabella," she grimased, „Bella, I'm not after your blood. You can relax. I'm not sure that I would be even able to, if I wanted."

„You would, because he could do that. It's miracle, that I'm still alive!"

„I can see that."

JPOV

No, no, no, no, no! How could I do this to her. It's all my fault. They wouldn't have taken her, if I was a tad bit smarter, but no, of cours I had to act before I thought. Charlie will kill me. I'm allmost shure, that he knows that I was lying all the time. I'm not the only one with the secret.

I've allways known, the the Swan family was diffirent, but I never was able to put my finger on how diffirent. Was it something in their character, or was there something more. I think, Renee, knew and that's why she didn't allow Charlie, to help raise Bella, maybe that was the reason, why she put her in that hospital.

Before I could answer any of these questions, there was knock on my door. I sight, becouse I had a pretty good guess who it was.

I'm sure you're guess is wrong, but you can still try :D

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