Olivia circled the parking lot twice and didn't see any sign of Amanda or Amanda's white Nissan. She reached down into her coat pocket and grabbed her white iPhone.

"Amanda?" Olivia said hearing someone on the other line.

"Yea..Liv?" Amanda asked as if she didn't know why Olivia was calling.

"Where are you? I'm really worried about you." Olivia said getting a little pissed at the fact that Amanda wasn't where she said she was.

"I'm sorry I should have called, the Vic left..she recanted..and didn't want to go through with the rape kit." Amanda quickly thought of this lie.

"I thought you were hurt. " Olivia now fully pissed started to raise her voice with her.

"No, No...I'm..I'm really sorry." Amanda said on the verge of tears as she slid down her apartment wall, and covered her mouth so Liv wouldn't hear her crying.

"I'm going to bed..DO NOT Call me again Amanda." Olivia said getting huffy and hanging up her phone.

Amanda set in her floor, bringing her knees to her chest. She began to question a few things.

"Did he know I was a cop?" ..."Is this my fault, I had my gun on me." .."God, I hope Liv isn't mad at me." ..."How will I explain this giant cut on my neck?" These were just a few of the Questions she was asking herself. She grabbed onto the counter as she got up, and walked stiffly into the bathroom.

She cried out from the pain as she pulled her pants down, they were stuck to her privates from all the dry blood that was down there, she wasn't sure if that was blood from him taking the one thing she had tried to save for Marriage or if it was from further damage. She threw them to the side as she pulled off her coat, and then her white blouse. She was now completely naked in front of her mirror, her hair had fallen out of her ponytail and gotten matted with her blood and tears, she had bruises on her stomach, back, and inner thighs, not to mention the big gash in her neck. Amanda looked herself over and thought about what she should do.

"Should I let him get away with it? Wash away the evidence and pretend it never happened?" She asked herself in her head. Amanda decided the cut was too deep not to go to the hospital and get stitched. So she put on her blue jogging outfit, and washed only her hair out in the sink, and then threw her wet hair in a ponytail.

Amanda had chosen to drive about 30 miles away from NYC to the nearest hospital to get checked out, they wouldn't know her there and wouldn't tell her fellow workers.

When she got there, in the crowded emergency room a nurse came out and asked her to sign a clipboard but before she could finish she had Amanda in a wheelchair and being wheeled back to a Room, little did Amanda realize but she had lost a good amount of blood, and would need a blood transfusion and not to mention at least 15 stitches.

"Can you tell me what happened?" an older nurse with wavy brown and gray hair asked Amanda as she wheeled her down the hospital hallway.

"I-I was..I was raped." Amanda managed to get out before she started crying.

"Oh dear, I'm so sorry..would you like a rape kit?" The nurse asked feeling bad for Amanda.

"Yes..yes please." Amanda got courage to say.

"Alright when they're done in here, I'll come back and get you & get it started." The nurse exclaimed, leaving Amanda at the Operating room doors.

Amanda never felt the numbing shot, or any of the 17 stitches she had gotten in her neck, she was still to numb to feel anything. "Well that should do it." The nurse said pulling his gloves off, and throwing away the excess supplies. "Thanks.." Amanda said quietly as she looked away from him and at the ceiling. "Ma'am, I'm back..Are you ready to go back?" The nicer nurse came in and began unlocking her bed, so she could wheel her down to a private room. "As ready as I'll ever be..I guess." Amanda said not really wanting to go through what she was about to go through.

"Okay I need to get all your Information, since we haven't got any on you yet." The Nurse said. "Full name?" The Nurse asked.

"Amanda..Rollins." She answered the Nurse.

"Birthday?" The nurse said as she wrote down her name.

"July 9th..1980." Amanda answered, just wanting to get to the hard part and get it over with.

A few more Questions later, and they brought in a big white box labeled "Sexual Assault Kit." Amanda swallowed hard as she saw the nurse pulling out all of the tools.

"Okay sweetie." The Nurse said as she opened the evidence envelope "Put all of your clothing in here." Amanda nodded not wanting to argue about the fact that these weren't the clothes she had worn the time of the attack. The nurse handed her a white paper like gown and had her lay on the bed with her legs in stirrups, and spread.

"Now I'm gonna use this to swab for any fluids." The nurse exclaimed as she pulled out a long Q-tip. Amanda flinched and tensed up as she felt the nurse twirl the Q-tip inside of her. "Just a few more swabs and we'll be done down here." the Nurse said trying to comfort Amanda as she flinched, and cringed.

"Okay, now I'm gonna swab your cheek and Lips for any Saliva." The Nurse said as she instructed Amanda to set up on the bed and open her mouth. Amanda had gone numb again, as the nurse continued with the Exam.

"Okay just one more thing, and we'll be done collecting evidence." The nurse said as she grabbed a camera out from behind the box. She instructed Amanda to stand up, and stand under a bright light so she could take photo's of all the bruising, and her cut. After what seemed like a hundred flashes the nurse was done, and handed Amanda a grey sweat suit to get dressed into. "Here's the morning after pill, and the HIV Pill." the nurse said handing Amanda a cup with water in it, and a cup with the pills. Amanda swallowed both of them as quick as she could. "Is there anyone I should call? and are you sure you don't want to press charges?" The Nurse asked one more time. Amanda nodded her head No and got off the hospital bed, and went home.