"Hey Melinda.." Amanda said quietly as she walked into the Lab, Amaro still following behind her.
"Hey, sorry guys..I've been backed up. I haven't got your DNA on those panties yet." Warren said as she lifted her head up from the Microscope.
"Oh, that's fine.. just checking." Amaro said as he turned toward the door about to leave. Amanda was lingering behind, she saw her panties laying there in the evidence bag, her stomach sank, and she began to feel dizzy.
"Are you okay? Amanda?" Amaro said as he stood hovering over her.
"What..what-" Amanda started asking as she looked around, she was lying on the ground.
"You passed out, You must be really sick..I think you should hed home." Amaro said as he grabbed the wet rag from Melinda and began dabbing it on Amanda's cheeks, and forehead.
"No. I'm fine..I swear.." Amanda said as she pushed Amaro's hand away from her face and set up.
"You're aren't okay, Amanda." Melinda spoke up, as she held out her hand to help her up.
"Yes..I am." Amanda said as she wiped her pants off "I'm okay.." she added.
"Fine, I can't tell you if your okay or not..I'm no Doctor." Melinda said rolling her eyes, and walking back over to her Microscope.
"Thanks Warren." Amaro said as he walked Amanda out the doors.
"What's going on with you?" Amaro asked Amanda as they walked down the Street.
"Nothing..I'm fine..stop harassing me about this." Amanda said getting huffy with Amaro as she stormed off down the Street.
Amanda walked back into her apartment and let out a sigh as she put her face in her hands. She couldn't hold back her rage or her tears anymore, she slid her hand across her kitchen counter knocking over random items onto the floor, a cereal bowl shattered as it hit the ground. Amanda stomped around for a few mins, hitting the walls with her fists until she finally calmed down for a second, she plopped down on the kitchen floor right next to the broken cereal bowl. Amanda stared at the blue and white glass shards that remained of the bowl, she picked up a bigger piece of it, and held it in her hand and squeezed, as she cried into her other hand. Blood ran down her wrist and dripped onto the floor. Amanda didn't want to die, she just wanted to feel, she wanted to stop feeling so numb. She finally snapped back into reality and grabbed a dish rag that had fallen onto the floor beside the broken bowl, she wrapped it tightly around her bleeding palm, and got up and ran to the sink. As Amanda nursed her wound, she couldn't stop thinking about how she would explain all this once Melinda had the DNA back on her own underwear. She tried not to think about it anymore as she wrapped the white bandage tape around her had and went and layed in her bed.
The next morning Amanda woke up for the 3rd time around 5am, she decided she'd quit trying to get a restful sleep and get ready for this dreaded work day.
When Amanda got to work all eyes were on her, she felt as if they had already known. "They must have got the results back." She said in her head as she walked still rather stiffly to her desk.
"Can I talk to you?" Olivia asked Amanda as she set down.
Amanda froze, her heart began beating faster & faster, she felt as if she would get sick right there. "Yea.." She said as she hung her head low on the verge of tears.
"Look Amanda, I-" Before Olivia could Finish apologizing for the other night Amanda started crying. Everyone in the squad room was staring at her. "You know don't you? I'm sorry, I know...It-It's my..It's my fault." Amanda said through her sobs. Fin walked up behind her and placed his hands on her shoulders, Amanda flinched at his touch. Olivia looked at her coworker Crying hysterically. "I just wanted to say I'm sorry for being so rude with you the other night, I just had a long night..we all did." Olivia quickly said feeling extremely bad for being so mean to Amanda the other day. Amanda looked up and wiped away her tears.."Oh..Oh...it's fine.." Amanda said sniffling, and trying to stop crying.
"There's something else isn't there?" Fin said concerned as he patted Amanda on the back. Amanda knew now was her opportunity to tell them, she continued to cry, and cry harder.
"Those..those panites you're having Warner ru-run the DNA on..." Amanda spoke in fear of what they would say.
Fin, and Olivia where now setting beside Amanda, Liv was holding her hands, and Fin was still rubbing her back, Captain came out of his Office and walked over to see what was going on.
"They..they were...mine..it's my DNA...he-he.." Amanda tried to say it but just couldn't.
"Oh my god..You were raped?" Olivia said leaning in to hug Amanda and hold her while she cried. Olivia went back to the day at salview as Amanda cried into her shoulder. Cragen just stood there in Shock, Fin had already jumped up and grabbed his coat as he yelled at Amaro to come with him "We're gonna find this Dick..Now." Fin said as he shut the Squad door.
