Ch. 13

HI GUYS! I am alive I swear! So sorry updated have been so slow. I haven't forgotten about it, and I do appreciate every one of you for reading, really, THANK YOU! Also any reviews or suggestions are always welcome.

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"We`re on lockdown, no one in or out." The voices were muffled, people without faces running by. Then she saw her, Callie, reaching her hand out, straining to reach the brunette, she wasn't fast enough.

"Callie, wait please we need to talk" Suddenly everyone else was gone. It was just the two of them, everything was so quiet, except for the sound of footsteps coming slowly towards them. The footsteps were getting louder, closer.

*click* Arizona closed her eyes. She knew that sound, it was something she never wanted to hear again.

"Um…Mr.?" That voice…it wasn't hers, it belonged to Callie. Wait, what is she doing she shouldn't be talking to someone with a gun.

"Clark. Gary Clark." The man said, his eyes black with hate. "Are you a surgeon?"

Arizona knew what would happen next, but she wanted to change it, stop it from happening she had to try. "Wait! No!"

*Bang!* everything went black.

Arizona`s eyes popped open as she sprang up from her pillow, heart pounding in her chest. It was just a dream. It was just a dream. She told herself, even though it wasn't, it had happened and she couldn't do anything to change it.

Startled awake by the blonde's sudden movements, Callie sat up, noticing the slightly shaken state of her girlfriend. Placing her hand on the smaller woman's back, she felt her rapid breathing. "Hey, hey" she said in a calming voice, "What is it?" she whispered as she pulled the blonde closer, wrapping her tight in her arms.

Immediately feeling the love and concern coming from her girlfriend, Arizona closed her eyes and leaned into Callie. Listening to the sound of the brunette's soft breathing helped her regain control of her own and she was able to calm down. "Sorry. I… just a bad dream." She said, lifting her head for Callie`s shoulder and looking into those gentle brown eyes, she didn't want to tell her what she had dreamt, didn't want to remind her about how they both almost died so she said it was just a bad dream.

It had been almost six months since the shooting and Callie knew that's probably what it was, seeing that she's had the same type of dream for the past couple of days. The dreams were bad, and always the same, and Callie hated that Arizona was going through it too. "Was it the shooting?" she asked. "It's always the shooting for me, the past few days anyway." Callie said, moving so she could look into Arizona`s beautiful blue eyes, it always made everything better.

"Yeah" Arizona said in a sad voice. "I don't know why it's bothering me now… it's been…" Exhaling loudly, she flopped back down on the bed, gesturing for Callie to do the same. "I hate it." She finally said, snuggling into the brunettes' side.

Wrapping her arms around the blonde, and pulling her close Callie pressed a kiss into her temple. "Me too, Arizona, me too." It didn't take long before both woman were asleep again, safely wrapped in each other's arms.

Hours later both woman were again, suddenly startled awake, not by a bad dream but loud noises coming from their kitchen. Slightly confused, Callie got up and headed toward their bedroom door opening it slightly to see if she could hear what was going on a little better.

*clang! Bang!*

"Ow!Crap!"

*sizzle...*

Instantly recognizing the voice, she threw on her robe and headed towards the kitchen, a confused Arizona behind her.

"Uh, Morning?" She said, arms crossed, waiting for a response.

"Ohhh… Hey. Morning. Sorry didn't mean to wake you." Mark said, turning around and grinning his signature, *please don't be mad* grin. "Coffee?" he offered.

Shaking her head at her girlfriend's best friend, Arizona took the offered coffee and a seat at the breakfast bar. There had to be a reason he was here and she couldn't wait to hear it.

"Why are you making breakfast in my kitchen?" Callie asked, grabbing her own cup of coffee and taking a seat next to Arizona.

"I don't have breakfast food." Mark said, like it was the most obvious thing in the world.

Arching an eyebrow and giving Mark the *look* Callie said, "…and?"

"And... Lexie slept over and I wanted to make her breakfast…but"

"But you don't have any breakfast food, got it." Callie said with a smile. "And where is she now?"

"She's still sleeping"

"What happens when she wakes up and you`re nowhere in sight?" Callie said, sipping her coffee.

"Uhh well...she… yeah crap I have to get back over there…" he said, gathering the food and heading out the door. "Thanks Torres!" He said as he left.

"Seriously?" Arizona said, taking a sip of her coffee. "What would he do without you?"

Shaking her head, "I have no idea." Callie said as she got up to make them breakfast.

"Wait, don't make anything." Arizona said, walking over to where Callie stood in the kitchen. She wrapped her arms around the taller woman's waist and leaned in for a kiss. "Let's go out today."

"Mmm okay." Callie said, smiling as she pulled the blonde in for another kiss.

After breakfast at a local café, the women walked hand in hand down the street, checking out some of the small shops and art galleries along the way.

"This is nice." Callie said, putting her arm around Arizona's shoulder.

"It is." Arizona replied. "Oh look, the park, let's go over there." She said, excitedly pulling Callie along.

Once Arizona had picked out the bench with the best view, they finally sat down. Callie's arm around the blonde, Arizona's head resting on Callie`s shoulder. They sat that way for a while, quietly taking in all the sights and sounds they normally don't get to see because of how much time they spend in the hospital.

"This park is beautiful." Callie said.

"I know, it really is. And people always say Seattle is gloomy… I hate those people…" Arizona said, resting her head on the brunettes shoulder.

Smiling, Callie said "I could just see it, years from now. Us in a house with a huge yard like this, a dog or two running around with our kids while they play all day. It will be perfect."

"Ha ha, yeah." Arizona said with a smile. "That does sound …nice…"

Sensing some hesitation in her girlfriends' voice, Callie's heart sank. "You don't sound too sure about it…" Callie said, turning to face the blonde. "Do you…" she really didn't want to ask this question because she was now terrified of the answer, but she needed to know. "Do you not want kids?" She finally asked, heart pounding out of her chest.

Taking Callie's hands in her own, Arizona took a deep breath "Honestly… I don't know." She said, unable to look Callie in the eye she said, shaking her head. Finally looking up to meet Callie's eyes, she suddenly felt very overwhelmed. "Can we talk about this later or something? I just … wanted to spend a nice day out with you."

"Uh…yeah." Callie said, releasing the smaller woman's hand. "Sorry, just forget it. Forget I even said anything." She said, turning away for the blonde. She could feel the tension between them growing. "Let's just go home okay?" Callie thought the walk home would soothe her anxiety and calm her worries, but it only made things worse. As soon as they got through the door, the worry boiled over. "I can't not talk about it." The brunette said in frustration. Leaning her hands on the counter hear head hung low to hide the tears in her eyes. She didn't know what to do, what to think… she had just assumed Arizona wanted children, why wouldn't she?

"What?" Arizona asked sheepishly, knowing full well what the brunette was referring to.

"What?! You know what Arizona." You could hear the frustration in her voice now. "Please, can we just talk about it? I`m… I`m not asking you to make any decisions right now, but Arizona…. I can't not know how you feel."

Feeling the sadness in her girlfriend's voice broke Arizona's heart. She knew they had to talk about it, she did. But as also knew that Callie might not… would not like what she really thought. "Okay okay" She said, placing a gentle hand on the Latinas shoulder, turning her so they were face to face Arizona wiped the tears from her lovers face. "We can talk about it…" Taking Callie's hand, she lead them over to the couch, sitting facing each other legs crossed Indian style.

Arizona didn't know where to start so she opted to stare at the pillow in her lap instead. When Callie didn't say anything after a while, she figured that meant it was her turn to start so she took a deep breath, "I never really saw myself with that kind of future…with kids. I didn't think I would ever find anyone who would want to start a family with me. I don't know..." she finally blurted out, her heart racing a million miles an hour.

Callie was heartbroken… alarmed that Arizona could ever think she wasn't good enough to start a family with, Callie couldn't be mad. Reaching out Callie tucked a loose strand of hair behind Arizona's ear, "Okay…" Callie said as she took a deep breath, what she was about to say was probably going to make the blonde want to run. "I love you, when I picture my future, it's always with you, always, and I`m saying, one day, I`d like to start a family with you."

Arizona didn't know what to say. Of course she loved Callie, and she too pictured her future with the brunette. "I love you too. But it's not that simple. Kids aren't simple they are a lot of work and they change things and…"

"It is that simple Arizona. We`re in love, that's all we need to start a family. I mean…it doesn't get easier than that. Yeah it will change things, but that's not always a bad thing."

"Callie… I just don't know. Kids around all the time? Yikes… that's just..."

"Just what? I don't get it. You're a Pediatric surgeon, you save kids all day, you have wheels on your shoes!" Callie was beyond irritated now. How could she not want kids… she practically was a kid ninety percent of the time. It was one of the things Callie loved about her. It's also one of the reasons she never saw this coming.

"Exactly!" Arizona said, pushing her blonde hair back off her face and resting her forehead in her hands. "That's exactly what I'm talking about. "I work on kids all day. I see their parents run into the ER worried half to death that something is wrong with their kid." Looking up she saw sadness written all over the brunettes face.

"But… you save them." Callie said. Trying to understand where her girlfriend was coming from.

"Not always." Arizona said, her voice cracking. "I lose some… and even the ones I can save… their parents are never the same. Always worried, wondering what will happen next, if they will be back in the hospital and not make it out in one piece the next time.."

Scooting closer to the blonde, Callie took her small pale hand in her own. "But our kid won't be one of your NICU babies…hopefully. They will be happy and healthy and so, so loved. But if that scares you, I understand." Callie said, as she took a deep breath. She loved the blonde more than anything in the world and if this was what she wanted, Callie would give it to her. "Arizona…I almost lost you six months ago… " Callie paused to choke back the tears. "And I don't want to lose you again… over this…I don't want to have kids if it means I can't be with you."

Looking down at the warm hand that now encompassed hers, Arizona's thoughts raced a million miles an hour. She knew her excuse for not wanting kids wasn't really a valid one, but she was scared. What if she started a family with Callie and things changed, things got bad and they fell apart. Arizona knew she wouldn't be able to handle losing Callie, but she also knew she probably would, if she denied her the chance for a family. That was scary, that was something that made Arizona want to run, run far away. Wait. She thought, as she looked into tear-filled brown eyes. That's what she thinks… she thinks I'm going to run. But I'm not… no Arizona not this time you can't do that again. Scooting closer to Callie, she reached up to tuck a lock of raven hair behind the Latinas ear. "Okay." She said, eyes now brimming with tears.

"O...Kay? Really?" Callie asked, absolutely shocked.

"Okay, if you think, I … mean…I love you and if you want a family…with me… then okay."

"Wait…really?" Callie asked again, Smiling as the tears rolled down her face.

"Really. I love you so much…I never thought I was cut out to be a mom. But you, you`ll be an amazing mom and I can't live without you and our ten kids."

She couldn't stop the tears from coming now, all she could do was smile and say "I love you. I love you so much." Pulling Arizona in, Callie`s lips pressed to the blondes, tears rolling down both their cheeks.

"I love you too."

Ohhh so a bit of drama… not too much I hope. What did yall think? Any suggestions for Calzonas next step? Fun things you want them to do? More fluff or more DRAMA? Thanks for reading!