Ok this is my first attempt at a story, I have been an avid reader on here for 4 or 5 years, and love to read so with all the ideas for stories I have had, I figured I would bite the bullet and finally write my own so here we go!
Disclaimer: I only own the rights to the original characters I do not own any of the Sons of Anarchy characters

I walked into the kitchen feeling very timid. I look around every corner making sure there are no guys around, I'm not sure I could handle that yet. "Gemma" I say finally seeing her standing at the stove. "yeah sweetie" She says turning around to face me. "I ummm" I stuttered not wanting to ask anything more of the woman who has taken me in, made me apart of her family, already given me so much. "You ok, did you need something baby". "Ummm, the jeans I wear when I ride on Jaxs bike, the only ones that fit over my boots, they ripped and ummm, so I need jeans to wear". I take a big breath finally telling her the problem. "oh baby that's no problem, I would take you shopping but I have a meeting later for the fundraiser, but I'll get one of the guys to go with you that way I know your safe" SAFE, that word, I don't know what that feels like anymore, everything feels unsafe. My eyes start to water and knowing a breakdown is coming I throw out a quick thank you and rush from the kitchen, racing to my room, the spare room Gemma and Clay have been so generous to give me. Closing the door and leaning against it I try to breath. Sliding down the door landing on the floor with a small thud I break into tears.

I wipe my eyes and look around finally aware of my surroundings again, I jump when there's a knock on the door I'm still sitting against." Hey baby, u ok" Its Gemma, I clear my thought and try to not sound like I was crying. "Yeah I'm fine" not myself believing what I just said. " ok baby just wanted to tell you I'm heading out, I left some money on the counter for you to go shopping , one of the guys will be here in about an hour, if you need anything just call". That's when it hit me, one of the guys will be taking me, I start to panic. "Thank you Gemma" I barely squeak out. I'm going to have to be ALONE with one of the guys. I try to control my breathing, my palms are sweaty and my heart is pounding. "Ok, just calm down" I try to tell myself. "I can do this, I can do this" I repeat over and over. Gemma wouldn't send me off with someone that would hurt me, right? After I have calmed myself I get up off the floor and try not to think about what will be here in an hour as I get ready to go shopping.

Gemma pulls out of the driveway in her escalade and pushes the call button on her phone "yeah" comes a husky voice through the phone. "Hey Happy" "Hey Gem what can I do for ya". "I need to ask a favor, remember Natalie, the girl we saved" "yeah what about her" he said harshly wondering what Gemma was wanting from him. " well she needs some clothes and I would take her shopping but I have a meeting for the fundraiser, I'm heading there right now, so I need someone to go with her to make sure she's safe" she said as she pulled to a red light. Happy rolled his eyes I am not the shopping type of guy he thought " Yeah no problem Gemma, I'm just about to be done here at the garage and then ill head to your house and pick her up, can't believe your making me go shopping Gemma" Happy said with a grin. "I know, I'm sorry Happy, just please remember what she has been through, don't scare the shit out of the poor girl" happy was unsure, after all he wasn't the type of guy that was good around terrified, emotional girls. -"You'll be fine Happy just take it slow with her and show up with your softer side and you will be fine, this might be good for her, make her see not all guys are bad". Happy laughed, he was not the guy to show an emotionally scarred girl that not all guys were bad he wouldn't classify himself as good after all he killed for a living. Gemma sure hoped this was a good idea she didn't want to set back the progress Natalie had already made. " K Gem, I better get back to work so I can go get her" "Thanks again Happy I'll talk to you later" Gemma hung up her phone and pulled into the parking lot. She hoped somehow, someway, Happy might be what Natalie needed to help her trust again.

Happy climbed off his bike and put his helmet on the handle bars he looked up at the house, he hoped this went well. He walked up to the door hesitated a minute and then knocked on the door. Natalie jumped, not expecting the knock. "Dammit I thought I could do this, but I don't think I can" she panicked, heart racing, stomach in knots. "Natalie" she heard from the door, it was a males voice. "shit, shit, shit no I can't do this" she was scared. She thought to the only people she trusted Gemma and Jax. Tears rolled down her face as she picked up her cell and dialed Gemma "yeah baby" she said "Gemma I'm scared" the only words she could get out before she burst into full tears. "awww baby it's just Happy, he won't hurt you I promise, just calm down and breath ok " Gemma pulled her phone from her ear so she could text Happy hey hap she's freaking, the spare key is under the flower pot , you think you can go in and try to calm her. Happy read the text "shit" he thought about it for a min and then lifted the pot and grabbed the key. He hoped this wouldn't make it worse. Got the key headed in. he texted back.

Happy put the key in the lock and turned it hearing the lock click, he turned the door knob not knowing what he was about to encounter. Happy slowly walked in and closed the door looking around for any sign of the young girl when he got another text from Gemma. Make sure she doesn't go for the top drawer in the kitchen that's the only gun she knows about. "You got to be kidding me", great I'm going to get shot he thought. He quickly walked into the kitchen and opened the drawer, the gun was still there he grabbed it and put it on top the fridge, hopefully she can't reach this. He turns around quick when he hears a noise, its coming from upstairs. Happy moves to the stairs moving cautiously until he is at the top. He stops and listens trying to get a clue of where Natalie is. He hears the sound of a girl crying in the room at the end of the hall. Walking up to the door he stops, how am I going to do this he thinks. "Natalie, its Happy, u ok" he says trying to not spook her more. He hears a sharp intake of breath and then the sound of movement "Please go away, please" she says in a scared little voice. "I'm not going to hurt you Natalie, open the door" "no, no, no please go away please don't hurt me again, please just go away" that's when he knew she had reverted back to her attack this wasn't going to be easy if she thought he was the one that hurt her the first time, well hopefully this doesn't backfire on me, he thinks as he pulls his pocket knife out and picks the lock hearing it pop. He slowly opens the door scanning the room quickly. He spots Natalie huddled in the corner of her room, arms clutched around her knees that are pulled to her chest, rocking back and forth tears running down her face. Even through the tears he notices her beauty, her long dark brown hair pushed behind her ears showing off her beautiful blue eyes her short but well-proportioned body a little on the too skinny side, dressed in black yoga pants and a baggy sweatshirt. She looks up at him and tries to scramble further back into the corner, fear clearly etched on her face. He steps forward leaving the door wide open trying to show her he isn't locking her in, get her to trust him just a little bit. "Hey calm down I'm not going to hurt you ok" he says with his hands up in front of him. She keeps her eyes locked on him, body visibly shaking. "Please don't" she whimpers. He walks forward just enough to sit on the end of the bed, still a good distance from her. "I'm not going to hurt you, I'm just here like Gemma asked to take you shopping, its ok I promise I won't hurt you". Then out of nowhere she stands up and launches for the door, but Happy was ready and caught her around the waist. Happy pulls her on his lap and holds her to his chest keeping her hands locked down to her sides to avoid her hitting him. Her panic just escalates as she struggles against him, Happy holds tight and waits for her to wear herself out. "Calm down, shhhhh". Finally she tires herself out and her body gives up and slumps in his arms. Thinking she passed out he says her name. "Natalie, you still with me sweetheart". She nods her head as silent tears rolls down her face"please, don't hurt me" she whispers too tired to talk." I won't hurt you, I'm sorry I scared you but I promise I'm not going to hurt you" Happy tried his best to soften his voice to keep her calm. Natalie just laid there she was still shaking pretty bad but she tried to calm herself down, her heart beat wildly and she felt sick to her stomach. "I know you aren't comfortable being this close to me, you promise to stay calm if I set you on the bed next to me. No running away" Happy said. She made a little nod and Happy moved her off his lap to sit next to him. She sat there with her hands on her knees and took deep breath." I'm in and she's calmed down" Happy texts Gemma.

About ten minutes later Happy spoke" do you still feel like going shopping" she finally looked him in the eye and nodded " I have to, I need a new pair of jeans for tomorrow" Happy nodded and stood up, Natalie flinched at his sudden movement. She stood up too and turned to Happy" just give me a minute and I'll be down" she said quietly. "k as long as you don't sneak out your window" he said with a laugh. That's a good idea she thought, "no I promise I'll be down in a couple minutes". "Ok " Happy smiled and turned around and walked out. Natalie stood up and walked into her bathroom, she splashed some water on her face and looked at herself in the mirror. Her eyes were red and swollen from crying and she had some faint tear stains down her face from her mascara. She took a towel, got it wet and cleaned her face then reapplied her makeup.

Happy sat on the couch waiting for Natalie hoping he wouldn't have to go on a chase for her. Footsteps coming down the stairs interrupted his thoughts, he looked up and saw Natalie walking down the stairs timidly. "You ready to go" she kept her eyes down looking at the floor and mumbled and yeah. Natalie walked in the kitchen and picked up the cash off the counter Gemma left. Of course three hundred dollars, Natalie frowned Gemma always gave her way to much she would have been fine with twenty bucks. She walked back out of the kitchen and followed Happy out to the car, her car the one Gemma bought her, she told her she didn't have to but Gemma bought her one anyway, it is a 2013 BMW sedan, it's the nicest thing she had ever owned. Happy climbed in the passenger seat and Natalie climbed in the driver seat.

Natalie pulled the car into a parking spot in front of a small used clothing store in charming. "You sure this is where you want to shop" asked happy knowing Gemma gave her a good amount of money. "Yeah I'm not a designer clothes type of person" "ok" said happy. They both got out of the car and walked into the tiny store. Happy found a chair right by the door and took a seat, this way he could watch the door and shopping wasn't his thing. Natalie walked to the jeans rack and started searching for items in her size being and unpopular size 2 there was a lot to pick from. She grabbed a stack and walked to the fitting room to try them on. After trying on about 10 pair she found 5 that fit and took them to the register her total came to $19 and she handed them a twenty and tipped the lady her change "thank you" the lady smiled and replied "anytime sweetheart come again". She walked to where happy was sitting and told him she was done and ready to go. "That was fast, my kind of shopper" happy said with a smile. Natalie smiled back and walked out the door to the car. As they both got in Happy's phone rang "yep. He said into the phone. "Ok we will head to Gemma's so she can get some stuff and then head over" Natalie was wondering what was going on "ok, bye" Happy hung up the phone and looked at Natalie. "Something went down and we are on lockdown, we have to go get you some things from the house and then head to the clubhouse". Fear crossed Natalie's face, she had only been to the clubhouse once and that was the day they found her she wasn't sure if she could handle going back. Seeing her panic happy tried to reassure her "hey, you'll be ok it's just routine ". Natalie nodded and put the car in drive and headed to Gemma's house.