So this chapter may look a little different I took the advice of a couple of my reviewers and tried to structure this chapter different, I'm not sure if I did it how they meant but I'm still learning so please let me know if this is better I'm always open for constructive criticism Thank you.
Disclaimer: I only own the rights to the original characters I do not own any of the Sons of Anarchy characters
Three months later Natalie walks out of her counselor's office, she had only seen this lady cause Gemma asked her to try it and that it may help her but all it seems to do is repeatedly bring up shit and she hated it. She wanted to just tell everything that happened that night and get it off her chest and then hopefully move on to never have it come up again. She knew that she could do that with Happy, but something kept her from telling him and she wasn't sure what it was. Since the day the lockdown ended she hadn't spoken to Happy except an occasional hey or hi when she was at the clubhouse or if he came by the house to talk to Clay and Gemma and it was really bothering her, she missed him, she missed him really bad. She finally got home after being in traffic for almost two hours, she felt like tonight was going to be a bad, emotional night being in traffic for so long and going to her counselor today had her anxiety level elevated farther then it had been in a long time, she felt a panic attack coming on but she desperately tried to control it.
Natalie sat her things on her bed and walked down to the kitchen not seeing Gemma or Clay just a note saying a plate of food was in the fridge for her. She got the plate out and put it in the microwave and then slipped out the back patio door, she sat down on the bench and pulled a pack of cigs from her pocket and lit one. Yep bad habit she knows, but her counselor wanted to put her on meds to calm her anxiety and she took up smoking instead. She didn't want to be taking crazy pills or that's what she called them.
Natalie was about done with her cigarette when she heard the beep of the microwave; she put out her cig in the ashtray and walked back in grabbing her food and a bottle water and heading up to her room.
Natalie lay in her bed staring at the ceiling, a Netflix movie playing in the back ground, but not listening or watching it. Her hands where clinched and her face wet with tears, her mind was racing and her heart pounding, she couldn't figure out why she couldn't calm herself down. She had already smoked 4 more cigarettes since the one outside and she had paced her room about a hundred times she felt like she was losing control and it was scaring her.
She sat up in a hurry scrambling to her purse and pulling out her phone, she scanned her contacts finding who she was looking for and hit send, hearing it ring and ring and ring she thought it would go to voicemail when she heard a soft tired sounding yeah on the other end of the phone.
"Happy" she said quietly trying not to fall apart.
"Natalie, what's going on its 3:30 in the morning" he said sounding worried.
"You said u would be here if I ever needed you and I need you, please" she said pleading that last couple words.
"Where are you baby" Happy said more alert now.
"Home" the only word she could get out before the flood gates opened and tears poured down her face.
"I'll be there in a min baby try to hang on till I get there" he said the sound of clothing being put on in the background. She heard a click and pulled the phone from her ear, then curled into a ball on her bed and cried harder then she had since the night they hurt her.
Happy rushed out the clubhouse door and grabbed his helmet throwing it on his head he started up his bike and screeched his tires pulling out of the parking lot.
He wasn't sure what was going on or what was wrong with Natalie but all he knew was she needed him and the sound of that girls voice broke his normally rock solid heart in to pieces.
About 10 minutes later he pulled up in front of Gemma and Clays house barley getting his kickstand down before hopping off his bike, he rushed up to the door finding the spare key and opening the door.
Happy sprints up the stairs going straight for Natalie's bedroom; right outside of it he can hear her sobs. Not even knocking he rushes in the room right to her bed, all he sees is Natalie curled in the smallest ball, her knees tucked up to her chin and her tiny body shaking hard.
"Baby, I'm here". Not even thinking twice Natalie fly's off the bed into his arms and falls apart even harder.
"Hey, shhhh baby, I'm here everything's ok, calm down". Happy tries his best to sooth her.
"I can't get it to stop, it just won't stop Happy why won't it go away, please make it stop". She sobs into his shoulder as he sits on the bed cradling her in his arms.
"What won't stop Natalie I don't understand what won't go away". He said trying to get more info out of her.
"These thoughts and memories and images in my head, I don't want to think about it anymore, I don't want to see it anymore, why can't it just stop". Happy finally gets it, she is having flashbacks.
"Honey, calm down and talk to me, tell me what you're seeing, tell me what happened, talk it out with me, I promise it will help, you need to get this out".
Happy rubs his hand across her back, realizing its not working he reached in his pocket and pulls out a joint and lights it taking a puff off of it.
"Here baby take a puff, it will help you calm down", he puts it to her lips; Natalie accepts it and takes a large hit off the joint.
"There you go take another one and breath" she takes another large hit and a deep breath, Happy feels her slowly relaxing. He takes another hit and puts it back to Natalie's lips
"One more baby" she breaths it in and finally totally relaxes against Happy.
"There you go take deep breaths".
Happy says but instead of deep breaths her breathing evens out, from not sleeping the last couple nights and this emotional experience sleep caught up to Natalie and she was passed out in Happy's arms. He lightly laughed and moved her over into bed, it being now after 4 in the morning Happy stood up and stripped off his jeans and crawled in the bed in his boxers and t shirt next to Natalie. He wraps and arm around her and let's sleep come to him too.
A few hours later Happy awakes the sound of the shower turning on, he decides to lay there for a little longer till she gets out of the shower. A light tap on the door makes him open his eyes again
"Natalie, I washed some of your" is all Gemma gets out as she walks in the room seeing Happy laying in Natalie's bed instead of Natalie.
"Oh hi and can I ask why you are laying in my girls bed" she says with a smirk on her face.
"Natalie had a bad night, I got here about 4 this morning and finally got her calmed down and to sleep, nothing happened but crying, smoking and sleeping"
Gemma frowned she didn't know Natalie was having such a hard time. "Did she say much to you"
Happy shook his head "nope just that it won't go away, she didn't want to see it anymore but I'm going to try and get her to talk when she gets out of the shower"
Gemma nodded her head setting the laundry basket down next to the closet. "Ok well let me know if you need anything".
Happy sits up in bed "hey Gemma, I do have something to ask you"
Gemma turns around "yeah baby"
Happy looks at the bathroom door seeing it still shut and hearing the shower still on "would you have an issue if me and Natalie were together"
A big smile finds its way to Gemma's face "no, she deserves to be happy and I think that exactly what you can do, you're a good guy and I know you won't intentionally hurt her just take it slow and be careful with her, you have my blessing"
Happy smiles "thanks"
Gemma turns around and walks out of the room back to the kitchen.
Natalie walks out of the bathroom dressed in a pink tank top and baggy grey Victoria secret sweat pants, her hair wrapped in a towel. She finds Happy laying in bed staring at the ceiling.
"Did I hear Gemma in here" she asks putting her dirty clothes in the hamper.
"Ya she brought in your laundry"
"Oh, ok" Natalie says pulling the towel off her head letting her damp hair fall to her shoulders. Damn she is sexy Happy thinks sitting up in bed.
"Hey, come here" Happy said patting the spot on the bed next to him.
Natalie tosses her towel in the hamper and walks over to the bed looking Happy in the eye before sitting on the spot he had just had his hand.
"What Happy" she said looking at him.
"what do you mean what Happy, I didn't come her just cause your bed is comfy, I didn't find you dancing and talking about sunshine and rainbows last night, you know what Natalie" Happy said more harshly then he meant.
"You didn't have to come, I didn't mean to inconvenience you" Natalie says starting to stand from the bed.
Happy grabs her arm pulling her back down to sit on the bed instinctively she scoots back on the bed to put some distance between her and Happy. "I didn't mean it like that Natalie, I just want you to talk to me, tell me everything so I can understand and help you"
She looks down at her hands clasped together in her lap and back up at him "ok" the word comes out of her mouth almost too quiet for him to hear.
Happy reaches for her hand and clasps his with hers and gives her a slight smile to encourage her.
"I had just left work at the tiny grocery store in town it was a little after 10pm and I was walking down the street headed to my only friend Cassie's house, that's where I had been staying for 2 weeks since my mom kicked me out".
Happy looked at Natalie shocked "your mom kicked you out" he questioned.
"Umm yeah, her boyfriend made a pass at me and I told her and she flipped out on me and told me I was just trying to ruin her relationship so she kicked me out".
Happy moved his hand to her face wiping away the tear that rolled down her cheek.
"So yeah I was walking down the street when three guys came walking out of one of the alleys and starting checking me out and walking right by me and started making calls at me, I just ignored them and kept walking". Natalie takes a deep breath trying to keep the tears back.
"they got annoyed I was ignoring them I guess and one of them walked up to me and grabbed my arm and I struggled against him but the others joined in and they were telling me not to fight it that a little slut like me would enjoy this and they proceeded to drag me into the alley they had come from" Natalie's hands start to shake.
Happy rubs his thumb over one of her hands trying to soothe her.
"One of the guys started trying to kiss me and I was pushing him away and screaming at them to stop and I slapped him, well that was a bad idea cause he smacked me across the face and threw me to the ground. The other two knelt down and held my arms down and the one I slapped unbuttoned my jeans and ripped them down my legs". At this point tears were steadily cascading down Natalie's face.
"He then told me since I was such a slut this would be easy for me and he raped me" Natalie was now bawling her eyes out
" it hurt so bad Happy I hadn't done any of that I wasn't a slut, I was a virgin, he took that from me and then the others joined in, I was so scared and confused I didn't understand I didn't know what to do I finally just gave up and layed there, when the first guy was about to take his second turn was when I heard motorcycles and I yelled for help and then I just remember a sharp pain to my head and everything going black, I woke up one time being carried and then blacked out and woke up at Gemma's".
Happy couldn't believe what this tiny thing had gone through, his blood boiled hearing everything she was telling him.
"I'm just always scared now Happy and I don't know what's wrong with me I haven't told Gemma cause I don't want to be a burden but I still hurt all the time"
Happy looked at her confused. "what do you mean you still hurt all the time Natalie".
Natalie looks up at Happy scared to tell him, she tries to slow down her crying so she can talk "ummm down there it hurts, sometimes it hurts just to walk".
Happy tightens his grip on her hand " Honey, we need to get you checked out that's not normal, finish getting ready and I'll go get Gemma and have her take you in to get checked out".
"No Happy please don't tell Gemma, she has already done so much I don't want to be another problem for her, I'll be fine"
Happy moves a strand of Natalie's hair behind her ear "you are not fine you need to be checked out, will you let Tara check you out, I won't tell Gemma if you will get checked out"
Natalie looks down at their hands together and whispers "ok"
Happy lets go of one of her hands and pulls his phone out of his pants and calls Tara "ok she is going to meet us at the clubhouse in an hour, so get ready and we will go"
Happy stands up and pulls his pants on and puts his phone back in his pocket
"Will you stay with me when I see Tara, I'm scared, I don't want to do it alone"
'Yeah baby I won't leave your side, I promise"
After getting to St. Tomas hospital and Tara checking her out Natalie and Happy sit in Tara's office waiting to hear what is wrong.
Tara walks in "Well Natalie I just got the x-rays they show you have a fractured pelvis it's a small fracture but it is probably what is making walking hard there isn't much we can do except let it heal on its own you just need to take it easy no lifting things over 5 lbs. and no serious bending or strenuous activity for four weeks but you should start to feel better in the next week or two. But when I examined you there was some tearing on your cervix it should heal on its own the only thing is the scar tissue can prevent you from getting pregnant or it could prevent you from carrying a child to term so you will probably only have about a 20% chance of of conceiving or staying pregnant, I'm really sorry Natalie"
Happys heart broke hearing this he didn't know what Natalie's plans for having kids in the future was but he knew that this would be hard for her. He squeezed her hand when she didn't say anything or move she was in a daze.
"You ok Natalie" he said softly.
She simply nodded her head and stood up and rushed out of Tara's office.
"Thank you Tara" Happy said rushing out after Natalie.
Happy rushes through the hospital in the direction Natalie ran as he reaches the entrance to the hospital he hears Natalie yelling outside he picks up speed running to her with his hand on his gun.
Natalie finally comes into view and he takes his hand off his gun, the prospect has a tight hold on Natalie with her arms pinned to her side, she is yelling and cussing and crying all at the same time
"Let me go, please just let me go, fuck I just want to go away please"
Happy walks over eyeing the prospect "what the fuck are you doing prospect"
He looks up at Happy nervously "sorry man but she was running I tried to get her to stop and then she ran out the doors and was starting to head to the street I didn't know what else to do"
Happy nodded" ok man let her go she will be fine now, right Natalie no running"
Natalie nodded but the second he let go she turned to run but Happy was quicker and grabbed her wrist and pulled her into his arms, she instantly broke the second her face touched his chest.
"Shhh baby it's going to be ok". Happy picks Natalie up wrapping her legs around his waist and moves to the car sliding in the back with her in his lap
"Take us to Gemma's prospect"
The prospect gets in behind the wheel "yes sir".
Happy walks in the house with a sleeping Natalie in his arms
"What's going on Happy" Gemma says walking up to him.
"Let me lay her down and we will talk"
Gemma nods and follows him to her room opening the door for him. They go down to the kitchen and sit at the table
"She doesn't want you to know because she feels bad for how much you have already done for her but I think you need to know"
Gemma closes her eye and then looks at Happy" I had a feeling she wasn't telling me something "she said running her hand through her hair
"I finally got out of her this morning what happened and I'm so fucking glad we killed those guys they put her through hell, but she let slip that she was still hurting so I took her to Tara and she did an exam and x-rays and she has a fractured pelvis and a torn cervix, Tara said they will heal on their own but the scar tissue will probably cause her to never get pregnant, she took it really hard"
Gemma sighed "fuck can't this little girl get a break"
Happy rubs his hand over his face " I don't know how to help her Gemma, I'm not a touchy feely person like what she needs, I don't know what the fuck I'm supposed to do to comfort her, FUCK" he yells loudly slamming his fist on the table making Gemma jump
"I kill people I don't cuddle them" he leans his head in his hands and Gemma just places her hand on his back
"Listen Happy you have been exactly what she needs, you may think you don't know what to do but you have already been doing it, just sit with her, lay with her tell her it's going to be ok and wrap your arms around her when she cries, I can tell this girl is getting under your skin Hap I can see you care about her so just let yourself care don't think about the other shit, your falling hard for her so just fall"
