Disclaimer: I don't own any of the SOA characters just my original characters.

Sorry I haven't updated in a long time my job got hectic and stressful and just didn't have a spare moment but now I'm a stay at home mom again for a little while and I have some time.

The next morning Natalie woke up feeling better then she had since before the day of her attack. She rolled out of bed, showered and dressed then made her way downstairs.

"Good morning baby, how you doing" Gemma said filling a cup of coffee and handing it to Natalie.

"I'm good Gemma, actually really good today, can I help you with anything today" she said sitting down at the dining room table.

"I'm glad baby girl, yeah you can help me clean up the place, everyone is coming over tonight after the guys get back from their run" Gemma said putting dishes in the dishwasher.

Natalie got some cleaner out of from under the sink and started cleaning the counters and table.

"Hey Natalie could you run to the grocery store for me I forgot a few things" Gemma said going over her plan for dinner.

"Sure I'll go put my shoes on and go "Natalie headed up the stairs.

Natalie walks down the stairs and grabs her purse and keys, she opens the door to leave but comes to a halt seeing a guy in a SOA cut leaning against her car. She slowly backs up shutting the door and walks into the kitchen.

"umm Gemma, there's a guy leaning against my car" she says nervously.

"That's Kozik honey, he's a son, perfectly safe, he is here to go with you to the store, just to be safe".

"I ... I think I will be fine Gemma, no need to make him go with me" Natalie says nervously playing with her keys.

"He won't hurt you Natalie, he is one of Happy's closest friends you can trust him baby" Gemma lays her hand on Natalie's shoulder to comfort her.

"O...Ok Gemma" Natalie turns and heads for the door taking a deep breath before walking out to her car.

Natalie timidly walked up to Kozik "Hi" she said.

Kozik took another puff off his cig and flicked it to the ground "hey you ready to go" he said looking her up and down.

"I'm sorry you have to babysit me, I hate inconveniencing people" she said looking at her fidgeting hands too nervous to make eye contact.

Kozik lets a small laugh escape him "hunny you aren't inconveniencing me, Hap wants you looked after then that's what I will do.

She smiles instantly thinking about happy "OK I'm ready then"

"OK let's go" kozik said taking her keys from her hands and getting in the car.

Arriving at the grocery store they make their rounds through the store getting everything on Gemma's list before heading to the checkout, both remaining silent, her too scared to talk, and Kozik not knowing what to say.

Finally at the checkout line Kozik can't take it anymore "so, must be something special to Hap"

Hearing him speak she jumps out of her own thoughts "umm why do you say that" she says stumbling over her own words.

"well when he called me and asked me to escort a girl to the store, I asked if you were hot and he instantly told me to back the fuck off you weren't available, must be something to him if he gets defensive like that". Kozik said loading the grocery's on the counter.

A small smile forms on her face "I don't know were just friends, I think". She says.

Kozik smirks "yeah, friends" he says with a little laugh.

Later that night Natalie had just placed the last plate on the table when the first knock sounded signaling the first guest had arrived. Gemma yelled out "come in" from the kitchen and Natalie walked up the stairs quick to get ready.

She had just gotten out of the shower when she heard her bedroom door open. "Gemma, is that you".

"I hope not, I don't look good in tight jeans and heels" said a raspy voice.

Pulling her towel tighter around her she peeks out her bathroom door to see Happy sitting on her bed.

"Hi" she says shyly "Hey beautiful, you gonna come out her so I can have a kiss", Happy says.

"Let me get dressed and I will be out in a minute "she says closing the bathroom door.

Happy jumps up and puts his hand on the door stopping it from closing. He slowly pushes against the door opening it all the way to a very nervous Natalie. "You don't have to get dressed for a kiss". He says taking a step in the bathroom.

"Happy, just let me get dressed please, I'm not comfortable being close to you in just a towel." She says, her knuckles turning white from clutching her towel so tight.

"Trust me Natalie, just a kiss". He said now standing right in front of her.

Natalie closes her eyes and takes a deep breath "ok" she whispers.

Happy smiles and lightly places his hands on her towel covered hips, pulling her a little closer without freaking her out. He moves his lips right up to hers and lightly touches her lips with his.

"I missed you baby" he whispers against her lips.

"I missed you too" she says eyes still closed.

Happy pulls back and removes his hands from her hips "I'll go now and let you get dressed, wear something sexy for me" he says with a smile and walks out of her room.

Happy was sitting on the arm of the couch with a beer in his hand talking to Chibs when Natalie came downstairs. She walked past him into the kitchen, grabbed a cig and headed out back. Sitting on a chair she lit her cig and took a drag. The back door open and Tig walks out lighting up his cig.

"Hey darling" he says walking up next to her.

"Hi" Natalie replies nervously her eyes darting to the ground.

"You ok" he asks.

She just nods, trying to calm her nerves, but her hands start to shake. Natalie's heart starts beating fast and she can feel herself starting to have a panic attack. Feeling like she can't breathe she starts to silently cry.

Tig notices that something's wrong and not knowing what's going on, he kneels down next to her not realizing that it will make it worse. At the sight of her flinching away from him he stands back up and backs away.

"Can I help you hunny, I didn't mean to scare you" he says.

"Happy" is all she can get out before she completely breaks down.

"Ok just a second" he says as he walks in the house in search of what she needs.

Gemma walks in the kitchen almost crashing into Tig. "Hey what's wrong" she says.

"Natalie's freaking out back, I just went to smoke and she was out there and she started panicking, do you know where Hap is, she asked for him?" Tig says so fast he didn't take a breath.

"Shit" Gemma says "yeah he is in the living room talking to Chibs"

"Thanks" says Tig walking into the living room.

Happy sees Tig walk in out of the corner of his eye "Hey Hap your needed out back" says Tig.

"And who needs me Tig". He says sarcastically.

"Natalie is having a panic attack she asked for you." Happy jumped up off the couch and headed for the back door.

Outside he found Natalie sitting on the chair hunched over her legs hiding her face breathing fast, crying hysterically. He crouched down in front of her placing his hands on the arms of the chair. Seeing her jump at his arrival made his normally cold heart hurt for her, it killed him how scared this little girl was of everything around her.

"Natalie, calm down, just breath" he said moving his hand to move her hair to the side.

"Happy" she said lifting her head to look at him.

"I'm here you need to calm down your safe Tig won't hurt you baby, I told you that you can trust these guys their family, none of these guys will do anything but help protect you."

"I just…. I don't know how to be ok with anyone Happy, I'm scared….please… I just want to go to my room …. Please" she said her eyes pleading with him.

"I can do that, get up and I'll walk with you to your room" he said grabbing her hand and pulling her out of the chair.

"I…. I don't want everyone to see me like this Happy" she said feeling nervous and embarrassed.

"come here then" he said as he pulled her close and picked her up, Natalie instantly wrapped her arms around his neck and legs around his waist hiding her face in his neck.

Happy turned and walked back in the house caring the tiny girl into the house, passing Gemma who gave him a smile and mouthed thank you to him, Happy nodding to her and making his way to the stairs.

Once upstairs Happy walks into Natalie's room and closes the door moving to her bed and setting her down. Silently he takes his hoodie off setting it on the chair next to her bed before sitting down next to her, pulling Natalie into his side.

"how can I help you through this Natalie, tell me what to do because I have no fucking clue at all how to help you" he says finally letting her in on how lost he is with this.

Natalie lifts her head looking into his eyes surprised by his question. She drops her gaze to the bed, nervously fidgeting her hands in her lap. "Show me it's not bad Happy, let me feel how I'm supposed to feel, so the fear will go away, I just want to know that what happened isn't how it should be." She says keeping her gaze on her hands in her lap too scared to look at him now.

"What r u asking for baby girl, spell it out for me please, I don't want to think the wrong thing." He said putting his finger under her chin and lifting her face to look at him.

Natalie closes her eyes not having the strength to keep looking at him "show me sex isn't bad….please" she whispers.

"You sure that's what you want Natalie?" he asks

She nods her head

Happy leans in and kisses her lips "ok baby, I'll show you, if you need to me to stop tell me and I will" he says before leaning in for another kiss.

Thank you for reading and sorry again for this chapter taking so long. I know this is a big ramble but it's going somewhere I promise. Please review, let me know what you think if this is moving too fast or if it seems right. Thank you for reading.