Disclaimer: I don't own any of the SOA characters only the original.
Thank you for reading I was really happy to see that I still have some original readers that read my story a year ago and you are continuing to read my story, also thank you for the reviews I have been playing around with a couple of ideas and have had some new ones about where to take this story and I hope you like what I decided.
Happy pulled away from Natalie and walked over locking her bedroom door. He turned around facing her and slid his cut off his shoulders laying it on her dresser. Walking back to the bed he slowly sits on the bed in front of her keeping eye contact with her, trying to read what she's thinking.
"Are you really sure you're ready for this beautiful, I don't want you to do this till you're ready". He said moving a strand of her hair out of her face.
"Please happy" she said shifting her body nervously on the bed.
Happy stood from the bed and reached for Natalie's hand, when she put her tiny hand in his he gently pulled her to stand in front of him. Happy could feel her hand that was in his shaking. He pulled her hand up to his lips and kissed it. He pulled her close to his body running his hands down her arms.
"Relax baby, your hearts going to beat out of your chest if you don't." he said leaning down to kiss her.
He moved his kiss from her lips to her neck, while running his hands around her hips and up her back. Happy then stood back up to his full height reaching the hem of Natalie's shirt and slowly pulling it up and over her head. Stopping for a second he admired her beautiful body, her toned abs and large breasts.
"So fucking beautiful baby girl" he said picking her up and sitting her on the bed in front of him.
Happy then wound his hands in Natalie's hair meeting his lips to hers. Moving his hands down to her hips he scooted her back on the bed and moved onto the bed himself hovering over top of her body.
Looking down at her face he could see the fear in her eyes. "You still good honey" he said
All Natalie gave him was a nod as she watched him like a hawk to see what he would do next.
Happy went in for another kiss that moved down her neck to her chest. Reaching under Natalie he unhooked her bra and slid his hands up her arms to pull the straps down while kissing her freshly uncovered breasts.
At the feel of her bra coming off and Happy's hardness pushing against her thigh she felt the panic rise in her throat. She knew she wasn't ready for this but she didn't want to stop him, this was the only way in her head she could feel normal, this would take it all away she thought.
Happy continued kissing around her chest finally coming to her nipple, latching his mouth on it he felt her slightly flinch. Taking a quick glance at Natalie's face she was no longer watching him but had her head turned to the side and her eyes clinched shut with one small tear running down her cheek. That's all it took, Happy knew he couldn't do this anymore he felt like he was torturing the poor girl. She was obviously not ready and he wasn't going to let it go any further. He stopped and rolled off her to lie on his side next to her. Her eyes shot open looking to him.
"What's wrong Happy don't stop please I'm fine" she said in a rush.
"You're not fine baby, I can't do this, you're not ready". He said still gazing down at her.
"Dammit, yes I am, don't tell me what I'm ready for or not I'm an adult Happy, just do it please." She said half sitting up next to him.
"No Natalie, this won't fix how you're feeling it won't make it all go away, it will only make it worse." He said now getting a little agitated.
Now fully sitting up Natalie's words went from a raised voice to a yell "Don't make decisions for me, I'm fucking fine, do you just not want me, cause here I am letting you have me and your turning me down, way to make me feel better Happy, I know I'm damaged goods I'm sorry I'll just fucking leave." She said shooting off the bed grabbing her shirt and throwing it on.
Happy too jumped off the bed grabbing her arm "where are you going, you need to calm down." He said not letting her walk out the door.
"Let go of me Happy, I'm a big girl I can do what I want when I want so let me go, you obviously don't want me." She said yanking her arm from his grasp and turning for the door.
"I know you have been through a lot but your being a little bitch right now Natalie, you need to calm down, I'm not going to fuck you when your shaking and crying about to have a full on panic attack, this isn't what sex will be like with us, when you're ready and I will know your ready I want to show you how it should be baby but you are not ready so calm the fuck down." He said
With that Natalie turned looked him in the eye "Fuck you Happy, you don't get to decide for me" she ran out the door with tears running down her face.
Everyone sitting in the living room had heard some raised voices upstairs but tuned it out, not being any of their business. Then they heard a door slam and Natalie came running down the stairs, grabbing her jacket and keys off the entry table she ran out the front door. Everyone sat there in shock not sure what to do. Happy came running down next, throwing his cut on he went for the door.
Walking out the front door Happy saw Natalie's car take off down the road.
"Fuck" he yelled
Shocking everyone Clay stepped forward pulling Happy back in the door.
"What the fuck did you do to that little girl Happy, I swear if you hurt her I'm going to kick your ass" he said visibly angry.
"I didn't do anything, that's her problem" he said not fully telling what happened.
Yanking is arm from Clay's grasp Happy runs out the door to his bike.
After two hours of searching charming Happy pulls up in front of his house not being successful in tracking down Natalie. After calling her phone over and over and calling Gemma to see if she turned up he was starting to worry.
Natalie pulls into the all night diner right outside of charming, turning off her car she sits staring out the window tears still running down her face.
"I don't know how I could be so stupid, Happy probably hates me now" she says to herself.
Getting out of the car she walks in and sits at a corner booth.
"What can I get you darling" the waitress asks.
"Some coffee would be great thank you" she says not making eye contact.
"I'll get that right out to you "the waitress says walking away.
Coming back the older woman sets Natalie's coffee in front of her "you ok honey". She asks.
"Yeah I'm fine, just a bad night, thank you for the coffee." She says.
The waitress walks to another table to get there order.
After sitting in the diner sipping her coffee for a little over a half an hour she hears the bell on the door ring signaling another customer walked in.
"Hey hun, nice to see you back in town". The waitress says
"Good to see you too, Ruth." Natalie whips her head around in the new customer's direction instantly recognizing the voice.
Sinking down in the booth to try and not be seen Natalie jumps when Kozik sits in the booth across from her.
"Hey darling, hiding from someone?" he asks.
"No, why are you here, did Happy send you" she asks.
"I'm just getting into town was gonna head to TM figured I would stop and get something to eat first. Why would Happy send me, he doesn't know you're here?" he asks.
"No, I kind of ran out on him a while ago." She said feeling embarrassed now.
"Well I've known Hap a long time and I bet he is worried about you, probably a little pissed he can't find you too." He said taking a sip of his coffee the waitress just sat down.
"I know I just feel really stupid I don't want to see him yet, he probably hates me right now." She said look down at the napkin she was fidgeting with.
"What happened darling? I bet Hap doesn't hate you, you have him wrapped around that little finger of yours, I've never seen him like this over a girl." He said.
Kozik took his phone out of his pocket holding it under the table so Natalie wouldn't see and texted hap hey man I found Natalie, she's at the all night diner right outside of town, let me talk to her and I'll bring her back. He pressed send and stuck it back in his pocket. Alright thanks man Happy texted back.
"It's embarrassing" she said, with an obvious blush coming to her face.
"Oh come on it can't be that bad" Kozik said with a chuckle.
"Well umm….. we were about to umm… do things and he said I was freaking out and I wasn't ready and I got mad and yelled at him and he kinda yelled back and then I said fuck you Happy and left" Natalie said.
"So let me get this straight, you and Happy were going to fuck, and he didn't think you were ready so you yelled at each other you said fuck you and left and now you're here worrying that Happy is mad at you" Kozik said with a smirk.
"Yeah I guess that's what happened" she said now embarrassed by his choice of words.
"Hunny, you are way too shy and innocent for this life, but I can tell you this if Happy won't have sex with you because he thinks you're not ready that says something, Happy isn't one to turn down sex so that should tell you he cares a lot about you and yeah he is probably mad for the fuck you comment but all you'll get from that is maybe put over his knee for a little spanking" he said laughing at his last comment.
"Come on Natalie, let's get you back before he sends out the whole club after you" Kozik said standing from the table and tossing a twenty on the table.
Thanks for reading sorry chapter's aren't coming very quick my grandpas in the hospital and I might be making a trip from Oregon to Arizona here soon so I will try to keep the updates coming as soon as I can.
I hope you liked the way I took things and keep reading for more.
