They watched a movie but after 30minutes Ziva fell asleep. Tony watched the movie to the end and then he carried her in the bedroom. He laid her in the bed and covered her up.
"Good night my love.", he whispered in her ear and left the room. He went in the living room, laid down on the couch and after 20minutes he fell asleep aswell. A few hours later Ziva had a nightmare.
'She sits on a chair in a little, dark room. She can't see anything because there are no windows. She sleeps. Or tries it as good as it goes in this hell. She is thirsty and hungry. She hasn't get water the last 2 days. Her hands and feed are chained on the chair. She can't move. The chance for freedom she gave up a long time ago. She hasn't hope anymore. Then she hears voices outside in the floor. It is Saleem how he talks to his men. He is loud and voiceful. She can't understand what he's talking about. He speaks in a language she doesn't understand and he is too distant and that's good, she thought. But then a few moments later the door opens and a man comes in. She knows it is Saleem even if she can't see him in this dark room. I'm ready to die, she says to herself. He comes to her and unlocks her chains. He takes her up and pressed her against the wall. "Oh my dear.", he says in English to her and begin to undress her. After he raped her and she lays on the ground unable to move. He throws a bottle water on the ground to her. She knows it's not the end. It's just the beginning. She crawls to the bottle and drinks the whole bottle as fast as she can. She lays on the ground and knows that he comes back in the next minutes. And after 10minutes he comes back. In his hand a knife. He thrust the knife in her stomach.'
Then she woke up. She sat up and turned the light on. She breathed hard. She looked around the room to be sure she's in a safe place. Slowly she got her breath back and stood up. She went to her bag and took her dopp kit out. She went to the bathroom and sat on the bath tub. She took her sweatpants out and scratched her thighs with a knife. First once, twice and a third time. She looked how the blood dropped in the bath tub. It made her free. It made her feel better and the nightmares ended. Even if they ended only for a short time. It helped her. She breathed calmly and looked at the blood that dropped out of her thighs. She heard a noise from Tony, so she put a bandage around her thighs so that it stops bleeding. Fast she dressed her sweatpants back on and washed the blood out of the bath tub. She took her dopp kit back in the bag and laid down in the bed. The light still on.
Then came Tony in.
"Is all okay, with you?",he asked worried.
"Yes, why shouldn't it?", she answered him.
"The light is on and I thought I heard you."
"It's just, I had a nightmare." He came in and sat next to her on the bed.
"Can I help you anywise?"
"No, Tony, I'm fine, you can go.", she answered quickly. She has never showed emotions to someone and she didn't want to start now.
"Okay.", Tony answered and left the room.
Ziva slept. The light was still turned on, but she slept. A few hours later Tony made breakfast. He made pancakes with syrup and coffee. He brought the breakfast to Ziva and put it on the night stand. He shook her gently to wake her up. She sat up like a shot and looked around the room. Then she saw Tony and calmed down.
"Morning, I've made breakfast for you.", he pointed on the night stand.
"Thanks, but I'm not hungry, Tony.", she declined with thanks.
"You have to eat, Ziva. You haven't eat since you came in the hospital."
"But I'm not hungry, Tony, I don't need something."
"You must eat!", he said and left the room.
"I, I can't.", she said after he left the room. She looked at the food. The smell bothered her. She looked away, fell down on the bed and her eyes closed. After 30minutes Tony came in to look if she ate something. He saw her lying on the bed and went to her. He shook her to wake her up but it didn't worked. He checked her pulse. She has low pulse. He called an ambulance and after 10minutes the ambulance arrived. The paramedics came in the bedroom and checked Ziva. She got an intravenous line and an oxygen mask. After 10more minutes she opened her eyes. 2paramedics brought her in the ambulance and another asked Tony what happened. He told what happened and drove with them to the hospital.
At the hospital they brought Ziva in a room. She had still an oxygen mask, two intravenous lines and got tube-fed. She woke up and looked at Tony who sat next to her.
"Hey.", he said as she looked at him.
"What happened?", she asked confused.
"You didn't ate and passed out.", he answered her. She looked at the tubes around her.
"How are you feeling?"
"I'm fine, Tony."
"And now the truth, Ziva!", he told her and she sighed.
"I, I'm weak and I'm tired.", she told him and he nodded. He grabbed her hand.
"Try to sleep a bit and I'm back in an hour, okay?", he suggests and she agreed, so he left. He drove to the Navy Yard and went in the bullpen. There wasn't someone except Ellie.
"Tony? I thought you took a few days off?"
"Yes, I'm just here to talk to Gibbs."
"Oh okay, he is in the autopsy."
"Thank you." he took the elevator to the autopsy and went out.
"Boss, we need to talk."
"DiNozzo? What are you doing here?"
"Ziva is in the hospital again.", Tony told him and Gibbs sighed. They left the Navy Yard and drove quickly to the hospital, Ziva is in. They arrived and went to her room. There she laid in the bed and talked to a nurse. They went in.
"Gibbs.", she said amazed.
"Ziva. How are you.", he asked worried.
"I'm fine."
"Don't lie at me. You're laying in the hospital. What happened?"
"I passed out."
"Why, Ziva? What happened?"
"I don't know."
"Ziva, you know why! You refused to eat something.", Tony said angry. Gibbs sat next to her on a chair and took her hand.
"Is this true, Ziva?", Gibbs asked her, she nodded slowly and embarrassed.
"Ziva you must eat something and you need sleep."
"I can't, Gibbs."
"Why not?"
"I'm fat."
"You're not, Ziva. You weight too little.", Tony yelled at her.
"Get your ass out of her!", Gibbs yelled at Tony and Tony left. He sat down outside on a chair.
"I'm fat.", she said to Gibbs.
"You're not!", he tried to calm her down. He gave her a kiss on the forehead.
"Sleep a bit.", he said to her and went outside to Tony. He's talking to Ziva's doctor at the moment. He went to them.
"What does she have?!", Tony asked.
"She hasn't eaten the last years. Only if there wasn't another way.", the doctor explained. That was a shock for Tony and Gibbs.
"And now?", Gibbs asked.
"There are two ways. I'll explain them and you can choose. The first is that she comes in a psychiatry ward for the next months and the other option is that she lives with one of you. If you choose this you've to look after her 24hours a day.", the doctor explained.
"You can think about that, but I need a decision the next days.", the doctor said and left in Ziva's room to check her. Tony and Gibbs sat down on chairs and talked about the options and what Tony thought about yelling at her.
Tony and Gibbs sat in the hospital floor while Ziva laid in her hospital bed and slept. They talked about what the doctor has said.
"What's with Ziva now?!"; Tony asked Gibbs.
"You think Ziva goes in a psychiatric ward?", Gibbs asked him sarcastically.
"No, but we have no time for her, 24hours a day, we've to work.", Tony answered him.
"You love her, DiNozzo! You can´t institutionalize her. She lives at mine! I take care about her."
"Mmmh.", Tony mumbled and Gibbs left. After 2hours he came back. Tony sat next to Ziva and held her hand. Gibbs came in and Tony looked at him.
"Where were you?", he asked.
"At home.", he answered. Then came Zivas doctor in.
"You´ve already made a decision?", the doctor asked them two.
"Yes, she lives at mine.", Gibbs answered.
"Okay we can go in my office to talk about the details.", the doctor suggests. Tony and Gibbs followed him in his office. They sat down on the chairs and talked.
"Okay, someone has always to be there, not exactly next to her but in the same house. The front door has to be locked.", the doctor explained and Tony looked at Gibbs and laughed. Gibbs looked at him and he stopped. The doctor continued
"She needs 3IVs a day. In the morning, at midday and in the evening. She needs to be scaled in the morning and in the evening and her blood pressure should be checked in the morning and evening."
"That's all?", Gibbs asked.
"Two times per week she needs to see a therapist and every 3weeks a doctor should check her. That's it."
"When can she leave?", Tony asked.
"Tomorrow."
"Okay. Thanks, doc.", both said and went to Ziva. She woke up as they came in. She looked at them tiredly.
"Hey.", Tony said and went to her.
"Hey.", she answered him.
"How are you?", Gibbs asked her.
"Better. When can I leave?", she looked at Gibbs hopefully.
"Tomorrow, but you need to stay at mine for awhile.", he answered her.
"Why?"
"So that you eat something, Ziva.", Gibbs explained her and she nodded.
"I go to work.", Gibbs said, kissed her forehead and left. Tony staid with her.
"Tell me that you are there too."
"I can if you want.", Tony told her and kissed her hand.
"Yes, please."
"Okay.", Tony talked to Ziva and Gibbs drove to the DIYmarket. He bought locks for the front door and the cellar door. Then he drove to another store to buy a scale and other stuff. As he arrived home he fit the locks into the doors. Upstairs he has a room for Ziva. He bought a new bed for the room, a TV and other stuff what Ziva needs. Then he went in his basement to build on his boat. The next morning he drove to the hospital. He went to Ziva. She's already waiting for him.
"Can we go?", he asked her and she nodded. Gibbs took her bag and Tony helped her to walk to the car. Ziva sat down on the passenger seat, Gibbs drove and Tony was on the back seat. They arrived at Gibbs house and the boys helped Ziva to come out. They walked slowly with Ziva to the front door and Gibbs unlocked it.
"You bought a lock for your door?!", Ziva asked amazed.
"Yes. Come in." They went in and showed Ziva her room.
Ziva came with Gibbs and Tony in her room. They helped her to lay down.
"You want to drink something, Ziva?"
"No, thanks, maybe later.", she answered Gibbs. He nodded.
"I'm in my basement.", Gibbs told them and left.
"Are you okay?", Tony asked her.
"Yes, I'm just tired. It's strenuous."
"That's because you don't eat."
"Don't begin like this again."
"Okay. Sleep a bit. Maybe you feel better then."
"You stay here?"
"If you want that." she nodded, so he staid with her. She laid in her bed and closed her eyes. Tony sat down in a chair in the edge of the room next to the window and is on his laptop. Ziva fell asleep. Tony put the laptop away and sat in the chair and watched Ziva. He just starred at her. 1hour...2hours...3hours..Then she moved crampy. He looked confused. She opened her eyes and screamed. Tony couldn't understand her. She yelled something in Hebrew. Tony went to her. He shook her to wake her up. But all what happened was that she yelled more and get into panic.
"GIBBS!", Tony yelled. A bit later Gibbs came in to them.
"What happened?", he asked.
"I don't know. She slept and then happened this. I think she has a nightmare." Gibbs nodded. He put his hands on Zivas shoulders and held her. Tony held her feet. After awhile she calmed down and get clear. She looked at Gibbs.
"Are you okay?", Gibbs asked her and she nodded slowly. He put his hands away. Tony aswell. Tony laid his hand on her cheek but she pulled his hand away.
"Don't touch me!", she yelled still a bit confused.
"Ziva, what happened?", Gibbs asked her.
"I had a nightmare, I guess."
"Better now?", Tony asked her.
"I think so."
"Okay." Tony and Gibbs left the room. She sat in her bed, the legs cross and she breathed hard. Tony and Gibbs went down in the kitchen.
"She dreamed from Saleem, didn't she?", Tony asked him.
"I think so, but you don't know what else happened in her life. Maybe it wasn't Saleem." Tony nodded.
"And now?", he asked Gibbs.
"Now she get her food.", Gibbs said because it's already in the evening.
Ziva went to the bathroom. She undressed her sweatpants and took her knife. She cut her sighs a few times and looked what she had done. The knife fell out of her hand. She looked at her sighs, all the blood dropped down on the floor. She breathed calmly and closed her eyes. She was free for a bit. She took a bandage and put it around her sighs. She wiped the blood from the floor and from the knife. The knife she put back in her bag and she dressed her sweatpants back on.
Tony and Gibbs went upstairs and knocked on Zivas door. They came in.
"Ziva?", Tony asked.
"One moment.", she answered. She flushed the toilet and came out. She sat down on the bed.
"You need to go on the scale, Ziva.", Gibbs told her.
"No, Gibbs.", she answered him but he just looked at her with his 'Gibbs-look' so she stood up. Tony helped her to go on the scale.
"Gibbs, 46kg.", Tony said and helped Ziva to sit down on the bed again. Gibbs wrote it down on a sheet. Tony took her pulse. He told Gibbs the results.
"Ziva your pulse is too low.", Gibbs told her. He gave her the IV with the artificial food. She laid down on the bed.
"I go home.", Tony said and was about to go, but then said Ziva
"No, Tony, don't go. Stay here, please.", she begged him. Gibbs kissed her forehead.
"Good night, Ziva.", he said and left the room. Tony laid down on the other side of the bed.
"Sure that I should stay here?", he asked her and she nodded.
"Why shouldn't I?"
"Because earlier I shouldn't even touch you.", he told her. She turned around an looked at him.
"Tony, I'm sorry, I don't remember." He took her hand and held it.
"Okay. Sleep. I'm here. I protect you from your nightmares.", he calmed her down. Before she felt asleep she said tiredly
"Hold me!" and Tony wrapped his arm around her.
"Night.", he kissed her hairs and fell asleep as well.
