Thanks to Juliette, who beta this text for me.
The first time she comes upon the name of Bellamy Blake he's a criminal and a traitor. He shot Thelonius and ran away by the 100 dropship. He's a murderer and he is down there with a bunch of delinquents.
(And Clarke.)
The first time she meets Bellamy Blake he's been pardonned, he's covered in blood and dust and he's handcuffed because he just attacked another kid. She hasn't time to take interest in him at first because she has the Ark's survivors to take care of and her daughter to search for. However she quickly comes to the realisation that Bellamy Blake is one of the only persons who cares about what happened to the kids.
(And Clarke.)
So she helps him out of his cell, provides him a gun and lets him go with the other kids they've found. Praying that in doing so she was not committing her biggest mistake.
(For Clarke. She's doing this for Clarke.)
Of course things don't turn out as expected and Clarke comes back to camp before Bellamy. So overjoyed at having her daughter back, Abby almost forgets about the boy until he shows up again with two wounded. It's sort of a mess, Finn and Murphy are God knows where with rifles, but she doesn't have time to worry about it. Clarke rushes past her, running faster than she ever saw her run, throws her arms around Bellamy Blake's neck and hugs him so tight she's probably hurting him. The boy staggers a minute, confused, beforme wrapping Clarke in his own arms and hugging her back.
The look of utter relief he's wearing on his face changes something in the way Abby looks at him.
Everything else happens very fast, Jaha shows up again –how on earth did he manage to join them, that's a mystery-, the Grounders are surrounding them, Clarke and Bellamy refuse any authority and vanish in the woods with their friend the way they want, Thelonius looks like he's out of his mind, they're given an ultimatum, Clarke's only concern is for the kids trapped in Mount Weather, she obviously has no sense of the priority, Clarke…
Clarke walks straight to the Grounders and negociate a truce by getting one of them off the drug that's turning him into a Reaper. Clarkes walks amongst the warriors and kills the boy she loves to spare him a night of torture. Clarke doesn't shake, doesn't scream, walks back to camp and vanishes inside what's left of the Ark.
Bellamy Blake follows her without a word, like a shadow.
From Finn's death day Abby ceases to see Bellamy as a delinquent and a dangerous rebel.
Within the days and weeks that follow the truce with the Grounder, Abby sees her daughter drown herself in work. Clarke's never been that withdrawn, that cold and quiet, even with her. She makes battle plans, strikes out on expedition, prepares munitions, avoids Raven, makes round trips to the Grounders camp to organize the assault. Her eyes and cheeks grow hollow amongst with the sleepless days.
Abby tries everything she can to help her out of her apathy, to oblige her to feed herself and get some sleep. It a day-to-day fight, one in vain. Clarke pushes away her hands and her help. Clarke, actually, pushes everyone away. Except him. It may be because he is not really trying to help her in the end. He's just there. He follows her like a shadow, wherever she goes, and she doesn't tell him to back off. Abby eventually understands Bellamy's strategy. Instead of trying to give her something she obviously doesn't want, he waits for her to ask for it. He stays here to be ready to catch her the day she collapses.
In this Clarke-against-Clarke war Abby understands that Bellamy Blake is the only one able to interpose himself. The traitor, the delinquent, the rebel has become the thin and only bond between Abby and her daughter. And she doesn't know if she's thankful or if she hates him for that.
