Pairing: Dramione

Chapter 16:

Hermione's POV:

*Day before the Trial*

The trial is tomorrow and I've had a rock setting and it gets worse with each hour passing. Draco and I haven't talked in almost a week. It hurts and I have to tell myself not to think about him because if I do I won't be able to stop and then I can't concentrate on the trial. I still haven't told anyone yet and the truth is I'm scared to. I'm scared because I'm afraid they'll see me as a different person. They'll treat me like I'm broken and I'm not. I've actually grown stronger because of it. If he hadn't raped me I wouldn't have Autumn in my life and I don't know what I would do without her now. I can barely remember my life before Autumn.

My day at St. Mungo's is busy. Everybody decided that February 13 is the day to get broken bones and stitches. It does keep my day busy though, which is nice. Without the distractions of dosing out Skele-gro and counting out enchanted needles I would be a mess. I had asked for the Valentine's Day a week ago and everyone asked what Draco was planning. Needless to say it was a terrible day. I had to admit that Draco and I broke up and I was taking the day off for a family emergency. After my explanation I was given pity looks for the next two days, which is what I was trying to avoid. During my lunch break I peck my food. I've been so nervous in the last month that I've barely been eating. Now I weigh less then what I did pre-pregnancy. The night before when I took a shower I could see my ribs. I try to eat more of my sandwich but end up throwing more than half away.

After a few more broken bones and stitches I sign out of my shift and take Autumn home. I try not to be too crabby tonight but it's using all of my concentration not to scream. Harry and Ginny promised to watch Autumn tomorrow while I was at the trial. I haven't told them and I know they are suspicious about something, but they haven't said anything. I decided that after the trial tomorrow, no matter if I win or lose I will tell them. And by them I mean everyone. It's time for me to be honest. After dinner I clean Autumn up and put her in play pen while I clean the kitchen up. Afterwards I give her a bath and get her ready for bed. I cherish her bed time routine tonight in case it's the last time I'll be able to tuck her safely in her crib. I take in all the small details and go slower than usual. When I put her in her crib and shut her door a few tears slip from my cheeks and I walk numbly in my room to go to bed as well. Tomorrow will be hell.

A/N: Kind of a filler chapter, sorry. But the next chapter is the trial so it won't be long now. Thanks for reading.

Inklover4eva: I wish, trust me I didn't like writing their break up.

MalfoyTwin: I'm so glad you love my story. Thank you for saying I'm one of your favorite fanfic authors. That means so much to me considering I'm pretty insecure of my writing. I kind of despise myself as well.

AliceGI: Yeah I don't like he did it either, but it's part of the story. You'll just have to read to see if they get back together.