Thursday, March 27, 9:36 PM
Brian arrives at the apartment and knocks on the door. "Hey Liv, its me." He calls out from the other side.
She opens the door for him welcoming him inside while she wears a welcoming matching grin.
" Hey, come on in." she says. He steps inside and she closes the door behind him. "Can I get you something to drink?" Olivia asks
Bryan is nervously wringing his hands and is nervously shifting his weight back and forth between his two legs. "Umm water is fine." he then proceeds to take off his jacket and take a seat on the familiar couch. "Actually do you have any beer?" he says thinking that he may have to loosen up a little.
"Yea I do Bry. Do you want a Blue Moon?" she shouts over from kitchen
"Blue Moon is fine."
She pops open his beer smiling knowing that it is his favorite. Somewhere along the lines of their relationship she grew to end up developing a liking for the strangely orange flavored beer. She then starts remembering how his kisses sometimes tasted like it and how after he moved out she seemed to be drinking and stocking up on that beer more than her usual wine preference.
She jars herself from her thoughts and revers herself back into the present and then pours herself a third cup of wine. She previously do downed two wine glasses before he arrived having similar thoughts of maybe if she loosened up a bit that this conversation will somehow be easier.
With the beer and glass of wine in her hand she walks over to the living room handing Bryan his choice of alcohol and taking a swig of her wine before setting it down on the coffee table.
"Sooo..." They both manage to say at the same time."
"No you go first." Again synchronized.
They both laugh. " Go ahead Liv" Bryan says
"Ok so first off I just wanna apologize for last night. Noah has had me feeling really tired lately. He is teething so he gets cranky and when he's cranky I get all-"
"No need to apologize. I shouldn't have just showed up like that. We have separate lives now. You moved on and you're happy. All I ever wanted is for you is to be happy. I love seeing you smile. I mean I know we have things to work on but I'm willing to try if you are." He takes a long swig of is beer before he allows himself to her her answer.
" I thought you wanted me to talk first Cassidy." Her statement brings forth a laughter in them both and she gulps down some more of her wine trying to alleviate some of the tension in the air.
" I had some time to think it over and I want to give us another go but I'm not comfortable with you meeting Noah yet. You have to show me that you really want this, that when this gets too hard and too much handle that you're willing to stick through it."
" I don't want to start an argument... but as my memory serves me, I was always the one willing to stick through the hard times to figure this out. I'm just mad that I didn't fight hard enough for us. That was my mistake. Yea the idea if having a child scares me but there is no one in the world that I rather be scared with Liv." he looks over at afraid of what she will say next.
" I know I kept a wall up around certain aspects of what happened to me and I'm willing to knock down those walls...but in my own time. And Bryan for the record I just meant that raising a child is a lot. It's a whole other person depending completely on you. I know that you love me and stuck by my side through the whole Lewis ordeal. Even checking up on me after the second time he got to me, thank you for that. Thanks for being my rock." She takes a hold of his hand and scoots closer to him on the couch. Olivia leans her head on his shoulder and then he turns and takes a hold of her face looking deep into her eyes.
They both smile and she leans in going for a kiss. It starts off as light pecks and soon they are battling each others tongues. He is soon hovering over her on the couch and starts sucking on her neck knowing he will probably leave a mark. She starts unbuttoning his shirt button by button as things start to heat up. She pulls out his tucked in shirt out from the inside of his pants and tosses it somewhere over her shoulder. Again he attacks her lips with hungry kisses. She slightly opens her mouth and runs her tongue along his bottom lip then gives it a little bite. He breaks the kiss for a brief moment to go back to kissing that part of her neck that he knows she can't resist.
They pause when they hear a loud chiming noise that could have possibly just ruined their hot and heavy moment.
He breaks away from her and they both are out of breath.
" Whoa Liv." Cassidy says wearing a grin as he hovers over body.
They both erupt in laughter and she blushes.
Her phone chimes again reminding her of why they stopped kissing in the first place. Bryan then settles into the seat next to her and she straightens up and pulls the phone out from her pocket
It is a text from Lucy with an attached picture of a sleeping Noah.
[Noah's out like a light. Goodnight see you tomm.]
" Its from my sitter, just let me respond really quick."she smiles down at her phone and types,
[ Night Lucy, thanks for everything. You are the best. Send Noah my love. See you tomm.] she hits send and looks over at Bryan.
"Little dude is out for the night?" Bryan asks
"I have the place to myself tonight so how about we start back off from where we left off." She says with a smirk on her face.
"Are you sure?" he says in a state of disbelief, still not believing that just minutes ago they were hungrily fighting for dominance as they kissed.
" I want this." She pulls her shirt off and kisses Bryan a little bit more sensually than she did before. "Lets take this to the bedroom." She gets up, takes hold of his hand and leads him into the bedroom. She closes the door as they kiss their way over to the bed. He kicks off his shoes and starts to unbutton his pants and slides them down. He makes his way over to Olivia and both of their clothes are gone in a matter of seconds.
11:42 PM
" Wow Liv, just wow." He says as he slips out of her and his head hits the pillow.
" You're not so bad yourself there partner" she says laughing.
" I missed this, she says. I'm probably going to be sore in the morning but I missed this."
" You and me both Liv" laughter fills the room. They cuddle closer together and fall asleep in each others arms.
Saturday morning the next day, March 28 , 6:32 AM
"Morning" Bryan whispers as he feels her stirring awake
The light escapes from the window hitting the walls and illuminating the room.
Her head lays on his bare chest and she feel his heart beating.
"Good morning, how long have you been watching me sleep?" she chuckles out.
She smiles and he gently kisses her forehead. " Not long." he smiles
"Sorry to kill the mood so early in the morning but about last night...I was so caught up in the moment but you wore a condom right?"
They both look over at each wide eyed.
" Bryan! You wore a condom right? "
He looks over at her. " I think so" he hesitantly responds back.
"What do you mean, you think so? It is either a yes or no?" she says sitting up.
"Well things were happening so fast, but I think I slipped one on. Aren't you on the pill still?"
"No! I'm not on the pill anymore, why do you think that I'm asking?"
"Oh my God."
"What? " she looks at him confused and angry "What happened?"
He holds up the unused condom still in its wrapper.
" I don't think I ever put it on Liv."
Now it's it's her turn to panic.
" Oh my a God!" She immediately starts to get out from the bed and tries to run but before she could do that he grabs her by by the waist.
"What's the big deal Liv, it's not like you are some 20 something year old who-"
She removes herself from his hold " How dare you?" she shouts at him
She gets out from the bed and slips an over-sized T shirt over her head. Then she starts picking up his clothes and throwing it in his face.
"Liv I'm sorry that isn't what I meant. All I'm saying is that we aren't young anymore and if you're worried about being pregnant then you shouldn't be?"
" I shouldn't be because what, you're going to suddenly become father of the year? And you're right I'm not one of your 20 something year old hookers."
"Wow, low blow Liv."
" I'm just it calling like I see it. Who knows what a you could have got rubbing up with one of those girls."
"You know what I'm just going to go."
" Good idea!" She yells
" I'll talk to you later when have had some time to cool off." He starts putting on his clothes that were scattered from the night before and exits the room.
She scoffs at him then sits on the edge of the bed. Trying to keep herself together. Then she hears the front door slam shut.
She decides to hop in the shower before she ends up late to work which would ruin her day even further.
The steam from the hot water fills the room creating a heavy fog and she lets the water beat against her skin.
"What is wrong with me" she thinks to herself. "Things were going so well...and being pregnant with my own child would be nice and Noah would have a sibling, am I even ready for that? Is he? Bryan was right though. I'm probably too old anyways. Having a child at my age, they would probably end up with so many medical complications and I would only end up blaming myself for it. Me? Pregnant? What am I even thinking? Now I feel kind of bad for saying what I said to Bryan, he was just trying to calm me down and I didn't even let him finish a sentence without jumping to all these conclusions. Maybe we jumped into this way too quickly. Maybe? No we did jump into this too quickly...but it just felt right being with him." She turns off the shower and starts to get ready for the day but as she is getting ready a thought that crosses her mind scares her.
She can't remember when she had her last period.