Saturday April 4, 9:27 AM
Olivia impatiently sits at the OBGYN office waiting for them to call her name.
She repeatedly shakes her foot up and down due to the fact that she is nervous but also because Bryan said he would be here and hasn't arrived yet. She sent him a few text messages and tried calling, but his phone went to voice mail. And Bryan being Bryan didn't empty out his mailbox so there is no room for her to leave a message.
"Benson?" a nurse calls out.
Olivia rises to walk over to the nurse.
Bryan unbelievably has impeccable timing and just arrived rushing towards her.
"Where were you?" Olivia grits through her teeth.
As he opens his mouth to respond she shushes him " You know what, never mind, we'll talk later."
Olivia angrily walks ahead of him following the nurse with him trailing behind them.
As they get into the room the nurse weighs Olivia and takes her height and blood pressure.
"I already sent your urine sample to the lab so just change out of your pants and wait on these stirrups, Dr. Palmer will here shortly with your results and to give you an exam."
"Thank you." Olivia responds back.
The nurse then smiles and exits the room leaving Olivia and Bryan alone to wait on the doctor.
There is an uncomfortable silence between the two.
"I'm sorry Liv."
"I've heard that before." she scoffs
"I really am sorry. Listen I woke up late because Tucker had me on this case and I didn't get home till late. My phone is dead and I was going to charge it in the car on my way here but it wouldn't start, so I just opted for the subway."
"So this is Tucker's fault? It's always the same excuse every time."
"No I'm not blaming anyone here. Don't act like you're job hasn't held you back from getting somewhere in time or even showing up to something I planned."
"I'm not acting like anything, this is important."
"I know it is. That is why I'm here...Listen I don't want to argue with you."
"Then don't."
The room is now filled with tension and just then there is knock on the door and Dr. Palmer walks in.
"Hello Olivia, how are we doing today?"
"Nervous." She laughs out.
"Well that is understandable. I have some news for you, you're pregnancy results came back positive, Congratulations Olivia."
"Thank you, and oh sorry this is Bryan, my...the um..father."
"Well nice to meet you, Congratulations to you too Bryan."
"Thanks Doc." he nods
"Well Olivia as you know I'm not one to sugarcoat things but because of your age this is going to be a high risk pregnancy."
"Yes, I understand." she says as her smile fades away.
"Some of the risks include Gestational diabetes, pre- eclampsia, high blood pressure, placenta praevia and placental abruption. Your child is also at risk at having chromosomal problems such as down-syndrome. And the most fatal would be this resulting in a miscarriage."
Olivia lets out a huge sigh and Bryan walks over to her to hold her hand.
"I'm sorry if I'm scaring you two, but I like my patients to be informed and aware so that they have the opportunity to make the best decisions for themselves and for their family, so that they are well equipped to consider all options. Any questions so far?"
"Umm But there is a chance that our child can be completely healthy and that Olivia has a normal pregnancy...right?
" Yes absolutely." the doctor says responding back to Bryan.
"Olivia, you can have an amniocentesis done or we can do a chorionic villus sampling to check for any abnormalities but we'll cross that bridge when we get there. Right now I'm going to do a trans vaginal sonogram to see how far along you are and to see if everything is coming along nicely. So I'm going to need you to lie back, you might feel some light pressure, Bryan will you get the lights please."
Bryan squeezes Olivia's hand for assurance then walks over to the lights then quickly returns back to her side.
Dr, Palmer maneuvers the probe until she finds the picture of what shes looking for." Good news, everything seems to be in order. That right there would be your baby Olivia, and that flutter is your baby's heart beating." The doctor says pointing at the screen.
Olivia eyes start to water and she looks over at Bryan giving his hand a squeeze.
"I would say that fetus is at approaching the 9 week mark. Putting your due date at around October 24th. Also I want to start you on pre-natal vitamins as soon as possible."
Olivia wipes a tear away. "Yeah, yeah of course. Anything to keep this baby healthy."
" I'll print you out some sonogram pictures for you and your loved ones." The doctor replies then flicks on the lights while Olivia sits up.
" Here are your sonogram pictures." Dr. Palmer says handing it to Bryan while handing something to Olivia to clean herself off with.
"Also here are some pamphlets for you two." she says handing them a stack of papers.
"You're all set to go.. and I know you have crazy work hours Olivia but I want to see you back here in 2 weeks. Call me if you have any questions between now and then."
"Yes, I'll be here...Umm Bryan do you mind getting the car around while I get dressed." She says handing him the keys from her bag.
"Uhh...um yea Liv, I'll meet you at front...Thanks again Doctor."
Bryan leaves the room and closes the door behind him.
"Before you go Dr. Palmer, there are some things I wanted to talk to you about without Bryan around."
"I understand. What's your question Olivia?"
" Well I wanted to ask you about my alcohol consumption. Before I took a home pregnancy test or even had a thought of me being pregnant I was drinking a few glasses of wine on the regular... I just don't want this pregnancy to end in a miscarriage like before. It would kill me to know that I lost a second child or my child ends up having Fetal Alcohol Syndrome because of my reckless behavior." Tears are running down her face and she wipes them away as fast as they fall.
"Olivia as long as you stop drinking now, you're baby can be completely healthy. Every pregnancy is different. Some women drink throughout the whole nine months and have a healthy child with no abnormalities." Dr. Palmer rests her hand on Olivia's shoulder ,"Listen, I want you to enjoy this pregnancy Olivia. You can't keep blaming yourself. Women can suffer through a miscarriage and go on to have healthy pregnancies after that. I need you to take it easy though, relax, don't stress yourself out, we don't need you having high blood pressure. I know you wanted a child for very long time and at one point we even discussed other options for you to make this happen. So I need you to believe that this is happening and that you will make it through this, ok?"
"Ok." she says letting out a sigh of relief but then tenses back up again "...And Bryan doesn't know about the whole miscarriage thing so..."
"No need to explain, I won't disclose anything without your permission. See you in two weeks Olivia."
"Thank you, see you then."Olivia smiles through her tear stained face.
Dr. Palmer nods her head and leaves the patient room for Olivia to dress.
Olivia slides her pants and shoes back on to meet Bryan waiting outside in the car for her. She quickly goes to the bathroom to touch up her make-up and to not make it look like she was just balling her eyes out.
10: 52 AM, Outside in the car
Olivia slides into the passenger seat and buckles in her seat belt avoiding eye contact with Bryan.
" You took a while, you ok Liv?"
"Yea, I'm fine" she lies while she looks out the window.
He stretches his hand out to her and surprisingly she takes hold of it.
"I know you're not fine but I'm not going to press the issue. I'm here whenever you need to talk." He pulls her hand up to his lips and places a soft kiss on it to show her how much he cares.
Olivia looks over at Bryan catching his eyes "I will talk to you Bryan...but when I'm ready."
" Liv..."
"I promise ok."
He nods his head not wanting to pressure her into talking "So where am I driving you to, the precinct or home?"
"Actually can you drive me to Dr. Lindstrom's office, you can take my car and just pick me up later?"
"Sure, no problem Liv."
20 min later
They pull up to Dr. Lindstrom's office and she unbuckles her seat belt.
"I'll just park the car and hang around the area Liv, you know pick up some things to make dinner with, look around the area. Just text me when you're ready to go."
She leans in giving him a quick peck. "I shouldn't be long, I'll see you you soon."
Olivia exits the car hurrying off for her session with her therapist as Bryan sits in the car watching her leave wondering if he will ever get her to truly open to him, no matter how much they love each other, his love may never be enough.
A/N: Olivia had a miscarriage and Bryan doesn't know? What is Olivia talking about? Find out in the next upcoming chapter!
Whoa 10 Chapters, didn't know I had it in me! I felt that Olivia was too happy so I decided to shake things up a bit. What's a good story without a little drama, right?