A/N: OK this has a smut scene with not Damon. OK SPOILERS it's Kol. I just wanted Damon to know the full extent of what Elena was doing…

I don't own TVD. I forgot to mention that in the first chapter.

DPOV

I'd been looking for Elena for six months in this damn state. I watched her graduate, but I didn't follow her home. I thought I'd give her time to find a new job and settle into a new state. Finding her would be easy, it wasn't like she was compelled to not use her real name.

However when I scoured the internet for her – more like stalking her Facebook page, it still stated she lived in Massachusetts, with "bar owner" as her occupation. Bar owner? What?

I'd been searching for days in all the high class fancy bars, and then the more homey English / Irish type pubs. Those were the types of bars I could see her owning. But now I'd given up, thinking perhaps she had moved and hadn't updated her profile. I walked into this strip club to just have a drink before I hit the road the next morning, you know? Chill out a little and watch some beautiful girls on the poles.

If my heart was beating at a normal human rate, it probably would of burst out of my damn chest when I saw her up on stage. She as skinny as hell, worse for wear then she on her graduation day. The dark circles under her eyes – what the fuck? Was she on drugs now? Her hips protruding out and looking unsightly, yet the guys here loved it. They loved her, I could tell by the way the men in front of her were watching her, not only with lust, but… wait, was that adoration? They adored my Elena who was working that damn pole like a pro? Where the fuck did she learn that?

I had kept tabs on her over the last 4 years, only to make sure she was alive and had money in her bank account. She was doing really well, I had no idea she was stripping though. Did Stefan know? That son of a….. I should call him…

"Stefan! I found Elena…." I started, how the hell do you tell your brother that his ex-girlfriend who he still loves in now a stripper and possibly on drugs?

"Where about? Her Facebook says she's still in MA"

"Yep. In a strip club, brother" I thought I better come out with it "She looks pretty unhealthy, Stef, I think she's on drugs…"

"I know about the stripping." Stefan said "but not the drugs, nor that she was still doing it"

"Stefan! We said we wouldn't delve into her life! We'd just leave her be…" I said, pulling at my hair, why the hell didn't he tell me about this? I could of helped her financially, she wouldn't of had to of known.

"Yeah but we also agreed to let her get on with her own life while she's in college. Unless she started harming herself or those around her, we all agreed to stay out until now"

He had a point. She was a free woman. Each and every single one of us agreed that Stefan and I would stay out of her live until she graduated.

Which was shit for me because she finally realized that she wanted to be with me. That's right. She switched brothers. Who didn't see it coming? It just took time, was all.

"Stefan, she's walking my way? What do I do?" I said, almost panicking.

"Do as we all agreed. The compulsion wears off when she looks into your eyes and learns your name, Damon. But you need to get her away from the bar before you tell her your name, the memories we took away from here will come flooding back…. It may not be a pretty sight, losing her parents, Jenna, Jeremy multiple times, Alaric, well… you know what happens. Get her away from crowds" Stefan said "And brother, don't fuck this up. She loved you before we tore that away from her. Don't make me regret not finding her before you got to her. I still love her"

God this twit would never give up on her, would he? "Alright, brother. Cya 'round"

EPOV

Those eyes belonged to a man sitting in the back of my bar, well I guess, more towards the front door in the corner. I motioned for Sophia to take over from me, I had to find out who this man was.

I jumped down from the stage, both men and woman "boo'ing" me, some started to follow, but I held my hand up in a "stop" motion, and they all obeyed. I was queen around here. No denying it.

This was the man that haunted my dreams when I finally got to sleep. This was the man who I assumed had influenced my decision to buy my Camaro. This the the man.

I strode up to him, shoulder square, face looking forwards. Making myself look staunch, but as I got closer I relaxed more. This guy looked like a bad guy. Fuck I loved bad guys. He was wearing black jeans with a tight black t-shirt… oh fuck I wanted to rip it off him right then and there. I could see the outlines of his chiselled chest, and his hair, oh is raven black hair. I just wanted to run my hands through it.

"Elena?" He questioned as soon as I was a mare few inches from him.

"You know me. You know my name. I dream of you. Those eyes…" I said, gazing into the blue orbs that consumed many of my waking and dreaming moments. "Please tell me your name" I added. I had lifted my hands up to touch his face, stroking his cheeks gently.

"I can't tell you that right now, Elena. How about you finish your shift here, and then we get out of here? Alone?"

For some reason I trusted this man. I had a strict policy which stated that none of my girls were to leave with a man, and any man they wanted to leave with had to have my approval when they began working for me. But this man…. I trusted him with my life for some reason, and I didn't even know his name.

"OK. I have a few things to do, the bar closes at 1am tonight, I'll be upstairs… ah... Doing businesses, after that we can leave. I'll tell my staff to allow you to stay here during close up"

I closed my eyes and walked away. I had meet eyes with a regular client while I was up on stage and he "nodded" at me, showing me he was interested tonight. I had to find him and finish the job. Sure I had literally meet the man of my dreams, but I still needed to make cash, plus today was stressful and I needed a realse. Sex was the best way I knew how. Aside from drugs, but I was seriously trying to lower my usage. Seriously. I was!

I found the young Englishman, Kol was his name. He was thin and rather handsome, he had a little dimple on his chin that made me giggle every time I saw it. I have no idea why, but it was so cute! He looked like a teenager but he'd showed me ID plenty of times that said he was 21. His English accent turned me on so quickly. He was my favourite client. He took an interest in my life and for some reason it felt like I'd known him in a past life or something. He sure seemed to know me before he meet me in the club.

"Hi love, glad you found me, shall we head upstairs?" he asked, taking my hand

"Sure thing, Kol. Today's been a bit stressful so I'm glad it's you that came in tonight and not some other creep, auditors came round trying to rummage through my accounts! Can you believe it? I've only owned the place for 6 fucking months. Although I did just meet the blue eyed man I told you about, I'm meeting with him again after we close shop" I explained, tugging him upstairs. Not only was Kol polite and sensitive, he was a great lover. One of the few I kept on as "regulars" and who I gave discounts too because… boy, did the man know how to please a woman.

"That's great, love! Let's get this show on the road, shall we?" he asked as we walked into my private room.

I was already down to my G-string, so there was no need to take my clothes off, but I was eager to get into his pants. I ripped his shirt off, raking my nails down his chest as he nibbled on neck. He loved my neck, I have no idea why.

"Mmm, keen, are we?" He laughed,

He pushed me against the door and wrapped my legs around his waist, he pulled my G-string off, and moved his hands between us, he started teasing my folds as he kissed down my neck, he moved us to the bed in the centre of the room and laid me down, and I unhooked my legs from his waist. He finally reached my breasts were my nipples were already standing at full attention. "Bite me, Kol" I begged. He did this thing with his teeth… Ever so gently scraping them along my nipples and breasts, when he clamped his teeth around my nipple and sucked hard, he pushed two fingers inside of me, pumping in and out, curling them to hit my g-spot.

"mmm Kol please just fuck me," I whined as he was between my breasts, kissing the sides of baths, sucking and pulling each nipple in turn.

"Your wish is my command, sweet heart" he grinned, whipping his pants off and laying on top of me.

He entered me swiftly, no waiting around or teasing like he usually does, my legs went around his waist to pull him closer, god I was so close to cumming, whenever I was with Kol there was no question whether he would take care of my needs or not. He did this thing where he hummed in my ear and oh lawdy did it make me explode.

He was pushing hard and fast into me, grinding his pelvic bone into my clit at the same time, he was a very talented lover, maybe he can have this for free, tonight? I thought.

"Mmmm yes, hard…Kol please…. Ahh…." I whined again, my nails digging into his back. He started humming and that just pushed me over the edge, I exploded into what felt like a million pieces, and he always knew what to do when I came, he pushed one last time deep inside me, releasing himself – I trusted Kol, no protection was needed for him – it turned me on even more, feeling him release inside of me, I fucked him while he was deep in me, him still, me going crazy on the bottom, trying to get more, maybe another round? I was ready all over again

"Stay calm, sweet dove" he whispered

"Huh?"

"KOL WHAT THE FUCK?!" I heard a loud voice boom from the door

"DAMON! Mate! I wonder when you'd join us, old friend!" Kol said, and with that, his face changed form… the skin below his eyes became darker, veins rippling through his face, his teeth... They grew into fangs…. Wait, "Damon"? That was the man's name?
I turned to look at the man and I questioned, looking into those blue orbs "Damon?" I said out loud

The right side of my neck exposed, Kol bit me. He sunk his newly exposed fangs into my neck, right as the memories of who Damon was came flooding back to me.

Damon. My boyfriend. The man who fought for me over 3 years, only to have every memory of him "compelled" away from me when I had finally chosen him.

Fuck.